[katydid777]

Originally Posted by Arbie

Thank you. I vented most of it here in the rant thread in the coffee house. I don't know if there is a solution. I'm getting no real cooperation. My husband, he'll bend over backwards to help with something he thinks is important. But if something matters only to me, and not to him, then it doesn't matter. Which means he won't give it the slightest bit of attention. I can scream and scream and scream, and he's not going to hear me.

I do feel like leaving. I can't stand living like this anymore. But I'm not physically strong enough to leave, either, so I guess I'm stuck.

I have some of the same problem, I am also disabled, and so is my Husband, and my oldest Brother who lives with us. I get things cleaned up, and as soon as I do, someone is making a mess, and I can't keep up. And they don't help, or even try to keep things clean, even though they can physically do. I get so frustrated all the time.

Not doing well.

[Albatross2008]

....

Scored 59 on the last depression quiz. It was 44 before that. Things are getting pretty steep.

[lotusblossom19]

I just want to be free.

So far I feel alright emotionally. I went to church this morning for the first time in almost a month. I felt alright there and felt OK afterwards. I didn't expect to feel that way. I didn't make an effort to talk to anyone after the service (in an area where they serve refreshments). I probably would have if I didn't have laundry to do later on.

Also, I think it's weird that I don't feel depressed today about having to go back to work tomorrow after a four-day weekend. I felt more depressed about going to back to work yesterday than today. Nothing much happened socially this whole weekend. Just got email messages from a couple of my friends.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by nikon

i was offline yesterday and maybe the day before, i think. for the past five days i've been feeling pretty good. last night i watched some violent stuff, which is a bad idea for me - it leads me into watching porn and that is an addictive behaviour that i struggle with. i felt guilty today and this morning i felt extremely anxious. i have calmed down now but don't feel as good as i have previously. i feel fat and uncomfortable in my body, anxious about random stuff - like a freckle i'm suddenly freaking out about (cancer?) and exams i might have to write two years from now - and have that sense of impending doom.

part of it is that i am really nervous about crashing down after this good patch. for the first time in ages i have actually been able to finish an assigment and other work ahead of time and properly. other weeks i write a whole lot of rubbish or don't even finish things.

Glad you're still feeling OK. Maybe try to find a way of bringing your horizon forward, in your mind. So that you can only see a little way ahead. Refuse to look beyond it, just for a few days, and see how it feels.

I get claustrophobic if I think ahead too far.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by emptynightmare

Not doing well.

You want to say anymore, Empty?

Originally Posted by Purple,Violet,Blue

You want to say anymore, Empty?

thanks for asking, PVB.

i am just very depressed and confused these days and on top of that got out of the wrong side of the bed today. weight of the world. i feel increasingly isolated in almost all departments of my life. i don't feel safe speaking frankly about things here or anywhere. i have been thinking that society is abusive to people like me, and i can't escape. self care, emotions, work, and mental state are all in disarray. i am incapable and my judgement seems to have left. i haven't been this bad in a long time. i'm just tired and in pain and feel trapped and worthless.

Originally Posted by emptynightmare

Not doing well.

Originally Posted by emptynightmare

thanks for asking, PVB.

i am just very depressed and confused these days and on top of that got out of the wrong side of the bed today. weight of the world. i feel increasingly isolated in almost all departments of my life. i don't feel safe speaking frankly about things here or anywhere. i have been thinking that society is abusive to people like me, and i can't escape. self care, emotions, work, and mental state are all in disarray. i am incapable and my judgement seems to have left. i haven't been this bad in a long time. i'm just tired and in pain and feel trapped and worthless.

Could you see a pdoc if the situation gets too bad?

I'm doing okay

[sky457]

I’ve got no one....

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by sky457

I’ve got no one....

Not exactly true - you have all of us. We may not be physically there with you ... But we are there emotionally if you need us... ❤

Almost like a switch being flipped, the self-criticism has turned on suddenly today. Why now? The voice has been dormant for a few weeks, and now it comes barging in, unannounced. I did forget to take my meds yesterday. I don't know if that could be a factor.

It's disappointing, because I thought I was getting along rather well with myself.

[Rose76]

I'm much better than I was.

It's like an abcess in my head ruptured and drained. Now I can't see why I was so upset. All day today, everything seems much easier.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Bjørnen

Almost like a switch being flipped, the self-criticism has turned on suddenly today. Why now? The voice has been dormant for a few weeks, and now it comes barging in, unannounced. I did forget to take my meds yesterday. I don't know if that could be a factor.

It's disappointing, because I thought I was getting along rather well with myself.

I hope you feel better soon.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm much better than I was.

It's like an abcess in my head ruptured and drained. Now I can't see why I was so upset. All day today, everything seems much easier.

Rose - I’m so pleased. You needed and deserved some relief. I hope your lifted spirits continue. Best wishes.

[katydid777]

I am very nervous this morning. I didn't sleep well, I was up almost every hour, so about 4 am I got up. I have to have a new medication infusion this morning at 9 am. With this med the side affects can be as bad as the problem. I am only 52, and found out that my bones won't heal when I break them. I have been going around with 2 broken toes for a while now. This new medication is meant to help that, but I will have to be on it for the rest of my life, along with some supplements, to go along with the box of meds I have to take every day. Any way I am very stressed about it all.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by katydid777

I am very nervous this morning. I didn't sleep well, I was up almost every hour, so about 4 am I got up. I have to have a new medication infusion this morning at 9 am. With this med the side affects can be as bad as the problem. I am only 52, and found out that my bones won't heal when I break them. I have been going around with 2 broken toes for a while now. This new medication is meant to help that, but I will have to be on it for the rest of my life, along with some supplements, to go along with the box of meds I have to take every day. Any way I am very stressed about it all.

I’m very sorry to hear this. I’m sending you best wishes and thinking of you as you go through this procedure. Imagine that...we live fairly close to each other and we are about the same age. It’s nice to know you.

[Sunflower123]

I had my friend who is not pleased with my new stability tell me the other night that she didn’t think I was a good fit with the Bible study group anymore so she took my name off the communication list and thinks I should drop out. There are 180 ladies with different personalities. Not fit in? I promise what you see on this site is what you get. I think I need to learn some assertiveness skills. I’m definitely not dropping out. If anything I’ll go more often. Disappointing.

Sending big hugs for those that are struggling.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I had my friend who is not pleased with my new stability tell me the other night that she didn’t think I was a good fit with the Bible study group anymore so she took my name off the communication list and thinks I should drop out. There are 180 ladies with different personalities. Not fit in? I promise what you see on this site is what you get. I think I need to learn some assertiveness skills. I’m definitely not dropping out. If anything I’ll go more often. Disappointing.

Sending big hugs for those that are struggling.

Is she a leader of the group?

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm much better than I was.

It's like an abcess in my head ruptured and drained. Now I can't see why I was so upset. All day today, everything seems much easier.

Have you taken time away from him?

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind

Is she a leader of the group?

No she isn’t.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

No she isn’t.

Yea, then just ignore her n let her stew in it.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

No she isn’t.

How rude of her!

Well, it's probably best she isn't your friend anymore. Yes, definitely tell her to get knotted.

We can help you with assertiveness techniques