[hey_hey]

Today is a day I feel that way again-- so empty when others see me as someone having almost the world...

It's been such a long time I haven't come to here (wondering where I have been)... It is getting so warm each day, hardly believe it should still be spring... the air makes you feel difficult to breathe and streets are so crowded, packed with people and cars... so damn hard to find somewhere peaceful... damn commercialization.

Now it is the end of Monday here, definitely not a lovely day for me. Things didn't go well at work, then physically got tired, then mentally. It really affected my efficiency, so I ended up feeling no sense of acheivements. There is nothing in my heart right now, totally empty... Don't know where to start with again so I will go upward...

Funny, people look at me (or sometimes I look at others when they say they are not happy) as someone have most of things, yet still have so much to complain about... Do I really have them? then why don't I see myself... sometimes I could be so clear with what to do when others asked me what they should do(so easy to stand in others' shoes and find solutions), but when with myself, I get so confused, all the reasoning I had for those people, I don't have it for myself, you kow?... nothing seems to work for me anymore...

(sigh...)

Really sorry for bringing negative energy here...

Best,
Toni

[i] What our mind can conceive and believe, it will achieve.

[atrester]

I totally relate to your post. I too am someone who seems to have so much and manage so much and yet feel incompetant. I too am someone people come to for guidance and yet can't find my way out of this black hole. It is the ups and the downs that are hard sometimes.

I had a really down week last week what I did do was write down what I was feeling so I could look at it piece by piece. I also tried to make a list of things I could do to make my days easier. Then I also made a point when I was happy to write down the things that I was able to appreciate in the moment. I find that notebook full of things can help me get things into perspective.

I am so sorry you are having a bad day. I hope it goes better from here on.

[Peanut61]

I'm glad to see you, (((((((Hey_Hey))))))); I had wondered how things were going for you...

I'm sorry that you're feeling down/empty...I hope your mood lifts soon!

Most fondly, Peanut

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[Rapunzel]

Hey Toni!!! Long time, no see! I'm sorry that feeling down is what has brought you back to this place, but I have been thinking of you and I am very glad to see you again. You know, sometimes it is being successful and appearing to the world like a person who has it all together that can really make it rough. Then you feel like, "what right do I have to feel bad or complain?" but you still have your complaints, and life isn't perfect. Your feelings are still legitimate, no matter what. If there is something that could be better, you have the right to struggle with it and improve your situation.

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-Wendy

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[Fuzzybear]

It's good to see you back here Toni, but I am sorry you're feeling down and empty.
I am thinking of you and I hope you feel better soon! ((((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))))

[hey_hey]

Thanks for your reply and kind advice. I tried to write things done a few weeks again and get myself more organized, but just didn't get enough time to carry things out, sometimes when I did have time I kinda feeling tired and drained, couldn't do anything else but sleep, or something that doesn't need much brain cells...

But I found to be able to appreciate what you have is really helpful, and it was I started with today... Tried to feel God's existance and his blessings upon me, and I felt more complete now...

Today was an extreme busy day at work, didn't get time spent on what I'd like to do... I would have been happier if I were having a bit more time for myself... well, I am probably complaining too much... really thankful for listening to me...

Sounds you did manage to turn things around, wish I could do the same. Normally it takes a few days to find feelings back again, but this time it seems taking a lot longer... wondering if it's been accumulating and it finally got to a breaking point... anyway, let's see how it goes tomorrow... I will keep it updated... thanks for caring and it was surely a good way you showed me, thank you...

Best,
Toni

[i] What our mind can conceive and believe, it will achieve.

[hey_hey]

Hi Peanut,

thanks for replying... I am still alive and trying... good to see you again... I am working it out to get above...

Thanks for writing...

Best,
Toni

[i] What our mind can conceive and believe, it will achieve.

[hey_hey]

Wendy, thanks for telling me that it is not a terrible thing to still feel bad or complain about thing... sometimes I feel what I have are so ample and I really shouldn't do anything like that, but sometimes I feel just like that, that really, there are still things not perfect...

terrible me...

How have you been? Nice pic you attached, thanks... hope this one finds you well...

Best,
Toni

[i] What our mind can conceive and believe, it will achieve.

[hey_hey]

What's up Fuzzy? I like how you present your name on all your posts...

Thanks for the hugs, how are things with you?

Best,
Toni

[i] What our mind can conceive and believe, it will achieve.