I have given up... Should I quit wasting my therapist's time?

This time last year I told my therapist I would not "do another year of depression"
I lied because, here I am, a miserable year later....
Do I bother to attend therapy this week and confess that I have never been less interested in living or do I just phone and say "Bye and Thanks for trying"?
I've never been hospitalized before and I CAN'T BE so maybe it's better to just leave???
I have NO faith in the idea that I will be "cured" but I AM scared about quitting...
BUT He has a VERY full list and a WAIT LIST so his time could be far better spent than on me....
Thoughts please....

FALLING TEARS

My Personal Opinion Only: The question for you is not whether you are wasting your therapist's time but whether you are wasting your time and money.

You have given this therapist and his approach(es) a good try, yes? Have you told him what you've told us here? Is he offering you only more of the same? Then it is time to consider moving on to something different. Yes, stopping and change are scary, particularly for us with MI issues.

Wishing you strength.

i don't think you should quit therapy.

your therapist can teach you coping methods, and help you with issues- issues which you may not even know you have. talking and getting insight is great for healing, and i encourage you to continue going

of course, ultimately, it's your life and your dicission.

but therapy is a really good tool to have. don't waste it

I think the depth of your depression is make you feeling you are wasting your therapist's time-- which you are definitely not. Your therapist's time is meant to help you. As Rohag said if you've given this therapist a fair try and it's not working, you can move on to someone or something different. But quitting therapy will not be helpful. You say you have no faith in the idea that you can ever be cured. But your posting this, and asking the questions you do, shows that you do have at least a little spark of hope and faith. Hold on to that. Try to think in terms of remission and management of your depression. As yet there is no "cure" for depression, but it can be managed and put into remission. Please keep trying. As long as you do things will someday get better for you.

Hello I just want to repeat what others have said because I believe it to be very true:

1) You are not wasting your therapists time. Depression makes everything seem negative, please believe he is not wasting his time and you are not wasting his time... Anything to try to help is worth the time and effort.

2) If it feels like it is not helping it may be time for a change, an new approach, maybe even just a new therapist for a fresh look. Someone with a different "bedside manner" may make all of the difference.

Please hang on to your fear of quitting. As long as there is fear it means a part of you still hopes for something better. It was that tiny bit of fear that I had that made me call a hotline at the last minute and led to me living. Yes I was hospitalized but it led to a different path than I was on.

Give therapy a chance or please try another alternative. Good luck, hope you find something that works for you. It can be hard.