It was very busy for me this morning at work, but it died down in the afternoon. It's still hot and humid outside and it takes some energy out of me. I worked out after work and it went well. And then I went to the pool area. I was alone for a while and then some people came in. But they had stayed away from me, which was OK.

Tomorrow at work, there's supposed to be a "Town Hall" meeting in the auditorium. I had recently set up the auditorium for a training class of over 50 people. The Town Hall meeting is supposed to be at noon, which will be right in the middle of the training class. That means that the tables will all have to be put away and over a hundred chairs set up for the town hall meeting. And it would have to be done within a half hour. It's going to be impossible for that to happen. And then when the town hall meeting ends, the class resumes. I hope and pray that the Town Hall meeting will be postponed.

I only had 2 goals yesterday- to eat something decent and to avoid the soap opera, but failed on both

I burned the food and then watched the soap opera because I felt guilty for not watching it- and not knowing what happened next

also didn't rest again

mood not bad today.

one of those slow, quiet days with **** all to do

[WishfulThinker66]

Depression is seeping in through the cracks. I should have heard back about a job by now and I am feeling a hit to my self-worth.

[regretful]

Feels like a holding pattern; after reading some journal entries from 2014, I feel like I'm right back where I was...but I'm not giving up...exercising continues and the weight loss is slower than it was before - that helps, as does quiet prayer for me. I wish all of you well in your personal struggle with this invisible demon.

Pretty slow today at work. Well, as it turned out, I didn't have to do anything with the auditorium (as I mentioned yesterday). I guess that today is the last day of the class, so tomorrow I'll have to put things away. I don't mind. It's going to be very slow and boring tomorrow morning anyways, so it will give me something to do.

I was told last Saturday that I would get my reimbursement check coming to me ASAP. Here it is Thursday and still no check. Yesterday I received something in the mail from HOA and I thought that was it. It wasn't! It turned out to be a form letter about running to be on the Board. Yea, I would really love to do that!

Went bike riding after work. It's still pretty hot and humid outside and will be for a while. Much to my surprise I am gaining a little weight. I thought that I would lose some weight with the heat and humidity.

[Guitarman911]

I'm hearing both emotional and physical pains. If you haven't, now might be a good time to get a comprehensive checkup from your physician. If keeping up with everything is a struggle, break the "everything" down into smaller pieces. I know; "it's sounds easier than getting everything accomplished in bulk so it's off my mind". Welcome to my world! I'm by no means a medical professional however the soreness you feel in you left foot when putting weight on it sounds like it's time to have a professional take a look and listen! Best always! Guitarman . . .

[regretful]

Lately, the most difficult part of this depression is that I know, oh so well, what it was like to be free from the clutches of this...it's right there, but so allusive...I'll do the best I can to get back there...

[lotusblossom19]

Sucky day. Emotional eating is sort of an issue.

Originally Posted by lotusblossom19

Sucky day. Emotional eating is sort of an issue.

Yeah I can't control my eating too especially in the night.

[88Butterfly88]

Mild depression so far today.

Originally Posted by Desiree2006

Yeah I can't control my eating too especially in the night.

ditto this

for me though it's all the time. not just night

nothing really good to say about today

apart from the fact that this evening I am eating southern fried chicken- which I enjoy.

though to be fair, I'll probably burn it

can't cook to save my life

[Fuzzybear]

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

[boomerango]

today the voices of failure are loud. louder still are the inner sobs of grief. The anniversary of my dear friend's death in 2 days, and only now I learn an old friend also died almost a year ago, too. my ears are ringing.

[Fuzzybear]

Voices of “failure” ggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Boil on my buttt gggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Originally Posted by raging vortex

nothing really good to say about today

apart from the fact that this evening I am eating southern fried chicken- which I enjoy.

though to be fair, I'll probably burn it

can't cook to save my life

A few days back I tried to cook cheese sauce. It was so horrible that I had to throw it away.

[Rose76]

I can make today okay, if I push myself. First, though, I'm taking a nap.

[Thirty shades]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I can make today okay, if I push myself. First, though, I'm taking a nap.

Well done for taking so much care of you.

Very busy day for me, a little more than usual. Finished the laundry and pretty soon I have to fold. I haven't cleaned yet and it's about 10:15 AM. I'm still waiting on that check from the HOA. I thought that it would be here by now! I just hate it when someone says that they will do something nice and then not deliver.

Nothing social for today. So when the work's over, another dull Saturday. It's still very hot and humid outside. I don't do much and then sweat.

[Rose76]

It's 12:30 p.m. and last night's supper dishes are still in the sink.

I got to get going.

My busyness from today is over. A lot of work done. Nothing social for the rest of the day and tonight. I'm going to watch a movie and I got a CD I like from the library.

Still very hot and humid outside. My check did not come today. It was a week ago today that I was promised that it would get to me immediately. So I'll have to make phone calls. Damn them!

[WishfulThinker66]

The week has been more positive than not.

Got up a little bit later today than yesterday. Did little things this morning. So far my morning has been ruined by an order I had received on-line. It turned out that I got the wrong item. It's for my weight-lifting. So I have to re-order. I really prefer to buy what I want at a store instead of on-line.

My friend and I (we recently cleared up a misunderstanding that we had last week) are going to get together today. He's going to come to visit me. I'm looking forward to it, but yet at the same time, I want to go to a sports store to see if they have what I would want. Maybe I could make the time for it.

[Rose76]

I wasted the whole day.

An OK day today, but I feel very depressed. With the wrong order that I got online, I reordered what I wanted. I hope that they will get it right this time. I don't want to reveal what the name of the company is, I think a lot of you may know who I'm talking about. I don't want to name the company because I might get sued. I went to a couple of sporting goods stores and they didn't have what I wanted.

My friend did come over, despite some misunderstandings and delays on transportation. It worked out OK. Also my sister had called, but I was out on my bike when she did. She sounded stressed and tired, like she always does.

I went to the pool area. It started off alright in the beginning but went downhill after that. It reminded me of how much I really don't like the place I live at. My friend is always telling me to stay where I am because of the high rents. So now I feel like I'm damned if I stay or damned if I leave. Sounds like I should off myself if that's all I have to look forward to.