[Sam72173]

I am diagnosed with PTSD, dissociative disorder, avoidant personality disorder, major recurring depression, anxiety and possible ADD.

I was doing really good. Even had my first relationship. But it ended a few months ago. Now I feel back to square one.

What I am getting to is does anyone else have the feeling like they are making it harder for themselves? Why did I handle things better when I had someone? Why do I feel like crap now? I just don't get it.

I think it's naturally easier to get through mental health issues with the help of someone else, whether it's a romantic partner, family or friends. So it's understandable that the loss of a close relationship would affect you.

It's time to make use of other relationships you have, such as family or friends (including people here on PC). But keep in mind that we cannot rely on others to make us happy or accomplish things. That responsibility ultimately lies with us. Relationships are awesome but we cannot become dependent on them.

I find with anxiety and depression, if I have more stuff to do (an actual routine), then it is much better managed. What is a typical day like for you? Do you work, attend school or volunteer? Do you have any hobbies? I personally enjoy exercise and playing online games. Keeping busy can be very helpful.

[Sunflower123]

Just wanted to lend you my support and say I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I think it's wonderful that you were doing so well with your different diagnoses that you were able to have a good relationship. I have 2 diagnoses and I don't think I could have one right now.

I'm very impressed. I hope you get things turned around and start feeling better again.

[Sam72173]

I have a hard time connecting with people. Not even sure why I let the ex into my life. My routine is well that I have no routine. I get up when I wake up, have two cups of coffee, take care of the pets, and then read or stare out my window. I have little energy for much else.

I am on disability and have had one job in 1993 that I eventually quit. I have tried volunteering but each time it doesn't last not due to me.

Originally Posted by Sam72173

I have a hard time connecting with people. Not even sure why I let the ex into my life. My routine is well that I have no routine. I get up when I wake up, have two cups of coffee, take care of the pets, and then read or stare out my window. I have little energy for much else.

I am on disability and have had one job in 1993 that I eventually quit. I have tried volunteering but each time it doesn't last not due to me.

If you look at the daily routine you posted and ask yourself "Does that sound like a healthy routine?" What would you answer? How do you think it could become more healthy? Even adding in small activities can make a difference. Do you like art at all? I am terrible at art but I enjoy colouring books, and they can be quite relaxing. Bubble baths are another thing I really enjoy.

Have you thought about trying for a part-time job? I know 1993 is a long time since your last employment, but perhaps there are some employment programs for you in your area that could help you get back into the swing of things. That is how I found my current job. It was an employment program for people under 29 in my area. I completed 60 hours worth of workshops (and was paid for it like a real job) then matched with a job that suited my qualifications and interests. The job is going very well so far and it feels great to have a routine and job again. I imagine there are programs out there for people of all ages, so I encourage you to check out any services offered.

[Sam72173]

I know my current "routine" is not a healthy one. I do need outside involvement but my avoidant personality makes it so much harder to try new things. Its like walking through a brick wall. It can be done but with much more energy expended.

I am 43 with no qualifications. There is a program that helps either find jobs or get the schooling for a job. I already tried that and failed as I let my ex control me in not going farther. In July I can reapply and try again. But I have a little more than a month until then.

I also tried to find community classes I would be interested in but didn't find anything.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Sam72173

I know my current "routine" is not a healthy one. I do need outside involvement but my avoidant personality makes it so much harder to try new things. Its like walking through a brick wall. It can be done but with much more energy expended.

I am 43 with no qualifications. There is a program that helps either find jobs or get the schooling for a job. I already tried that and failed as I let my ex control me in not going farther. In July I can reapply and try again. But I have a little more than a month until then.

I also tried to find community classes I would be interested in but didn't find anything.

Keep trying. You're doing great. Try the program in July again. I wish you the best of luck.

[Sam72173]

Thank you!!