confessions of little turtle with love

I need a valium....this world sucks

our treatment is 15 minutes every 3 months and some drugs---that sucks

besides valium I need some candy...and coffee

we are getting screwed....in order to get good talk therapy you need money...
and how many of us have that much money...and I have a bias here...
I don't think there are many really good therapists...I did have one that was good..

we need to tell our stories to someone who will listen and not judge..
we need to talk about what really happened to us..
we need to be loved...we need to belong...no matter what happened..
and we need to listen....



people will try to take us down...don't let them do it..
they want to feel superior ...
we are not inferior..we are different

I am different...I am badly broken but no one is superior to me...
this makes me very very angry...fuzzy I need your bus

when we tell our stories it is very painful...we will cry and scream about the hurt..
how badly we were hurt....

I was hurt very badly by people I trusted ....I still have tears and anger...
I need the fuzzy bus and also another bus where we can all cry until you
cant cry anymore...two buses....or maybe two compartments

Dear little turtle, I am sorry I haven't checked in with you in a while. I have been very busy with my home being full. I have a 3 br house, and they are all full with people that I wish I didn't have to deal with. It seems like every day is about the same, and goes on, and on. And I can't wait for bed time, and it seams as soon as I fall asleep, it is time to get up and start all over again. Anyway I hope and Pray things are going ok for you!!!!!!!

Good post little turtle

I wish that my depression and anxiety would go away and I would feel more happiness and look forward to living every day. I have been struggling a lot for over 4yrs now and its getting too much. I feel tired, frustrated and hopeless. There is improvement but its too too slow. I want to get a lot better very soon.

we need to talk about what really happened to us..
we need to be loved...we need to belong...no matter what happened....
I have my bf whom I met here and he listens when I talk to him about my problems and he loves me very much.

people will try to take us down...don't let them do it..
they want to feel superior ...
we are not inferior..we are different.....
People try to take me down every day and make me feel inferior. I try to tell myself that I m not inferior and fight with their abuse every day. These are the people whom I had once trusted...they were my friends in school and college. Now Im left with no friends except my online bf. But he is so far away. I have him and you all to pull me through this dark phase.

Thanks you described it so well. It was kinda same for me. But it was for a longer time. Only recently I have started working from home as I still cant go out and work in an office. Hopefully I can manage. It will boost my confidence and help me to earn something.

Same with me. Here we don't have good therapists. Therapy is not well structured, there is no good follow-up the next day and the therapist also doesn't want to spend adequate time with the patient. Moreover therapy costs a lot of money which I cant afford.

thanks desiree----------what is true for me may not be true for you...
I would like to help you more but I am not there in india...I don't know what you are
up against....WHAT IS TRUE FOR YOU....what can you do now to help yourself...
what are you doing that is hurting you now...

for me right now...what is true..i need to pay attention to how I am treating my wife...and I need to keep doing my health talks at the local library...no matter what..

and I need to cut down on the ______________salt and sugar and butter

omg! can you believe this? those two companies were scammers. anyways we learn from our experiences. im going to have to look for something else. im thinking of going back to studies for sometime and then take up teaching at the elementary level.

little turtle, once i was very intetested in neuropsychology. but idk if i'll be able to study it further. anyways

I would have liked to know more about your health talks at the local library.

the health talk at the library ----
right now there are 4 of us..
two guys and two girls...
we are talking about good mental health..
true mental health...relationships
one poet/one lesbian/one Vietnam vet/one broken down psychiatrist
talking about what has happened to us and what then to do..

today I am very angry at one of my kids....and my wife..
my wife and kids cause me the most stress...
I get very mad and sad...not much glad

I hate this damn celexa...5 mg and I cant stop it...I have been on ssri anti-depressants
for years....maybe 40 years...I don't need the damn stuff anymore...I have tried getting off but I just haven't been able to...damn it...

I need the fuzzy

hey we are all different here...what works for you...that is important..
what is true for you...it may not be the same for others..
these anti-depressants that I took....did they work for me...I don't really know...
I have had terrible depressions...is all depression the same...do we all need the same treatment...I am starting to question what the doctors and therapists have
been telling me...what is the cause of my depression...what is the cause ....
I don't know...

I am a broken down psychiatrist....
I am very angry at what I saw in psychiatry...
I was told by the top psychiatrists to talk less and give more drugs..
well that didn't work for me then or now...I want to talk more...
psychiatrists may be harming more than helping..
and that makes me very upset...I don't like this...
as a doctor I was told to DO NO HARM...
I have been taken down many times trying to fight this..
this has caused me major anxiety and depression...

I agree with you that psychiatrists do more harm than good. They seem to have sold themselves out to the pharmaceutical companies. We're talking well educated people here who spend 10 minutes of a session asking about the side effects of a drug they prescribed and the last 5 minutes (it's 15 minute session at $200) writing out another prescription to counteract the new problem caused by the first prescription. I know this from a friend.

If you are a psychiatrist yourself, Little Turtle, you can treat your patients the way YOU see fit. You can make a difference in the industry and be first doctor who actually talks to his clients. You can make a difference without prescribing drugs. Your clients will thank you for it and will have more money in their pockets to lessen their stress.

I don't think they do more harm than good. For me, meds have been a lifesaver. I do agree that they should talk to patients more though. My psychiatrist talks to me for half an hour.

I guess I’ve been lucky. My psych doc definitely helped me. I don’t feel harmed at all.

I believe I said that psychiatrists MAY be harming more than helping...
I am not talking about individuals...I was helped by one psychiatrist very much....I am talking in general..i don't know for sure..

I am mainly talking about giving too many people drugs for everything...
and no talk about what might be causing the depression...

"what then to do" is very imp. I wish I could attend the talks

I wish you could....
I am the broken down psychiatrist...
I am not rich and famous...
I am an unhappy person mostly...
I love valium but I don't take it now...
but the major thing for me is TRUTH AND HONESTY...

desiree we are talking now about DO NO HARM...