[shakes]

Hey everyone,
Waking up in the morning is starting to get harder and harder for me to do. I have no job and no feeling as though anyone is going to be calling me for an interview anytime soon. I feel like my life is falling apart before my eyes and it is taking every ounce of strength to not freak out.
I do not see a point to wake up when everyday for the last month has been the same. Wake up, apply for jobs, make follow up phone calls and get voicemail and no return phone call. Then by the end of the day I am so depressed I can barely see straight. I feel like I have accomplished nothing. I am so misearable right now.
I am sorry that I am ranting and such I just needed to.

Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>

[dexter]

That's OK shakes... just keep trying and something will come up different one of these days. Try to make something different if you can. Even maybe take a break day, go see a movie, join some friends, or just do something enjoyable as a break from the old routine.

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[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((Jessica))))))))))))))

[Rapunzel]

{{{{{{{{{Jessica}}}}}}}}}}}

I read your post before, and nothing brilliant came to me to respond, but I've been thinking of you. How are you doing today?

<font color=orange>"Success is the ability to go from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm. - Winston Churchill "</font color=orange>

[shakes]

Rapunzel,
I feel very lucky. Today is a very good day. I went out and applied to some jobs at the local mall and dropped off my resume and a cover letter at a local hospital. My boyfriend and I are having some friends over tonight so I feel really good. I really have to start taking things one day at a time so I do not get overwhelmed because it kills me. Thank you for asking though.

Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>

[Rapunzel]

Getting out and being around people can help a lot. I'm glad that you are doing better today.

<font color=orange>"Success is the ability to go from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm. - Winston Churchill "</font color=orange>

[dexter]

>> I really have to start taking things one day at a time so I do not get overwhelmed

That is actually a pretty huge positive step toward maintaining your health. Lots of people cannot recognize that, they overdo it , sometimes intentionally, thinking it might be good to keep busy. That may well be but you have to know your limits.

Stay in the "one day at a time" mindset for as long as you need to... that's the way to get healthy and stay healthy.

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[shakes]

The hard part is trying to really stick to it.

Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>

[dexter]

It is hard. I'm there now.

Don't overdo it. If you are taking small steps, and maybe for a day or two you are just too drained to do anything, it is OK to rest up and "regroup" afterward. Don't feel bad if a step is not taken, even a small step backward from time to time. Instead try to force yourself to focus on the progress. That's the hardest with depression. You could win a Nobel prize, fly home from Sweden, and take a nap. A depressed person will spend the next few days thinking they've "failed" because they took a nap. Keep that Nobel Prize up on the desk where you can see it all day. Put it in a spot where other people will notice it and ask you about it. Remember how well you are doing. Sometimes that means just recognizing that you are surviving.

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[shakes]

Dex,
That was really awesome wisdom for me to try to do. Sometimes I really do not think that I put up my "prize" and instead I focus on the second or third place. I am going to start really trying to focus on the positive that I am doing and build from there.

Thanks everyone so much!
Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>

[Maxymidi]

Well I know exactly how you feel about not having any purpose. Just getting out of bed and going thru the motions and then getting up the next day. It's very hard. But you do have to focus on anything positive that you do. Looking at all the negative stuff is easy. Focusing on the positive is what is so hard. But if you have anything at all, no matter how small, that is positive or something you can look forward to, it's better than just looking at the negative. Gradually they build up and you can have a reason to get up out of bed. Not yet for me, but I understand what you're going thru.

[lost_lonely]

I sympathize with you, shakes. Getting up in the morning for me seems to have lost all its purpose. I try to search for positive things, but lots of times they're just not there. Now a days, I'm mostly trying to exist just for another day. I hope you're doing better, and feeling better soon.

[shakes]

Yes, today was another not so good day.

Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>

[lost_lonely]

Same here again, shakes. So far, today's been lonely, boring and meaningless. I believe I may have been able to fix one problem that's REALLY been bothering me, but I'll just have to wait and see. I just feel broken and heartsick, so I understand where you're coming from.