i've planned my funeral

but only in my head.

i've planned my entire funeral- from the songs i want, to the food, to what i want done with my body, everything.. my question is, why?

i'm only in my late 20's, and on 1 hand- i don't think i should be planning/ talking about funerals ( suppose it's depressing in itself and does not make you feel any better anyway), but on the other hand i'm all ready suicidal, and who knows what's going to happen- i need to plan these things in advance.

but do you think it's too early to start doing this?

i've explained why i think it is/ isn't, but could i get all your opinions?

has anyone else done like me and planned their funeral in their heads, down to the last detail?

thanks..

i should add that i've not told anyone (like an undertaker, a lawyer, anyone like that) it's all just planned out in my head

Hey,

I haven't planned my funeral. If i died, i wouldn't want anyone to find me. I wouldn't want anyone to even realise that I'm dead.

Why haven't you told anyone about your plans? I think talking about it'd give you some relieve.

Oh, and, I don't think that it's "too early" to plan your funeral. I just think it shows how much you're hurting.

Hang in there. We'll all be better one day, right?

i've planned mine, just burn me and do whatever you want with the remains - doesnt bother me

I have planned mine and even bought a burial policy that allowed me to pick out everything in advance, including flowers. But I'm much older than you and I was afraid I would die and my daughter would be financially responsible for my funeral so I planned it in advance. I already have my tombstone, too.

No one will know i'm gone until it is too late to plan a funeral. People will find out but not all at once, eventually everyone will probably realize I am missing but I don't have anyone in my life or any means for the "news" to spread. So yea, just get rid of me and let people have whatever memories they will when they eventually find out.

Shattered do you think your planning is a form or suicidal ideation? What I just described above, for me, is.

if it was me, trust me, that's how i'd do it too- no one knows (well, no one will, i don't have family, friends, etc). but i suppose my corpse can't just lie on the floor somewhere- i need to think about these things

i've not told anyone because i'm so used to being judged and ignored- and i have a feeling that what i say would mean nothing.

plus.. it's fear

i can't ring them up- because of phone phobia, i can't go and see them because of agoraphobia.

so that leaves email.. and how many people who organize funerals do you know that do things by email.

(well in my case, not many)

deffenetly

i'm suicidal anyway, so part of it is deffenetly to do with that- as i feel everything needs to be in place and the way i'm feeling, it feels like i don't have long.. so i want everything planned

I haven't legally made arrangements yet, but I need to ...

The last thing I want is for my any members of my toxic family of origin (immediate or otherwise) to have any say so in my funeral plans.

With that being said, I want to be cremated and my ashes scattered in a mountain river or stream so I can travel along towards the ocean with all the spirits of Native Americans and forest critters that have wandered along there before me.

I didn't actually mean organising your funeral. I was more thinking about discussing your plans with someone (e.g here, or feel free to message me, or..). I don't know anyone either, though. may i ask if you see a t?

And: you matter!

I don't see any problem with it. I'd just say plan it, write it out and consult with a lawyer. Then you can put it behind you and live without worrying.

oops...

so i like, totally miss understood you?.

lol

but i know what you're saying now... and thanks, i may just message you (not just about that, but about stuff in general)

i'm on my 9th therapist now, but for all the damage it's done.. i still ask the question if it was all worth it.

too far gone me thinks..

thanks for saying i matter, that means a great deal to me. (just ashame no one close to me thinks that)

living without worry... what a wonderful thought

Planning and arranging for your "final wishes" is an act of responsibility. But... I do sense a bit a fantasizing here.

i just want to thank everyone for all the responses... you've all been great

Hehe. I meant both, what you understood first and what i explained later. I am sorry - my english isn't the best, but i try hard to make myself understandable

I'd be happy to recieve a message from you. You may be right that the damage is done, but you've survived the damage, the hurting, the pain for so long now. That has to pay out at some point, hasn't it?

Feel huged, if you want.

I don't picture my funeral but I picture my parents finding me after I'm dead and what their reactions would be. The thought keeps me from killing myself.