[OneDayAtATime]

My car broke down again today... and to be honest I don't really even have enough money to buy food, let alone fix it. I'll have to throw it on my credit card and hope that I some how stay afloat. After I get over this catastrophe I need to find a way to pay for college, which I am excited about attending, I just wish I could enjoy the moment without constantly being stressed about finances. Living off cans of soup and microwave meals doesn't do my bowels much justice, I ran out of toilet paper and had to use paper towels and now the toilet is clogged. I can't even go to the store to buy a plunger because I have no transportation... laugh. I wish I had relationship issues because that would be the least of my problems, but I don't even feel an urge to pursue one. My friends want to go out to the bars which I have no problem doing, but I just don't feel like putting effort into meeting someone new and having to pretend to be something I'm not. I know though, if you don't put any effort towards it then don't expect something to magically fall in your lap. I was working happily, until the mortgage market collapsed. No one wants to refinance or purchase a new home, but hey thats just life. Just seems that life likes to keep kicking me while I'm down, I just wish I had a little time to breathe.

Anyways, I know a lot of people have problems worse than mine, just wish someone would tell me it'll all be okay in the end.

[blah__x]

it will be ok in the end..be strong, you're in my thoughts..

(((((OneDay)))))

[Perna]

Welcome to PsychCentral, OneDay.

It will be okay in the end. I went out on my own in 1983 to mid-1985 and my income dropped a third and was below what I needed to live on. I was sure I was going to end up on the street. My therapist, whom I didn't pay much to begin with was getting ready to kick me out for nonpayment, etc. and I was quite worried/afraid I'd hit bottom only that there'd be no bottom there for me and I'd just do free-fall.

I still have one of my journals from that time and I remember working on remembering the way I was feeling and what was going on as I figured if I ever got out and then later in life had troubles, it would stand me in good stead so I wouldn't worry as much. Of course, that hasn't happened, that I don't worry as much :-)

[bipolar_bear]

Welcome to PC. I am sorry that things seem so bleak to you right now. It sounds like you are being proactive though by going to school. It does seem like things pile up at times though. Maybe taking one thing at a time will help it not to become so overwhelming. I am glad you found us.

BB

[nowheretorun]

have faith one day...

[Doh2007]

What a bummer!