[Caelix3]

I just feel so depressed and low, I haven't felt this bad in years. I haven't showered in two days and I just feel tired. Tired of living and being numb all the time. I want to feel something, anything. I'm so close to getting a therapist, my mom just needs to call them to schedule a appointment. But last time therapy didn't help me and I honestly feel like I will never get better. None of my psychiatrists have figured out a working medication combination and I'm overall just tired and fed up with it all. I have no friends like a normal teenager would and I just feel so lonely and out of touch.

[ProudlyPersevering]

I am so sorry you are feeling this way! When I was a teenager I remember wanting nothing but to feel like that "normal teenager" you mentioned but I grew up to learn that there really is no normal, it is all who you are and how you can get through the day. I hope things get better. Remember were all here to listen.

[gayleggg]

Sorry for your suffering. Depression is awful. As a sufferer it can make it seem like it will never change but don't give up hope. It can change. Good luck to you. Give therapy another try.

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[Fuzzybear]

[vital]

Originally Posted by Caelix3

I just feel so depressed and low, I haven't felt this bad in years. I haven't showered in two days and I just feel tired. Tired of living and being numb all the time. I want to feel something, anything. I'm so close to getting a therapist, my mom just needs to call them to schedule a appointment. But last time therapy didn't help me and I honestly feel like I will never get better. None of my psychiatrists have figured out a working medication combination and I'm overall just tired and fed up with it all. I have no friends like a normal teenager would and I just feel so lonely and out of touch.

Hi Caelix,

A very good friend of mine lives in Aurora, IL! I know the place pretty well.

Don't be discouraged by the medications not working. They do have a terrible track record, but, lucky for you, there are lots of great things to do for depression that are great for your health anyway. Here are some suggestions:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

I also think that it helps so much if you can understand why and how your depression is happening to you. You might find these notes helpful for that:

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

- vital

[Caelix3]

Originally Posted by vital

Hi Caelix,

A very good friend of mine lives in Aurora, IL! I know the place pretty well.

Don't be discouraged by the medications not working. They do have a terrible track record, but, lucky for you, there are lots of great things to do for depression that are great for your health anyway. Here are some suggestions:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

I also think that it helps so much if you can understand why and how your depression is happening to you. You might find these notes helpful for that:

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

- vital

Thanks for the info, that "SNAP CLUB" article was very interesting!

[lonely-and-sad]

Originally Posted by Caelix3

I just feel so depressed and low, I haven't felt this bad in years. I haven't showered in two days and I just feel tired. Tired of living and being numb all the time. I want to feel something, anything. I'm so close to getting a therapist, my mom just needs to call them to schedule a appointment. But last time therapy didn't help me and I honestly feel like I will never get better. None of my psychiatrists have figured out a working medication combination and I'm overall just tired and fed up with it all. I have no friends like a normal teenager would and I just feel so lonely and out of touch.

Being depressed in the teenage years is not much fun. I haven't heard of doctors running out of options or not knowing what to do with someone just starting out in life before. Same with therapy usually a teenager has not attended much therapy. How many medications have you tried? Have you completed much therapy? At what age were you feeling good?

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[Caelix3]

Originally Posted by lonely-and-sad

Being depressed in the teenage years is not much fun. I haven't heard of doctors running out of options or not knowing what to do with someone just starting out in life before. Same with therapy usually a teenager has not attended much therapy. How many medications have you tried? Have you completed much therapy? At what age were you feeling good?

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I have never felt good, I've always been depressed ever since I started school at age 5.

Medication Tried: Welbutrin,Abilify,Clonazepam,Olanzapine,Venlafaxine,Prozac,Lexapro,Risperidone,Sertraline,Quetiapine.

Therapy I will agree that I haven't attended much, because they would either move away or insurance issues. I may get a therapist sometime soon but I need to have my mom call to schedule a appointment.

[lonely-and-sad]

Originally Posted by Caelix3

I have never felt good, I've always been depressed ever since I started school at age 5.

Medication Tried: Welbutrin,Abilify,Clonazepam,Olanzapine,Venlafaxine,Prozac,Lexapro,Risperidone,Sertraline,Quetiapine.

Therapy I will agree that I haven't attended much, because they would either move away or insurance issues. I may get a therapist sometime soon but I need to have my mom call to schedule a appointment.

I had depression from a very young age although it did not get severe until I was 16. A few decades have passed for me and I have still not exhausted all my options.

I have been reading a lot and it seems that genetics/biology is heavily involved in depression when it starts so young. For me there is a family history of persistent delressive disorder and no traumatic event or events occured to help make me this way. I was just depressed for no reason.

Despite this all the evidence points to therapy and medications. Therapy is especially useful I think for things like social rejection (i had and still have no friends). And obviously therapy is helpful elsewhere. There is HUGE evidence base for that. Medications its true don't work for everyone. But the majority do find a combination or an individual medication that helps. There is no cure but there is effective treatments. Now that is what the evidence says. I can back that up with studies. Exercise, fish oil, meditation, an active social life etc are important as well.

Your list of medications suggest something else is going on. What is your diagnosis?

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[Ruftin]

(((Caelix))) I'm in the black hole with you right now. Depression really sucks. My meds work but I still have breakthrough depression. We just have to get through this together. I was 5 years old when I first felt my depression. It runs in my family. Things can and will get better for you. Don't give up and do push your mom to make that appointment for you. The sooner the better!!! Hugs!!

[cakeladie]

Try and take a shower I think you might feel a little better also get to the therapist. The right one will make a world of difference

[Caelix3]

Originally Posted by lonely-and-sad

I had depression from a very young age although it did not get severe until I was 16. A few decades have passed for me and I have still not exhausted all my options.

I have been reading a lot and it seems that genetics/biology is heavily involved in depression when it starts so young. For me there is a family history of persistent delressive disorder and no traumatic event or events occured to help make me this way. I was just depressed for no reason.

Despite this all the evidence points to therapy and medications. Therapy is especially useful I think for things like social rejection (i had and still have no friends). And obviously therapy is helpful elsewhere. There is HUGE evidence base for that. Medications its true don't work for everyone. But the majority do find a combination or an individual medication that helps. There is no cure but there is effective treatments. Now that is what the evidence says. I can back that up with studies. Exercise, fish oil, meditation, an active social life etc are important as well.

Your list of medications suggest something else is going on. What is your diagnosis?

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Diagnoses: Social Anxiety,Depression,Psychotic Disorder. I personally think I may have a dissociation disorder as well but that has not been diagnosed as of yet.

[lonely-and-sad]

Social anxiety sucks. It does respond better to therapy so does dissociation. I can identify with much of what you feel. I know it is very difficult right now to be grateful for anything but here is the only thing I can offer: at least you are addressing it. You should not alter your pathway to treatment. There are some people that are anti meds and some even that deny that mental illness even exists. Pay no attention.

Just as another poster said i am feeling low as well. When I was your age I had social anxiety to the point of almost phobia. This was pre internet days and obtaining any information was sooooo much more difficult. I did not know what was happening to me was something that needed treatment. And the social anxiety was so severe I would have had to have been almost forced to talk about myself. That may well have been different if I had been born 15 years later and had the info we now have in front of us.

There is a big difference between knowing and not knowing; between getting treatment and not getting treatment. Trust me I know about that. My life spiraled out of control. You have a chance to address it now or at the very least give it a real go. You are still young. Keep going.

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