[Turtlesoup]

Originally Posted by color14u

Good night and good bye all. I appreciate the hugs and support...

Please live and love and never forget you are loved and you do count.

please take care & let us know how you are doing-we care

[LindaLu]

This was going to be my whiz bang day to get stuff done. My feet got wet in the snow, I got chilled, my BP drops when I'm cold, and now am drowsy -- so stuff's not getting done. I refuse to beat myself up about it. I don't even know that anyone else with my mental/emotional problems would do any better. And if they could, good for them. I'm doing okay for me.

[color14u]

Thanks for the concern. I am as okay as I can get right now. I just should never drink wine or probably anything for that matter. I'm not in a good place right now. I am tired of hurting both physically and mentally. Need to clear my head so I can concentrate on physical healing. Not going very well so far. I am getting support, but not for the right things.
The Doc cleared me to drive even though I can't walk and my husband took my car keys??? There are things I can do, but I'm being smothered and in a lot of ways silenced. I really don't know what to do.

[Espresso]

I'm very sad today. I can't do this much longer.

[TheOriginalMe]

I actually got some rest today, for the first time in nearly two weeks. I had a load of chores to do, and I wanted to spend some time doing something that wasn't housework. I didn't get anytime doing "nice" stuff, I gave up on that idea in favour of rest. I do feel better for it, but I really resent not being able to do anything other than the basics.

[Nammu]

Well I'm in a bind. I don't know what to do. I just relized I took my pm meds this morning at 8am. I fill my med box on sat nights( it's not like sat nights ore fun nights out or anything) I did sleep until after noon but I didn't think anything of it except that it was nice to get so much sleep. My night meds are kinda heavy duty so I'm not sure what to do now. Take my reg meds tonight or skip until tomorrow night? The only thing I missed this morning was my synthroid.

I go to a county mental health place so no phone numbers after hours or weekends. Not sure what to do. This does explain my headache and slight dizziness all day.

A Humdrum day aside from the above, watched The Interview from redbox. So-so, certainly not worth all the hubbub with N.Korea. Fun but not hilarious.

[LittleEarthquakes]

I don't know how but I've been resisting staying in bed. What concerns me is lately I've had more severe feelings that getting out of bed is pointless, even though I'm managing to do it. Well I don't know how to describe it right now but things feel hopeless.

[Dante744]

Day started off pretty good I was able to get things done and bought a gift for my grandmother's birthday and spend time with her. But then I made a terrible decision that was pretty selfish and careless of me and it ruined my entire day. After that I was very sad and emotionally destroyed I haven't felt this bad in awhile but once I talked to my sister I calmed down and was able to move on the rest of the day.

Am kind bummed out today (even moreso than usual) because I have a cold/chest congestion and feel tired and achy. I don't imagine I will do a whole lot today. I was looking forward to going out and doing some stuff with my husband since I hardly do anything all week and it's my chance to live a little. Oh well, we'll see . . .

feeling good. not happy of course - i haven't felt happy in 2 years. but good enough. i'm seeing a friend at 1.

[divine1966]

I am generally more anxious than depressed. Today feel depressed woke up and can't stop crying. Some of it is related to legitimate difficulties: mom having cancer and surgery, I was recently scammed, lost money, I am too broke to visit my daughter, financial troubles as I am having trouble paying bills ( I work but have a lot of debt). So some of it just general things. But overall I just feel lonely and have to force myself to get stuff done.
I have my t appointment tomorrow and feel like canceling because I just don't feel like talking.....

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[herethennow]

down. just feel like a burden. major stressors coming up so... meh.

Possible trigger:

thinking of ways to sui. si ongoing so frequently now.

i give up on pdoc. 3 more months.

[dandylin]

...rolling in the deep

[hopeless2015]

Haven't accomplished much this weekend. 2nd appointment with therapist tomorrow. One day at a time right now

[Angelique67]

I feel lost and out of the loop. Like there's no place for me on earth.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by Angelique67

I feel lost and out of the loop. Like there's no place for me on earth.

There's a place here for you Angelique.

Bored and weary, the kind of feelings that make my mind wander... Thinking of things from the past that hurt me - specifically from March a year ago. So many memories... The bad cold that made me miss 3 days of school. The shopping at Walmart with my mom for my grandpa's 80th birthday party; the crowds and the noise, the pink journal, the exhaustion afterwards. Mom had bought snacks (crackers, cheese slices, lunch meats) and had put them together all beautifully in a container for Grandpa's 80th (on the 13th). Then, on the night of the 12th, she and my dad were drunk, and they got into it. The fight escalated. I intervened. The following day she had a bruise on the side of her face, and so we didn't go to Grandpa's party. Bummer. Dad felt horrible, apologized profusely - said he didn't remember anything. I ended up eating most of the crackers. That was also the month I dropped out of high school, and I wish I hadn't. Many regrets. But still, it seemed like a pretty good time in my life, as odd as that may be. I guess because it was only downhill from there. A landslide. Especially these last 5 months. But anyway, I really don't know the point of my writing all this. I guess I'm doing it more for myself than anything. Don't mind me...

[Chummy]

I'm so tired of myself

[divine1966]

I am so anxious I don't know how to get through the day

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Originally Posted by herethennow

down. just feel like a burden. major stressors coming up so... meh.

Possible trigger:

thinking of ways to sui. si ongoing so frequently now.

i give up on pdoc. 3 more months.

please don't do anything SU, i care about you and your life is very precious. i am always here if you want a chat.

Not much of a day for me today. The weather is windy, rainy, and cold. That does not happen very often where I live. So I'm just going to keep myself busy inside. I guess a day like today would do me good for a change.

[lonely-and-sad]

Under massive stress. MASSIVE.

[waterknob1234]

It was a rainy and cold weekend. On the one hand, I still feel the inertia of not being sure where to go with my life from here. On the other hand, I got a lot done this weekend. I am almost finished with my tax return, I did an online CEU course for my job, and I served at church this morning.

I wish I could get over this awful respiratory flu though. I have suffered stopped up sinuses for 2 weeks. After church I had to take antihistamines for relief and it made me sleepy.

[waterknob1234]

One good thing I found out this weekend is that my son has a job lined up as soon as he graduates with his Master's Degree from college. It is a good job and I am happy for him.

Not much of a day, but I did get to visit a friend for about an hour today. I guess that's the only highlight of the day. I had a nice visit and pretty intense conversation about life and stuff. It seemed like that hour went by very fast. Today went by very fast. It was nice not to rush to do things today for a change because of the lousy weather.