[km65]

I recently went for help(DSS), spoke to a health worker, told her that I done a far amount of drugs, mostly not to feel Depressed, and was very Depressed and had thoughts harming myself. She has done nothing to get in touch with anyone to get me help.
I go to a Meth Clinic everyday, this makes my Depression/Suicidal even worse. Anyway my worker at the meth clinic takes these thoughs very lightly and I leave there starting my day ready to hurt myself for ending up there in the first place.
It's hard to get away from these people, I half to deal with them either on a daily or weekly basis. I don't know what to do and the weekend is coming!!
Are there ways to help these feelings before its too late??

[Peanut61]

Hi KM: That's awful that nobody is 'listening' to you when you tell them how you are feeling. Keep trying to tell someone who can help, and, meanwhile, check out http://www.suicidal.com for a place where people DO understand, and where important resources and suggestions are provided. Also, I hope you will continue to post here and let us know how you are doing; so that you will not feel alone in this.

WELCOME to the Board! Best regards, Peanut

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[dexter]

on the website that peanut suggested there are also hotline numbers... if you feel really bad please call one of those phone numbers, they can talk to you and help you with options, sometimes just talking to them helps.


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-- Dave
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[Starbuck]

Hi km65, nice to meet you.

Well, yes, I've felt your way, I know what you are talking about.

My blunt opinion would be this : quit the meth first and foremost. If you've done it already, good.

Now you need professional support for this type of struggle, it's a must. You need more than a forum here, though it helps a lot.

I hope you'll get thru, just find the right help you need, ok ?

Sincerely,

Starbuck


Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Studied and worked (Majors in History, Theology. M.A. in Sociology).

[silver_queen]

>>Are there ways to help these feelings before its too late??

I have been there before, km65, wanting help before it was too late...because I knew what was going to happen. It kinda struck a chord. Well, stop at NOTHING to get yourself some help!!! I know you will probably not believe it right now, but your life is VERY IMPORTANT and people WILL miss you! Please get yourself help. Find a counsellor and talk to them they should be able to start to get you help, or visit your doctor.

All hope is not lost, you know!

- silver_queen

RIP Dexter...

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[km65]

Thanks everone for your support. I did seek medical help friday evening at local hospital. They held me ovenight untill I could see the Doctor(Psyc.) Which I thought would not happen untill Monday. On top of that they were holding back on medicating me until I saw A Doctor, talk about Panic Attack!! I'm on 160 mg Meth and it's 11:00 in the morning on Saturday and I have not been medicated looking and feeling like it will be another 2 days until I see Any kind of meds.
Then all of a sudden a man walks up to me and asks my name. Itell him, I'm the person he has been looking for. IT WAS A DOCTOR, YES.
Well after sitting and talking for 15 min. I'm told I will be released with scrips for 2 meds and my meth will be waiting for me when I get out of his office. I was out in the beautiful weather by 12:00.
Going in in my condition and the thought of possibly ending up in worse shape ended up working out for the best(my little prayers may have helped).
The gave me an anti-depresant and thorazine so I can get a good nights sleep. The thorazine was given to me Fri. nite and I woke up feeling rested for the first time in 5 years. I did take it again last nite(Sat), now here it is 8:00 Sunday morning and feel rested and Great.
I don't know if it is the experiance I went through or the meds that are making me feel this good; maybe a combo of both.
Anyway I feel great today and for now that is all that matters!
Tomorrow is another day...
And abot that meth I'm taking, I asking to start a detox of that garbage 1st thing monday morning. I could not find 1 Doctor, Nurse, or Patiant who had any thing good to say about it's long term usage, they all told me to GET OFF.
So I'll give it a shot I have nothing to loose.
I can only hope that my other meds keep me feeling this "normal" .

Thanks to everyone for their support, you helped kick me butt and get me started on a more positive road,

THANK YOU ALL,
Ken M.