[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by Bjørnen

Almost like a switch being flipped, the self-criticism has turned on suddenly today. Why now? The voice has been dormant for a few weeks, and now it comes barging in, unannounced. I did forget to take my meds yesterday. I don't know if that could be a factor.

It's disappointing, because I thought I was getting along rather well with myself.

Sorry to hear that

Go away, critical voice. You are not needed!

Yes, it sounds like missed meds could be a factor.

[Kote]

I had a good weekend. But on Saturday my friend had a housewarming party at his house and & something got stuck in my head. Almost every person there was further along than I in life, it seems. They all have careers & houses & are in serious relationships. They were all younger than myself as well. Even my friend who is 5 years younger than me recently got a promotion where he makes money than I do. I know I'm not supposed to compare myself to others, and I know that I have a plan to learn a new skill and change careers but still, it's hard.

[nikon]

Thanks Purple Violet Blue for the suggestion about bringing my horizon forwards

Bjornen - I can relate, I'm sorry you're getting the critical inner voice badly right now

I'm in an in-between kind of space. Like one half hour I feel really good, then I feel like I'm spiraling down, then good again, then down.... I've been looking after someone's dogs for a week and have finished now so am really relieved to be going home. In the past couple of days I've gone into my head a bit: I get into this state of imagining full arguments and terrible scenarios in my head that are extremely unlikely, and then feeling enraged about them as though they're real. Eg: getting into a fight with someone who is actually a figment of my imagination. It's frustrating

[regretful]

In a holding pattern...holding off depression...feeling a bit numb lately - the one "accomplishment" is that I'm not drinking to manage the depression (as I did in the past), and I'm wondering if it is the near sobriety (I'll have a beer once in a while, but no daily drinking for about 6 months) that is helping me this time around. Regardless, I am thankful for the support here. Your bravery facing this affliction is inspiring to me and gives me hope.

Originally Posted by Bjørnen

Almost like a switch being flipped, the self-criticism has turned on suddenly today. Why now? The voice has been dormant for a few weeks, and now it comes barging in, unannounced. I did forget to take my meds yesterday. I don't know if that could be a factor.

It's disappointing, because I thought I was getting along rather well with myself.

Missed doses can create probs. I my case they increase depression and anxiety/anxiety attacks. (((Hugs)))

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I had my friend who is not pleased with my new stability tell me the other night that she didn’t think I was a good fit with the Bible study group anymore so she took my name off the communication list and thinks I should drop out. There are 180 ladies with different personalities. Not fit in? I promise what you see on this site is what you get. I think I need to learn some assertiveness skills. I’m definitely not dropping out. If anything I’ll go more often. Disappointing.

Sending big hugs for those that are struggling.

Wow that is disappointing... and I think, mean of her

I was once in a Bible study group, it was a small group. It was rather.. “controlling” . I wasn’t told I didn’t “fit in”. But some rather “weird” and disappointing stuff happened

In the end almost everyone there was reprimanded and it closed

(((((((( Jennifer )))))))))

I’m sure you “fit in” just fine . I wonder what this lady’s agenda is I’m glad you aren’t letting her push you out!

I’m sending hugs to all here

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Purple,Violet,Blue

How rude of her!

Well, it's probably best she isn't your friend anymore. Yes, definitely tell her to get knotted.

We can help you with assertiveness techniques

Well said purple. I think telling this b1tch to get knotted is ideal

You can borrow me any time and I’ll grrrr at her

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Bjørnen

Almost like a switch being flipped, the self-criticism has turned on suddenly today. Why now? The voice has been dormant for a few weeks, and now it comes barging in, unannounced. I did forget to take my meds yesterday. I don't know if that could be a factor.

It's disappointing, because I thought I was getting along rather well with myself.

[Verity81]

Feeling low frequently, just want to be able to cuddle my new baby and feel all fuzzy. Hope increase in antidepressants helps quickly!!

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Verity81

Feeling low frequently, just want to be able to cuddle my new baby and feel all fuzzy. Hope increase in antidepressants helps quickly!!

"New baby" as in newborn child? If so, could this be post partum depression?

Or "new baby" as in new pet?

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

An unexpected turn to the day. Just heard my stepfather has passed away.

Feeling pretty grim and sad.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Purple,Violet,Blue

An unexpected turn to the day. Just heard my stepfather has passed away.

Feeling pretty grim and sad.

I am so sorry to hear of your pain.
Prayers of love and comfort sent your way.
If you need someone to talk to - my pm box is only one "click" away.

*hugs*

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Purple,Violet,Blue

An unexpected turn to the day. Just heard my stepfather has passed away.

Feeling pretty grim and sad.

I’m so sorry Purple

You know I’m always here for you if you want to pm

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by Purple,Violet,Blue

An unexpected turn to the day. Just heard my stepfather has passed away.

Feeling pretty grim and sad.

I'm very sorry for your loss.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Thanks Crypts, Fuzzy and Angelique. I'm very touched by how kind you all are. I have tears in my eyes!

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Purple,Violet,Blue

Thanks Crypts, Fuzzy and Angelique. I'm very touched by how kind you all are. I have tears in my eyes!

Always, Purple. You are a sweet person. You don't need to thank me. ❤

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by Purple,Violet,Blue

Thanks Crypts, Fuzzy and Angelique. I'm very touched by how kind you all are. I have tears in my eyes!

Originally Posted by Desiree2006

Could you see a pdoc if the situation gets too bad?

Thanks, Desiree , I could. I saw my T today and it was good to talk things over a little bit. I’ll see this through.

[CepheidVariable]

A little catch-up with everyone here.

There's so much going on and I'm still feeling brittle and easily overwhelmed when I stray from nice thoughts. So, I'm behind on some of these forums. Sorry if I've missed any pertinent things and if this is a little brief. But I know how much it can help to have someone stop and say something ....

happycheeks: so good to hear you're okay today, you've been having some rough times

sky457: Being all alone with your problems -- even if it's just being all alone -- is horrible. I'm sad to say I know this all too well. I'm so sorry.

Crypts: Ah, Crypts. Just . You'se good people.

Bjørnen: The person we disappoint the most is ourselves, I know. My current funk flipped on suddenly too the other day as I mentioned. Try to go easy on yourself. Soapy knows better, ask her.

(I keep my medicines beside my glasses on my bedstand, so I don't need to remember. Glasses go on, and pills go in. Maybe you could do something similar with the pet food or something.)

Rose76: That's wonderful.

kaydid777: I'm sorry. I'm in my late 40s and have recently developed a minor issue that I've been told will never completely heal -- only be manageable. It's ... discouraging to say the least.

Jennifer1967: That's rotten. I don't know where people like that get off. No one is ever going to get along with everyone else. But that's just between the two of you -- not you and the 180 other people. You're an amazing part of our group.

Kote: I'm sorry. It *is* really hard.

nikon: Oh wow. Avoidant Personality Disorder here. You just described a lot of my days -- especially useless worrying over scenarios.

regretful: I've never had addiction, but that sounds so well done!

Fuzzybear: Atta Grrrrrrl!

Verity81: Cuddling sounds wonderful.

Purple: Just want to say I'm sorry, and I'm here for you if you need anything. You have done a lot for so many people since you got here. Take whatever time you need for yourself.

emptynightmare: Glad to hear you had a good talk with your therapist.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Nice to hear from you Cepheid and thank you

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Thanks Cep
It's great of you to say a few words, even though you're feeling brittle.

[PsychNitrous]

Been busy lately, and life has been kind of chaotic and anxiety filled, so I haven't been around much. I just started my 3rd week at a new job (or still 2nd? Last week was only half with the holiday ). It's been a rush, since I joined in a couple of weeks into a new program, so none of us really know what we're doing. But the team I work with is really good, and we seem to work well together, so it hasn't been as bad as it could be

Starting to get a little anxious about my counseling sessions though. I saw T last the week before I started, and she didn't have anything that fit in my schedule until January. So she called during my first week to check in and maybe schedule some lunch time appointments. I missed the call and called her back, but I haven't heard from her. It makes me worried and angry. I'm afraid she's decided she can't work with me anymore, which is scary because I haven't clicked with a counselor like this in years. I'm angry because I don't see why she can't look past the one thing we disagree on. It makes me feel judged, which shouldn't be the case. I'm going to try to call her before work tomorrow, if I get up in time.

I dreaded getting up this morning to go back to work after a four day weekend. The day went pretty well, though. I worked out and it went good.

[Sunflower123]

Thanks Cep!!! I really appreciate it and you. Hope you are doing ok. ((((( Hugs )))))

[Rose76]

Yesterday, I thought I had turned a corner and that I would probably be alright, at least for awhile. I went to bed feeling okay.

I didn't wake up okay. And I didn't improve, as the day went on, which I often do. I can't seem to keep my head above water for any length of time.