Goals and time limits

Maybe I need to set some goals and time limits for this pos that is Fuzzybear

If I have not achieved certain things in a certain time frame, then maybe I should desist in "wasting" valuable resources... Food, oxygen, minimal medical "care" (meds only - which I'm allergic to)

"pos"
It just isn't true.

Dear Fuzzy--I am so much easier on myself than you are upon such a dear sweet bear; honestly, lately, I have been thinking to myself "who cares how annoying my mental issues (like hyperactivity, repetitive speech, etc.) are. I only have one goal, and one only, no attempts. I do not want to over tax or disappoint myself by setting any high expectations. I really have thought more highly of myself than I warrant in any way. I wish I could make you love yourself the way you deserve.

Thanks so much.. I wish I hadn't internalised all that hate too (mostly from the FOO, "family" of origin but also from a therapist IRL and others.. Now my body seems to be co operating in attacking me also I hate feeling (and being ) so useless

But I'm still here for papa bear... For some reason I cannot fathom, he loves
me,,

And I guess if I'm still able to type on here and help even one person in some way my life isn't the completely valueless waste that some (IRL) said and or implied

((((((( Fuzzybear! )))))))
Fuzzybear being a POS -- unthinkable.
Fuzzybear feeling like a POS -- entirely reasonable based on early and later life experiences and medical threats.

You already know this. Maybe some people can come to a rational conclusion about themselves, and that rationality is all they need to erase emotional programming. I do not believe we are among their number.

It also doesn't help when the "help" you've sought adds to the wounds...

((((((( Fuzzybear! )))))))

(((((Fuzzybear)))))

You're not a pos. You're going through a Hell that most people can't comprehend.

It's my firm belief that no bear is a waste....

I'm so sorry you're going through this hard time right now. I wish I could give you a real hug!

Hear, hear!

fuzzy I need your help....I continue to shame myself for having a chronic mental illness...I was brought up thinking being crazy was bad and weak and something to hide away....

certainly the stigma is out there....but the stigma is inside of me...I continue to destroy myself...and yet I know I didn't ask for this depression....can you help me....please help me

You're a great person. Remember that. It doesn't matter what everyone else says

(((((( little turtle )))))))

Although many of us here know that being crazy does not equate to being bad and weak, the deep shame still remains.. Maybe for some this is unconscious, I'm not sure.

You have nothing to be ashamed of little turtle, you're good and always did the best you could for your patients... The corruption of the system and arrogant doctors was never your fault. (How could one person fight against this and win? )Depression was never your fault

I feel guilty for not telling my patients that I was leaving practice because of a breakdown....and I am sorry that I never shouted out that I was in serious depression and suicidal...I am not guilty about that but I just wish I came right out and didn't cover up....WE SHOULD NO LONGER COVER UP

I agree, it's very hard for me to talk to some "normal" people, maybe especially some I've "known" for years... They have their expectations, my bear doesn't like being muzzled often I end up being silent as I object to being judged, again, for anxiety etc by people who don't understand

I said to one family member long ago, I was feeling anxious (I don't remember the exact words but what I said was very short and non "whiny")

Their reply was "what have YOU got to be anxious about"

You know, that tone of voice

I agree you're not guilty

How do people react when you don't cover up?

Hi Fuzzy,
There is something that you own (relatively, off course): your present, your goals, your schedule and deadlines. They are yours, and not the property of those who hurt you that much. When setting your goals and deadlines tell them to shut up. I know they speak, those who hurt me speak to me, too. All the time. But we can tell them to shut up. If needed, we shout out! It is an exercise we have to do again and again.
Or, we can have no goals at all! We own ourselves, we decide.
And, you are loved here.