confessions of little turtle

back to psych drugs....when I had my disabling depression...I was started on Elavil and after a couple of weeks the tension in my body went away...I felt like doing something...
but the theory then was -----you will take this for the rest of your life...
well Prozac came along...I switched...after that I have been on most of the ssris...
they all pooped out...

now I am reading about some serious questions about long term use of these drugs...
acute use yes...chronic use????????this is very disturbing to me...I think I got screwed..

please do not pay any attention to these problems that I have...I am reading stuff on mad-in-America website....they are against drugs pretty much except acute use..
I am just having a lot of anger at the people that screwed me over...but I have a problem with people that are in charge...I have a problem..but some of them had a problem also...

Fuzzybear too has a problem with some of these in "real" "life" who think they have a ****ing clue and can categorise and or prescribe in 15 minutes. Then the "patient" is left with the opinion of that *** wipe

we need to talk more about what is going on in our brains...I need to...I don't want to shut up...I am very disturbed about what psychiatry is doing to us...I think they are hurting more than helping....some are helping...but most are hurting us...that is what is going on in my brain...I don't like thinking that some of what I did hurt people...it was what I was told was right...it was wrong...it was WRONG...


I did what the standard of practice called for...but it damaged some people....I will never be able to forget some of the persons I treated wrongly...with drugs...I did wrong...I didn't know any better..


I am no longer going to be talking about the psych drugs being good...they are good and bad....I think they are MOSTLY BAD for most people...we need something better...like nurturing people in a safe place and talking about what is bothering them...and keep the drug reps out of the clinics...

Were you able to prescribe therapy to go along with the medication? I think the combo is what saved my life. It helps me to sort the dysfunction from the depression.

Learning is everything. Listening to learn. I think you did and do that, Little Turtle. I wish you peace and forgiveness! Reading your posts, I just want to say I am grateful for you.

I think if people officially complained when a doctor is cruel, eventually ... well .. the doctor might leave

I didn't officially complain. I should have done, years ago .. but I wasn't brave enough to be torn apart again for complaining

I'd been torn down and abused all my life by "family" - this was what I tried to speak to the doctor about

I'm sensitive.. I try to be kind. I would never label and condemn someone in distress

Little Turtle-
It is a very confusing topic. On the one hand, when I was first prescribed an anti-depressant--it did make me feel less suicidal. On the other hand, after stopping for about 20 days, I was extremely paranoid, delusional and went through with what I was afraid to do before. More recently, I had severe headaches, dizziness and nausea when I tried to quit. I haven't been depressed in a while. When I go to my psych--I am going to ask for the lowest dose (75mg) verses the 150mg per day bupropion dose I am now on. I am even going to talk to my husband about it (that I am more freely talking to him IS a miracle). I am lucky. I feel like I figured a lot out through self reflection but I hope I am not addicted to my anti-depressant for life......

I feel very alone.....irl....I am not close to anyone...maybe one person somewhat...
most people will not go into deep problems.....I want to...I want to talk with others about the worst possible things...I just don't seem to be able to do it...I am terribly shy and afraid of being hurt...

I'm saddened by the cruelty of some in this world. Assumptions are rarely helpful, it's so much easier to lash out in frustration and anger than to show compassion even when in pain. You're a wonderful person and friend. Thank you for not making wrong assumptions about me or about others who are in pain. There isn't an easy "fix" for everyone. I wish for less suffering for all the brave souls here on pc.

Love,
Fuzzy

I wish for less suffering for all the brave souls here on pc.

It never crossed my mind that Psychiatrist could be narcissistic. That they were capable to medicate with evil intentions sadistic in nature.
I always thought that psychiatrist were loving, sympathetic, compassionate, and empathetic enough for my well-being.
I failed to recognize that they are human too.
In no way do I intend to make little turtle feel bad.
I know he has a good heart and soul because he was caring enough to make the conscious decision to share what he has witnessed other colleagues do.
All I can be is extremely grateful and thankful for little turtle open my eyes.
Bless your heart and soul, little turtle.

I don't know what to say...what kindness is being shared...I just try to be good...I feel so sorry for those patients that I let down...I was shy and weak...I lacked courage...
I was a broken down human trying to be a good psychiatrist...

thanks for your kindness...

MY problem is ME

Dear little turtle

I wonder, do you think this statement could be true for others as well, even those who feel the need to "offer" their "wisdom" in less than kind ways?