Why can't I get help

No one can help me

I'm so tired of feeling like this

I don't sleep

I'm terrified

I reach out for help and no one helps me

My doctor does **** all for me

No one calls me back when I reach out to different doctors

Very thing has a waiting list in this stupid ****ing city

I have no friends

I'm so upset and tired of none helping me when I try so hArd

nobody cares about me

Hi Teacup,

I'm so sorry you feel so unsupported, right now
But one thing is for definite, you are going to find people who care on here
Now real kudos for all the attempts you been making, I know it can be real hard to work up that kind of effort when you're battling with depression.
Doctors..........I'm sorry I'm not from your country and you probably have tried everything anyway........but just wondering if you have any walk in medical centres around you............if you have maybe the excuse that you can't get an appointment to see your doctor...........???
Otherwise it sounds like you're left with being very, very "direct" with your doctor if that makes any difference, I'm sorry
And no friends sounds pretty isolating too..............but of course maybe part of or all of that could be down to the depression............can very hard to make/find or maintain connections if you're feeling/are depressed.
I don't know whether you could at least for now pull on family members a bit more?? But if not, or regardless, you can turn to us on here.
I don't know how much we can help (but maybe) but at least we can offer you some understanding and support and sometimes that in itself can help a bit........and we can/do care. So keep on talking, hey?? You're not alone

Alison

Hi teacup, welcome and thank you for sharing with us. It is a privilege we have in this community to reach out to people who are struggling and try to understand. You're not alone here. I really feel for you and really really hope you can find a way forward. Until then, make use of the support you can get here. I know people here have made such a difference for me and helped me find courage to face the next day, or even the next hour. I hope you get as much benefit too.