[Direction]

I thought taking off while my kids were off during spring break would somehow recharge me. Off 10 days - didn't really help. Went out a trip to see Grandma...

I'm left feeling like a fake...everything externally seems to be ok, but nothing inside seems to be really settled. I'm back to work and I can barely function. I'm starting to fear that this will catch up to me and end poorly. I feel guilty for not giving it my 100% - something that now seems more like 10%...

I took the depression quiz before I left and just took it again - didn't change much. I see my p-doc tomorrow. I've thought about cancelling - after working with him 2 1/2 years - I'm not sure I made any head way.

UGH - why the emptiness?

[sabby]

((((Direction)))))

Don't cancel!! This is the time you need it the most!! I'm sorry you are going through a low time right now, but I hope it passes soon!

Hugssss
J

[Christina86]

((((((((Direction)))))))))

Don't cancel until you've talked it through with him. You may need a change of pdoc, but it could be the depression making everything seem gray.

I'm sorry you're feeling this way.

[bipolar_bear]

Please don't cancel. Sometimes depression can make everyting bleak including any progress you have made. Maybe you could talk to your pdoc about you feelings of lack of progress and both of you explore if would do better with someone else or if it is your depression talking

It is so hard to function when depression sets in. That is why it is so important to see your pdoc tomorrow I know you will make the right decision for you. Please take care.

[cajun]

Ask your pdoc if he/she thinks you are making any progress

[Fuzzybear]

Please don't cancel..... I hope things feel clearer to you after talking to your pdoc. If he isn't understanding, maybe it is time for a change (((((((( Direction ))))))))

[DePressMe]

Hi, I replied to this last night, but I don't see the post--maybe I did something wrong.

I have been seeing my pdoc for about 2 and 1/2 years. I am also struggling. I understand your frustration. I talked with my pdoc about it and he said there are always new things to try--don't give up. I think he is right. Maybe you should ask your pdoc for some new alternatives. Maybe a med adjustment? Or maybe you are right, maybe it is time for a new pdoc. In that case, it might not be a bad idea to keep your current pdoc around until you can find a new one.

[Direction]

Well I went to my p-doc. I'm a bit upset. I told him I was having trouble sleeping and wanted back on Ambien. He wants me to reduce dosage on clonazepam in exchange. I told him with the way I feel I didn't want to mess with that. He indicated that in his practice that he is now moving away from benzodiazepine for long term use. I made another appointment for two weeks, but I think I need to find someone else?

A couselor from my church had recommended him - how do you go about picking someone else? How do you bring them up to speed on the last 2 1/2 years.

My kids see a p-doc for meds and therapist. I'm wondering if this is a better combination? I'm wondering if I should take on their doc and therapist?

I'm feeling lost

[drunksunflower]

I don't know very much about p-docs. But if you feel it is time for a change then maybe you should go for it?

Good luck