I'm such a mess. I've not enjoyed my hobbies in forever, I'm looseing everyone I love it seems, my old therapist hasn't e-mailed me back in over a week...just the 2nd time I've e-mailed him, I'm worried....god................

I don't enjoy anything anymore!!!!!
I'm in gaming, online gaming to be exact, but feel its a struggle to play, always stressed and get frustrated easy and cry. I used to play drums, now I just...don't have the energy, the will...its so stressful so I don't do it.

I've fallen in love with someone miles away..I'm fake to myself., because I know its impossible.

I wonder why people divorce, and remarry..there is only 1 true love right? I dunno, what if a spouse died...why find another to please your own lust...these are questions that I dont yet know......I'm so scared....

I've been very down lately even to the point, I want to call a hotline....

I've not seen my therapist in 2-3 weeks and don't under next week.....the couple times Ihave I feel so intimidated I can't make progress.......

I NEED SOMEONE TO UNDERSTAND IS ALL...........I'm so broken..I'm out of batteries..and im sinking.............almost drowning in my own tears.

I cry out of knowwhere for no reason...my meds don't help, I sometimes want to OD on them...just to leave....I know its wrong so I don't....what makes it wrong...? I don't feel anything except tears..of sadness.no anger...just so stress

My body aches..and i'm too young for it..I sleep to cure the pain and suffer when I awake its not real............

I'm falling..

Dustin

[DePressMe]

Hi Moonkin. That is a lot going on in your life. I am unsure what to reply to…well, first off, I am sorry you are going through all this—it must be really difficult. I understand about depression and problems with meds. It took me a long time to get the meds right. Maybe you should see your PD. Overdosing on your meds is not the answer—sounds like you know that. I wish I could help you more. Know that you are not alone.

[seeker1950]

Yes, and depression also makes us not want to go out or enjoy the things we used to! I know this from experience!
Sounds like you have a lot going on right now, and meeting someone far away, saying you are in love with this person?
Encountering a potential love relationship can present a temporary "high," which makes the depression go away for short times, but it sounds like you are suffering from clinical depression, and trying to establish a relationship at this time is probably not wise...just my opinion, and also from experience in doing just this same thing!
I"m so sorry you're going thru this, Moonkin!
Love
Patty

[seeker1950]

I also think, from experience, that the repetitive action of gaming may perpetuate depression...Just a suspicion of mine. I play online games, and suspect I should be doing other things. When I engage in physical exercise instead of sitting sedentarily, I feel better! Even just a walk!
Love
Patty

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((((((Moonkin))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Depression can be so hard. It can take away things you love to do as they seem to lose their attraction. I am sure it is not helping that you have not seen your T for a few weeks. I hope that your relationship grows in a positive manner with your new T. Maybe you can call your Pdoc about your meds as they may offer you some relief. Please take care.

BB

[blah__x]

im sorry i dont have anything new to say that hasnt already been said.

thinking of you,

Gabriel

((((((((((moonkin)))))))

i am here and listening. you are not alone. keep reaching out and posting. i am sorry you are feeling so depressed. just remember that depression lies to us. you are worth life and all that it has to offer. it may not seem to you like much, but you will get there. take one day at a time. getting too far in the future causes fear. know i am here sending you good thoughts and prayers.

purplesecrets

[meander]

Hey ya Moon...

I can relate to the hobbies thing. My guitar is gathering dust (my excuse is I've misplaced both tuner and pitch pipes), and my gym membership's been used once since May...

I'm still working on how to fix that, if I do will let you know!

I'm sorry you're feeling down, I think I understand how you feel (as much as someone else can ever understand anyway). Keep posting if it helps you, and PM if you want.

[stefano]

Don't know what to say. I feel you confusion and desperation. I know how it is. If your old therapist doesn't et in touch then find a new one. Be patient with meds. Depression is bad but it only gets worse if you don't cure it.
We're listenign to you now and tomorrow and the day after. So keep us informed.

The best of luck