[MickeyCheeky]

What's the point in fighting anyway? It's all useless. It will never get better. I have nothing to give to this world, so I should just disappear. I've never accomplished anything with my life, and I never will. At some point I'll be dead, and it will probably be better off that way. I don't want to fight anymore...

[bpforever1]

You are worth the fight. You are loved by your family, I'm sure. Each of us is invaluable and mean so much to others. You are not some cog in a wheel. If you think you are not worth it, just ask your mother's opinion. Life is not about accomplishments. It is about how you lived your life. I was homeless once and saw reality in its rawest form. I met others who were prostitutes, addicts, vagrants, etc. They opened my eyes to see that life is not about what and who you are but how you live. Please live your life by enjoying what you have. You must appreciate your sight, your hearing, your able-body, and other small things life has granted you. Some people have nothing in life and are happy while some have all the riches and are miserable. How you see your life is affected by your feelings. So, please don't give up fighting. I'm rooting for you to fight the good fight!! Also, please continue writing here about how you feel. These phases of despair come and go. However, if your despair continues, please talk to your doctor and also if you have a therapist, please address this issue. I hope if you are on medications that you are taking them as prescribed. Best wishes!!

[MickeyCheeky]

Thank you so much for your wise post. What you say is all true... although I can't quite shake off this feeling. But you're right...

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

What's the point in fighting anyway? It's all useless. It will never get better. I have nothing to give to this world, so I should just disappear. I've never accomplished anything with my life, and I never will. At some point I'll be dead, and it will probably be better off that way. I don't want to fight anymore...

I am sure you must have a reason for fighting (even if it's small), also you can't tell the future

you say now- I'll never accomplish anything with my life, but you don't know that.. one day you just might surprise yourself. what do you want to accomplish. what do you want from life?

((((hugs)))

[MickeyCheeky]

Thank you

I don't know what I want to do.. I guess I just want to accomplish something, before it's too late...

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

What's the point in fighting anyway? It's all useless. It will never get better. I have nothing to give to this world, so I should just disappear. I've never accomplished anything with my life, and I never will. At some point I'll be dead, and it will probably be better off that way. I don't want to fight anymore...

"Fighting" gets very tiring sometimes. During these times, we may need to allow ourselves to re-group. Be gentle with yourself.


WC

[MickeyCheeky]

Thank you

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

Thank you

I don't know what I want to do.. I guess I just want to accomplish something, before it's too late...

this is a very real fear to me.

it started because (and this is going to sound stupid), I was scared of getting to an old age in my life- and having no stories to tell, nothing to be proud of, etc etc.

I kept thinking.. well if I had children, how would they feel about me?. come to me for storytime and I just tell them... well, I used to be a nobody- no one wants that

but then I realised that their was more to it than that...

and that is,

Possible trigger:

the fear of being forgotten.

it's really hard for me to accept that when I die, the world will continue on without me- and I'll probably be forgotten about

I obviously have no family to remember me, so who?

and that's the main reason

I don't want to be a famous singer- or an author, or an inventor, I just want to do something that will get me remembered

something like.... oh, her?. didn't she win an award for such and such?

(winning an award would be like giving me gold)

but something small, small but memorable.

I'd like that

[MickeyCheeky]

I can relate to your fears I'd say I feel the same way as well.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Sorry to hear it, Mickey.

Have you had a recent disappointment, possibly, that's made you feel so bad?

[MickeyCheeky]

Well, I don't know.. but recently I was reading/watching the news thinking "What's the point? I couldn't survive in this world anyway. Why am I still here?"

So that's one reason why..

[Nike007]

I feel that you can accomplish something if you really work at it. It can be really slowly, like if you’re writing a novel, and you can only write one sentence a day, then you are one sentence closer to finishing your novel.

It may feel like right now life is pointless and useless. I’m in the same mindset as well. But maybe later it won’t be. I’m not saying things will get better, but maybe you can learn to cope better or something good may happen.

[MickeyCheeky]

Thank you a lot I will try to hang on.. but it's hard...

[katydid777]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

What's the point in fighting anyway? It's all useless. It will never get better. I have nothing to give to this world, so I should just disappear. I've never accomplished anything with my life, and I never will. At some point I'll be dead, and it will probably be better off that way. I don't want to fight anymore...

I am also sending you my thoughts, and prayers to help you through your depression. I know how hard it can be, I've ben there, and done that if you know what I mean, but the man upstairs must have a plan still for me because I am still here. I have several medical issues that could take me, let alone my own depression, but here I am, in 2018. I am now 52, gunna be 53 in June, and I thought that I wouldn't make 13, or 24, or 43, or 44, or 45, ect the rest of the years up to my present age today. I am ok today, but I may not be tomorrow. That is the thing with depression, so I try to take it one day at a time. Sometimes I have to take it one hour, or one minute, or even one second at a time, and sometimes that hasn't helped, and I ended up in the hospital under guard. I try not to let myself get that bad. The last time I was that bad was in 2011. First I was in icu, then I was transferred, and under guard 24/7. I don't wish for anyone to feel that bad. Like I already said, I send you my thoughts, and prayers.

[katydid777]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

this is a very real fear to me.

it started because (and this is going to sound stupid), I was scared of getting to an old age in my life- and having no stories to tell, nothing to be proud of, etc etc.

I kept thinking.. well if I had children, how would they feel about me?. come to me for storytime and I just tell them... well, I used to be a nobody- no one wants that

but then I realised that their was more to it than that...

and that is,

Possible trigger:

the fear of being forgotten.

it's really hard for me to accept that when I die, the world will continue on without me- and I'll probably be forgotten about

I obviously have no family to remember me, so who?

and that's the main reason

I don't want to be a famous singer- or an author, or an inventor, I just want to do something that will get me remembered

something like.... oh, her?. didn't she win an award for such and such?

(winning an award would be like giving me gold)

but something small, small but memorable.

I'd like that

I also feel this way, but I am learning that, this is not important. The important thing would be to be happy for the rest of my days.

[MickeyCheeky]

Thank you so much, katy Your words are very wise.. and I'm happy that you're still with us

[KYWoman]

Mickey, "What's the point?" seems to have become my mantra vs every now and then. I don't know if I'm having some age related crisis or final mental illness break down or what. Unfortunately, I do not have a support system to lean on as my family and many of my friends do not understand that mental illness is NOT a choice illness.

The best I can do is believe in myself and trust that the many gifts with which I have been blessed will not be wasted. I keep reminding the universe I really, really could use a break now. I am going to focus on my breath and take it one moment at a time.

Namaste

[MatBell]

Yeah, I get so tired of struggling too. It feels like nothing changes, the same patterns I can’t break free from. I hope you can enjoy some small parts of the day. When I forget about myself because I’m caught up in something that’s when I probably feel the best. I hope you feel better soon.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry, guys. I hope you'll be able to find happiness in your life. Thank you for your kind words...

I know how it is. I'm not sure what to say but I'm glad your here. You seem really nice. Hope things get better for you.

[thebestofme]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

What's the point in fighting anyway? It's all useless. It will never get better. I have nothing to give to this world, so I should just disappear. I've never accomplished anything with my life, and I never will. At some point I'll be dead, and it will probably be better off that way. I don't want to fight anymore...

forza e coraggio, non possiamo solo lamentarci e vedere quello che non è (perche' sicuramente ci sono delle persone che ti vogliono bene e perchè sei una persona sicuramente capace di fare di più di quello che fai), dobbiamo agire!
una cosa al giorno la stai facendo? come ad esempio cercare nuove amicizie, avvicinare qualche studente con la scusa di chiedere delle info, vedere se ci sono gruppi di studio a cui aderire, approcciarti con persone che non conosci (ho letto che sei all'università ed è già un grande traguardo).
Se non fai nulla per uscirne, è chiaro che la tua visione resta sempre quella.
quindi FORZA SU, muoviamoci da quella sedia . un abbraccio

[DechanDawa]

You are a very compassionate person, very patient with others. You are a steady positive force of encouragement for others. You always have a kind word, or an insight. At your age, this is really amazing. I hope you can extend patience towards yourself. You don't yet know what destiny has in store for you. But in this life, a kind person is like a rare gem. There is so much wrong in the world. But when we are kind...it is like ripples on the surface of the pond...expanding out and getting bigger and bigger. Don't underestimate the power of your kindness, sweetie!

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by DechanDawa

You are a very compassionate person, very patient with others. You are a steady positive force of encouragement for others. You always have a kind word, or an insight. At your age, this is really amazing. I hope you can extend patience towards yourself. You don't yet know what destiny has in store for you. But in this life, a kind person is like a rare gem. There is so much wrong in the world. But when we are kind...it is like ripples on the surface of the pond...expanding out and getting bigger and bigger. Don't underestimate the power of your kindness, sweetie!

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