Feel completely alone...wishing I could go away...

Not sure why I thought if I reached, someone, anyone, would care. Even if not knowing what to say, just to give me just a few words like "I'm here" or "I care"...or anything would have been better than nothing...not sure why I was dumb enough to reach out in the first place. Having the hope that someone would be there and would care! Not only was I wrong but today I wake up wishing I had the courage to go away... Emptiness... An empty hope...

Don't even know why Im writing this. Im sure 52 people are going to pass it by too...or more. Not really much anyone can say now anyway that will make my empty reach last night...and a morning for the first time without a word when I needed it the most, any better. Or the absolute hopeless I have...the emptiness...the feeling of being completely alone, in every single way...and the absolute wish that I could go away but Im too scared to...a coward.

An illusion. Why I was dumb enough to believe an illusion of someone caring?

Reaching out is not a crime, my dear friend. It's normal. I have same situation as yours sometimes. The loneliness and emptiness. It eaten you up from the inside. But don't let your ego deceives you. No one is made to be alone. People is this community, they care. I guess we care about each other because we are from the same kind. Individual with hardship. But life is full of wonder. A little faith, patience, and courage will get you through. Be strong, yeah?

Sometimes just getting through each day requires almost superhuman strength ~ Excerpt from After You by Jojo Moyes

Maybe not, but its empty...not sure why i had the hope someone would care. Silence speaks volumes! Hoping is pointless! At least if you dont hope but get an "i care", you dont get let down, left completely alone to wish more than anything now that you had the courage to go away...but i dont and so as always i am forced to remain here, and i dont know why im fighting so hard...whats at the end but more emptiness and being completely alone...

Thank you for caring! Dont know if anything or anyone can make this better but thank you for caring anyway!

I am here and I care. "This to shall pass." I know those words are probably not comforting but I have found them to be true. Eventually things always change. Sometimes from good to bad and sometime bad to good.

When at a bottom the only way to go is up even if it takes time.

Most of the people here have been in a similar place and we know how difficult it is. We do care about others. Hope it changes for you soon.

Im there too just existing. You are not alone in this

I feel like im fighting a loosing battle and not even sure why im fighting so hard when in the end im going to be completely alone anyway.

Wish i could rewind time. Would never of told a soul! So now im family-less, friend-less, everything-less. Its the defintion of emptiness.

Why try? Why fight so damn hard?

Thank you for your kind reply! I hate that you feel the same but it helps to know im not alone.