[Rose76]

I feel pretty good this morning. My near psychotic mental storm of the past few days has blown over.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by will19

Feeling pretty down tonight. I should be happy that tomorrow is Friday and the weekend is about here. I feel like I'm not crazy about my job anymore and my friend. I get the feeling that he and I may be splitting up soon. He's all that I got, so it's going to be hard to get a replacement.

Sorry about the friendship ending.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I feel pretty good this morning. My near psychotic mental storm of the past few days has blown over.

That's really good to hear, Rose.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

I'm very sorry to hear that, EmptyNightmare. You're obviously in a lot of pain. I don't know much about your situation. Do you feel up to explaining a little?

[Rose76]

Made myself get out of the house and had quite a good day.

I need to get my bottom moving, even if the day is almost over. I'm floating in a pool of dullness which, unless I bite the bullet and do something responsible, will turn into a malstrom of rumination and depression.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Bjørnen

I need to get my bottom moving, even if the day is almost over. I'm floating in a pool of dullness which, unless I bite the bullet and do something responsible, will turn into a malstrom of rumination and depression.

I’m sorry you’ve had a tough day. Thinking of you and sending you best wishes to get moving like you want.

[Sunflower123]

Going to be off PC this weekend. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and I’m sending thoughts and hugs to those that are struggling. I wish I could take it away.

It was not too busy at work today. I felt pretty blue for almost the entire day. I feel a little bit better now. I guess it's because I worked out, ate, and went to the pool area. My friend called me tonight. We didn't make any plans to get together tomorrow. He will be busy on Sunday. I feel like I'm falling out of liking him a whole lot. I suppose I've felt that way all along. It's just that I feel like I loved him (not in a romantic way) a whole lot because he's all that I have. I went to Google earlier today and read some articles about when you feel like you want to part ways with a friend. I felt like I could identify with the points that were made. It seems like friendships for me have a shelf life.

I...I think I might miss having a jam-packed schedule. For a number of reasons, I ended up with more free time this week than usual. The first thing I do when I have a very crowded week is come on here and gripe about it, but these last few uncrowded days have been too much of a good thing. I’ve slipped back into apathy mode. I have the time to actually tackle some creative endeavors, or sit and watch stupid internet videos without guilt, but the catch is that I don’t seem to be interested in doing anything.

Country drives? Caffeine? Naps? Games? Letter writing? Cooking? Music practice? Movies? Nope. No interest. In an unforeseen twist of fate, it turns out I need to be bogged down with work and obligations, so those two hours I have to myself every day actually mean something. Well, luckily for me (I guess), Monday marks the return to a busier schedule. Hooray?

[nikon]

hope you guys/ladies are having a good weekend or as good as it can be.
i'm really exhausted today, had friends over last night and they stayed really late, and i had to get up early ish for work this morning. i very, very seldom have friends over, almost never. don't know if it's due to tiredness but i am getting pissed off with people in general today, very quickly and intensely.

I'm feeling fine.....

This morning did not get off to a real good start. Did some errands early this morning and some of the things didn't work out. It was a bit of a far drive to a gas station. I wanted to go there because they have a low-priced car wash. The station was closed because of a power outage. I was told to try back later. And then I went to the grocery stores and they didn't have items for sale that I needed right now.

It does not look like it's going to be an exciting day today. Feel very depressed about it.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by will19

It was not too busy at work today. I felt pretty blue for almost the entire day. I feel a little bit better now. I guess it's because I worked out, ate, and went to the pool area. My friend called me tonight. We didn't make any plans to get together tomorrow. He will be busy on Sunday. I feel like I'm falling out of liking him a whole lot. I suppose I've felt that way all along. It's just that I feel like I loved him (not in a romantic way) a whole lot because he's all that I have. I went to Google earlier today and read some articles about when you feel like you want to part ways with a friend. I felt like I could identify with the points that were made. It seems like friendships for me have a shelf life.

You must have had good reasons for wanting to end it. Best of luck .

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

I'm feeling pretty good today. Well, it's about time. Love to everyone on the thread.

[Fuzzybear]

Love from me to all in this thread

And here’s to more good days (or at least tolerable days) for everyone

Sincerely,
Fuzzy

[Rose76]

I'm having quite a decent day. Upon first awakening, the tinnitus seemed pretty annoyingl. But once I got busy, I was able to start to lose awareness of it. I'm not depressed now.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm having quite a decent day. Upon first awakening, the tinnitus seemed pretty annoyingl. But once I got busy, I was able to start to lose awareness of it. I'm not depressed now.

Yay!........

Did a lot of running around today. I felt like I had lost at least an hour for today to myself because of some inconveniences that were not necessary. Other than that not much of a day. I'm just pretty much feeling bad about myself today.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Hi Will. Hope you feel a bit better about yourself tomorrow.

[Angelique67]

I'm feeling very dysphoric the past few days/nights. And as if I have no consolation. Should I ask for an Ativan? If I can go to sleep without it, I shouldn't. This place is feeling like a prison and I really want to go somewhere else.

Craving fries. Slept well enough except for some weird dreams. A good 11 hours. Heard back from someone about a project so feeling less anxious about that. I think I'm doing better than last week. I haven't showered for an entire week which is at least proof that things are as bad as they were two years ago. But I think I can get into the mindset where self care is a priority... maybe it's odd to dismiss bodily needs. Anyway I feel calmer and like I can handle things, including school but also how I'm going to handle life after school. I need to breath and remember things are not as difficult as they seem.

Lots of Halloween parties on campus this weekend and even yesterday. And for some reason a noticeable number of parents. It's making me remember how I don't get invited to anything. And it's not like I'm always depressed around people. I can be rather nice and funny. Maybe I just can't connect. Maybe I'm too reserved. I just don't want to offend anyone and I don't speak much about myself. This has been happening since forever. Well even so.

Today I didn't do much. I almost wish I had slept more. I watched some tv. I feel behind now. The shameful feeling of unproductivity is leeching back. Yesterday I did some stupid creative project just for myself. That's something but I can't help but worry about that being a waste of time. Regardless it's also one of those days where all I have to do is frown and look at my phone and am able to have a large table all to myself. Cause I look scary. Thrilling. Maybe that's also why I don't have friends.

A shower and laundry are on the horizon. I hate doing laundry.

Actually the problem isn't that I don't get invited. I was invited to a couple Friday the 13th parties. The problem is that I don't like going to parties where there's alcohol. And even if I don't drink it's depressing.

Maybe it's just unsettling as usual that I've been so disoriented by my mental state that I didn't realize that events were happening.

[nikon]

sending strength to everyone

I feel kind of down today. i'm struggling so much with concentration and it's making college work really difficult, so that's becoming a source of dread. i'm not sure if the concentration is partly medication side effects, and possibly partly my mental state not being great. i can't read stuff and take it in if it's more than a few lines.

don't know why but this evening and tonight i feel crushingly alone. i see people and the world in polar opposites - everything and everyone is either good or bad etc - and it has made life very difficult at times. it also makes me either "good" or "bad" and obviously most often I end up as bad. i'm having unhappy memories coming up of being in rehab a few years ago and the counsellors I had there and things they said to me. at the time I thought i was happy but since i left it feels like the opposite and i felt scared of seeing those people again - they felt like the kind of people you will never be good enough for. you'll never be enough to please them. those are the kind of people i feel most scared around - like i've always got to be trying harder and harder and putting on an act because i'm not good enough.

I was having a good day until I started playing my video game, failed to complete 1 of the quests, and just got really annoyed and down about it.

I tried and tried to complete it, but eventually I through myself at the wall, screamed, and then cried.

I now want nothing to do with the game which is stupid, because I like the game, and this has happened before and i've always completed it