[Human3284]

I'm from Canada.

Is it simple as not booking an appointment? I started therapy 5 weeks ago, I see a therapist 1 day a week and I also see a psychiatrist ontop of that a few times. I don't wanna do this anymore, I just wanna go back to drinking and forgetting my problems until I explode again. I never wanted to go to therapy in the first place, the hospital told me to go as a friend called the cops on me and got a ride in the back of the police car to the hospital and I went into a place for people like me but the board does not want us talking about it and booked me in saying it was hard but I don't really care my problems are never going away.

[ThePrincess233]

Well it truly matters wetter you were court ordered to do it idk how they do it where you are from. It should be as easy as not book in another appointment but I wouldn't give up on therapy your problems can get better but maybe that therapist isn't the right fit for you that happened to me in the past and I found myself just telling them what they needed to know but then I got a new one and I actually started improving to the point I said I was okay not to have therapy anymore at that time.

I'm in Canada too. It is a simple as not booking the next appointment. It probably isn't the best choice to quit, but it is your choice in the end.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry you feel this way.. think about this decision, please.

[Clara22]

Hi
Are you dropping the psychiatrist, as well? Or only therapy?

[Human3284]

Thanks guys, i'll be doing it today. Just needed to know if it was this easy or other steps.

I'm quitting both Clara22.

[Human3284]

Well that was easy, it's done. Now i'll just wait for myself to start declining again and drinking.

[Clara22]

Sorry if I am stupid, but you are waiting for yourself, like inhabited by an alien? Is it that you feel disassociated or it is just you feel you don't have enough will to stop doing what you want to?
Sorry if I am asking this question. It is just to understand where you come from (and understand myself by the way. Sometimes I cannot stop doing stuff. And I see myself doing things I do not want to do and I feel there is a kind of force in motion that is beyond myself), particularly if I am alone

[Clara22]

Sorry for my English, hope you understand

[Human3284]

Originally Posted by Clara22

Sorry if I am stupid, but you are waiting for yourself, like inhabited by an alien? Is it that you feel disassociated or it is just you feel you don't have enough will to stop doing what you want to?
Sorry if I am asking this question. It is just to understand where you come from (and understand myself by the way. Sometimes I cannot stop doing stuff. And I see myself doing things I do not want to do and I feel there is a kind of force in motion that is beyond myself), particularly if I am alone

What do you mean "inhabited by an alien"? I just feel hopeless, nothing will ever change even if I went years through therapy. Why not feel hopeless alone? I can't even tell the therapist my real feelings. I probably just don't want to change, I probably like feeling miserable like a sadist. I still have not quit my psychiatrist appointment at the end of April, I held off on that for now...but my therapist once a week I have quit. I felt turned off when she asked if I wanted to have therapy once every few weeks instead of once a week, sorta like I don't matter (which I don't) and that she was trying to get rid of me. I played it calm and said once a week though.

I'm sure I am going to go crazy again (read my 1st post on this website for a quick rundown if you wish) and that's fine, i'll know better then to actually get help this time.

[Clara22]

I meant if you feel that somebody else is making your decisions instead of you. But now, I understand what you meant. I really think you had a bad therapist. Unfortunately, there are plenty of them

[Human3284]

So my therapist called me and I let voice mail get it and told me to call her back.

[Clara22]

Are you going to call her back?

[Human3284]

Maybe in a few days, I just kinda look at the phone and look away back to doing things on my computer.

[Human3284]

So it will be 3 days tomorrow since my therapist told me to call her back, I just look at my phone and dunno what i'm going to say or what to expect. Sometimes I listen to my voice mail of her telling me to call her. I was going to call back today but never did, figured i'll try again tomorrow.

I know it's very rude to ignore her and i'm being an immature child, but I guess they are used to people being slow at calling back. Don't mean any offense by it, i'm just finding it hard trying to actually call back and I don't really feel like telling her why. People telling me I need to go back.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Human3284

What do you mean "inhabited by an alien"? I just feel hopeless, nothing will ever change even if I went years through therapy. Why not feel hopeless alone? I can't even tell the therapist my real feelings. I probably just don't want to change, I probably like feeling miserable like a sadist. I still have not quit my psychiatrist appointment at the end of April, I held off on that for now...but my therapist once a week I have quit. I felt turned off when she asked if I wanted to have therapy once every few weeks instead of once a week, sorta like I don't matter (which I don't) and that she was trying to get rid of me. I played it calm and said once a week though.

I'm sure I am going to go crazy again (read my 1st post on this website for a quick rundown if you wish) and that's fine, i'll know better then to actually get help this time.

I'm glad you held off on terminating the psychiatrist for now. I've been through roughly 10 therapists before I found the one who could really help me. I hope you start feeling better soon? Best wishes.

[Clara22]

I found a good GP but it took me ages. Hope you find a good T. You deserve a good one

[Human3284]

I called today, she wants me to come in for an appointment Tuesday at 4PM. Told her I tried calling but could only end up staring at the phone for those 3 days. Almost didn't call when I said to myself I will for the past 2 days. I've been a complete mess the last 7 months. It is kinda annoying being at therapy though, all I hear is "why is that?" When most times I have no clue, sometimes just say stuff to say stuff so I don't look like an idiot. I been meaning to try getting into the Wim Hof method and visit an isolation tank.

[Clara22]

Originally Posted by Human3284

I called today, she wants me to come in for an appointment Tuesday at 4PM. Told her I tried calling but could only end up staring at the phone for those 3 days. Almost didn't call when I said to myself I will for the past 2 days. I've been a complete mess the last 7 months. It is kinda annoying being at therapy though, all I hear is "why is that?" When most times I have no clue, sometimes just say stuff to say stuff so I don't look like an idiot. I been meaning to try getting into the Wim Hof method and visit an isolation tank.

I don't feel comfortable in therapy most of the time.