[Fuzzybear]

Suicidal posts aren’t allowed here, I completely understand and respect that.

When I need support, sometimes it feels that....

Doctors, frankly, don’t care about me. I really do NOT want to reach out once again to be harmed further.

Sometimes it feels ... really, honestly, what’s the freakin point.

Fuzzybear, I don't know what the whole point of most things are. I have been here on the forum for a month now. I still don't know much about your mental health problems but I do know that you suffer greatly because of them. I mentioned once before that when I see your forum name, I smile. I think of you as being a sweet, loving person. If something were to happen to you, I would wonder where you are or what happened. You have made a difference in my life just by being here on this forum. Thank you.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by ForWhatItsWorth2U

Fuzzybear, I don't know what the whole point of most things are. I have been here on the forum for a month now. I still don't know much about your mental health problems but I do know that you suffer greatly because of them. I mentioned once before that when I see your forum name, I smile. I think of you as being a sweet, loving person. If something were to happen to you, I would wonder where you are or what happened. You have made a difference in my life just by being here on this forum. Thank you.

Thank you I appreciate this post

I’ll be ok.. thanks for replying and for your kindness

I think that a lot of people here 'love' you

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by ForWhatItsWorth2U

I think that a lot of people here 'love' you

Thanks I’m not sure if you know this, I live in the UK...I used to think it was “my fault” that I felt harmed by doctors (one doctor specifically)

Doctors over here are very “generous” with “diagnoses”/labels, and meds, if they decide that is necessary (I’m allergic to Meds)

But their support is sub optimal.

DBT, for example, is almost impossible to obtain for most people unless they have been “inpatient” Hospitals scare me

The point is:

Random acts of kindness. The good in the world.
Warmth of sunshine and beauty of the moon.
Rescuing an animal who loves you more than anything.
Breathing in the cold air and taking in the calm
Trying something new and scary
Carrying on for those who have passed
Making new friends
Bubble baths and chocolate
Listening to music and crying
Getting lost in the most amazing book
Swimming in deep water
Laughing until you cry
Cooking an amazing new recipe
Hugging a big fluffy teddy bear in the store

Depression sucks, but I promise you the fight is worth it. You are loved here and I will tell you that every single day if it helps.

[Wild Coyote]

I often feel the same way.

I can tell you I would be very sad if you ever hurt yourself. If you were gone, I'd really miss you! You are a very compassionate, loving person. You make a difference for me and for lots of others, too.

I am sorry you cannot access DBT. What is that about? Kind of crazy-making, isn't it?

Please keep reaching out. You are so very important to so many of us!


WC

[Fuzzybear]

Thanks TheSadGirl and Wild Coyote

Not being able to access DBT... it is kind of crazy making

I’ve noticed over time that most in the UK are very quiet . I worry about some of them.. and the other supportive people here.

Doctors over here are also very “generous” with completely unhelpful labels like “attention seeking” I have looked at my medical notes a couple of times, there are a lot of errors there But I haven’t been labelled with that particular harmful label. I simply have the generic “Depression” in my notes..

(It was a therapist who dxd me with “avoidant” pd. Sometimes I think of asking them to let me view the full notes. But I think that would simply harm me further..)

(((((((( Wild Coyote ))))))))) I feel the same about you

(((((((( TheSadGirl ))))))))))

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I really do NOT want to reach out once again to be harmed further.

Over the years I twice reached out to emergency psychiatric support services. Neither experience was positive.

Subsequently I worked out with my doctors alternate measures for future such emergencies. If things disintegrate, I must rely on anti-anxiety meds and close family. In my situation, I know - and accept - that community/national mental health care is not my best option for help.



((((((( Fuzzybear )))))))

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Over the years I twice reached out to emergency psychiatric support services. Neither experience was positive.

Subsequently I worked out with my doctors alternate measures for future such emergencies. If things disintegrate, I must rely on anti-anxiety meds and close family. In my situation, I know - and accept - that community/national mental health care is not my best option for help.



((((((( Fuzzybear )))))))

((((((((( Rohag )))))))))

I regret that you had those experiences

Those who haven’t battled severe MH issues will never “get it”....

[Patagonia]

(((Fuzzybear)))

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( Patagonia )))))))

Thank you

[MtnTime2896]

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[Fuzzybear]

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[mulan]

I am sorry health care is suboptimal around where you live... I have few knowledge about how the system works in the UK, my pdoc sister told me you have good community care but I imagine it's most for detiorated patients with chronic diseases as psychotic ones.

Doctors are physicians, their training starts way back in medical school with pharmacology and physiology. Psychology is just one among the large amount of stuff they have to learn and when the time is short and the general knowledge focus on physiology is natural that pdocs turn to more quick fixes. The idea I get from psychiatry is that the doctors role is to diagnose and balance the patient in the least emotional involving way. The healer must be the therapist. Pdocs need to have knowledge about psychotherapy but they don't need to have a full psychotherapist training... So it's somebody else's problem.

I am not trying to excuse anyone, is just how things are and I understand both sides. I am sorry you got lost in the system.

[tecomsin]

I also see you as a sweet, loving person.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

I also see you as a sweet, loving person.

Thank you, I appreciate this

[whoamihere]

Fuzzy, your comments and the group hugs you always send never fail to make me smile.

There are so many days where I have asked myself what's the point and I'm sorry that's how you're feeling today. It's always so frustrating when we can't get the healthcare we need due to red tape and bureaucracy. I hope things get better soon.

[KYWoman]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Suicidal posts aren’t allowed here, I completely understand and respect that.

When I need support, sometimes it feels that....

Doctors, frankly, don’t care about me. I really do NOT want to reach out once again to be harmed further.

Sometimes it feels ... really, honestly, what’s the freakin point.

Hey FuBear, I've been experiencing these same thoughts much more frequently since becoming homeless. You ARE an inspiration to many members here. I'm glad you are here and I hope you are feeling better. Don't you feel all the love here?? My tears are starting to dry.

[Wild Coyote]

Just checking in on you again!

I hope today has, somehow, been better for you.

Thinking of you.

WC

Originally Posted by Rohag

Over the years I twice reached out to emergency psychiatric support services. Neither experience was positive.

Subsequently I worked out with my doctors alternate measures for future such emergencies. If things disintegrate, I must rely on anti-anxiety meds and close family. In my situation, I know - and accept - that community/national mental health care is not my best option for help.



((((((( Fuzzybear )))))))

I overdosed a few months back but I didn't have to go to the hospital. I puked and got better. I feel suicidal at times but I guess as you said I have to try out my anti-anxiety pill in such an emergency. And may be log in here and ask for support. That's what I try to do nowadays