[Elektra_]

when u have no one to count on. when u gona lose ur T (she doesnt care much either). when u have no friends at all. when ur never loved. when ur parents make this even worse and reveal themselves being bastards. u hold on to what?

[BAZOOCA123]

I hold on to Jesus. Sometimes I feel like God is my only friend beside my family. He and my family are the only things I live for and the only things that keep me alive.

[purplek0ala]

Sometimes you just have to keep holding on.

Can you maybe find another T?

I really hope things start looking up for you.
We're all in the same boat.
Just know you're not alone.

[Ruftin]

(((Elektra))) You hold on for you!!! For the side of you that is not depressed and hopeless. It wants you to hold on. There are people here who care for you. Hold on for them. We need you. We are all are trying to hold on. There is something beyond this, but we have to finish this race called life. I believe we have been given these burdens because we are the strong ones in this world. An average person wouldn't last a day in our minds.

Focus on one positive thing in your life right now at this moment in time. You have the ability to communicate you feelings. That's a positive!!! Relish it. You are strong!!! You wouldn't be here fighting for yourself if you weren't. Look for the little things like this and build on them. Don't let sorrow be the master of your life. Refuse to let it win!!!

Hold on for you; do it for yourself. You are so worth recovery.

[Elektra_]

how can i hold on for me if "me" has no value to anyone? i probb have given up already... i was just waiting for SOMETHING good to happen but no, things only got worse. i dont have control over my life. who i am doesnt fit.

[Ruftin]

You have value (((Electra)))!! We all do. We may not see it during our lows, but when the sun peeps through the darkness and the light shines on your life you can see the value of you. You may need to have your medications tweaked. You've spent too much time in that dark pit and it's effecting your thinking. You need to get out of there and breathe some fresh air. Please go see your doctor. You owe it to yourself to try. What is there to loose, except the grip that depression has on you right now?

[Elektra_]

where? no bf, friends, job. i dont even exist! meds wont change the way i think. and according to my T i dont have depression.

Originally Posted by Ruftin

You have value (((Electra)))!! We all do. We may not see it during our lows, but when the sun peeps through the darkness and the light shines on your life you can see the value of you. You may need to have your medications tweaked. You've spent too much time in that dark pit and it's effecting your thinking. You need to get out of there and breathe some fresh air. Please go see your doctor. You owe it to yourself to try. What is there to loose, except the grip that depression has on you right now?

[Chummy]

It's hard. I felt like this. I've been there. I don't know how I held on.
Can't you find an other T, a better one?

[vital]

Originally Posted by Elektra_

how can i hold on for me if "me" has no value to anyone? i probb have given up already... i was just waiting for SOMETHING good to happen but no, things only got worse. i dont have control over my life. who i am doesnt fit.

If you're feeling this way most of the time, I would personally say that you're "depressed," but whether you are officially depressed or not doesn't even matter. The good things to do for depression are great for your health and well being anyway, whether you are depressed or not:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

...The thing is, though, you might find it difficult to take positive steps because, as you say...

Originally Posted by Elektra_

i dont have control over my life.

Because of that, I think it would be a great idea to start with "SNAP CLUB" as described here:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...n-escaped.html

This will let you use whatever you are already doing in your daily life to really FEEL the power you already have but don't realize you have. It's ridiculously easy and even fun to do. It's a great way to start no matter how bad you're feeling. This might seem a little ridiculous to you or even a little insulting, but don't be fooled. It is a hugely powerful thing to do and this step in itself can have a transformative effect.

- vital

[Ruftin]

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[Elektra_]

i just need to **** off. im sick of this crap!!!

[artichack]

Originally Posted by Elektra_

i just need to **** off. im sick of this crap!!!

Something that makes you want to be here....maybe helping others....I catch myself cursing my life.....why am I like this.....jumbled 50 plus years of living.....ya know what? Others have it so much worse than I do....just saying by reading your original post....maybe start there and work towards healing......giving can really help....and knowing that others here do care.....Artie

[Elektra_]

sooo good when ur family loves to reinforce the fact u have no friends nor bf... and that i dont have bf bc i dont want to (hilarious)!

[Elektra_]

feeling more pressure to get a ****ing job. MONEY MONEY MONEY is all my ****ing parents care! if im like shi.t for years, who tha **** cares!!!! lololollol feeling more trapped everyday and with no way out. with no one to count on. i might really freak out

[waterknob1234]

I know hunting for a job is hard. Hang in there Elektra. You are a good person and you deserve to have a good life. Is there a way to get another T, maybe a better one? We care about you.

[Elektra_]

Originally Posted by waterknob1234

I know hunting for a job is hard. Hang in there Elektra. You are a good person and you deserve to have a good life. Is there a way to get another T, maybe a better one? We care about you.

well i dont feel able to go for a job. how do u know what kind of person i am? and it doesnt appear that way since all i have in my life is shi.t after shi.t. whats the point of getting another T? no T is able to help. and i tried way too many. this one i dont pay and she is the best i found so far. but the blablabla Ts give us doesnt make any dif to me so maybe i need something else. yet i have no money. so i see no way out of this.

[Elektra_]

i cant do anything anymore. no matter what i do i dont get anywhere. im tired

Hi Elektra, I'm so sorry to hear how you are struggling. Aside from the feelings of depression (diagnosed or not) you sound extremely frustrated and angry. I obviously don't know anything about you or your situation, but there is help out there. There are people who care, and there's lots of us here on PC. To me, it sounds like your frustration (anger) is preventing you from accepting help even tho you are reaching out. I'm sorry I don't have words how to change this, but please know that the people here on PC are sincere. Everyone deserves happiness and I hope you at least keep posting to vent out your feelings. We are listening.

[Elektra_]

idiot T only today decided to redirect my sessions to some carrer tests and whatnot. hilarious as ive been struggling with wtf am doing in this world for 2 years and only now she ****ing wakes up.

[vishee15]

Originally Posted by Elektra_

when u have no one to count on. when u gona lose ur T (she doesnt care much either). when u have no friends at all. when ur never loved. when ur parents make this even worse and reveal themselves being bastards. u hold on to what?

You hold onto Yourself...

[Elektra_]

again,the more i try the less it works

[wa(o)rrior]

Dear friend

the problem is for every attempt you are trying you are not getting the results. that is causing more frustration. you are struggling to get out of the miserable state of mind and you can't. no matter what suggestions your T says or anyone from here says, its not working for you. ok time to stop trying to struggle. just let go. you don't have to try any steps. give it a break.

some people's mind is more resistant to change. it takes time. you are just overwhelming yourself. first let's atleast stop getting frustrated.

[Elektra_]

hi. prob is i cant afford to take a break. ive lost already 5 years of my life. my parents are sick of my jobless situation...

[Elektra_]

i wasnt born to be happy. my life was chosen for me and i have no way out. i cant be treated and i cant continue this way