I was feeling depression and anxiety again today. Another gloomy day outside, though I tend to like days like that. It's probably because it's very slow at work. I worked out after work for the first time in three or four months. It went very well, but I felt like I had put too little weights on. But it's very different in working out in my new place from the other place. I think that I'm going to like working out in my place now better than the old one. I felt better about myself after working out.

[zapatoes]

The depression is sometimes lately just there and I’m trying to go on despite it, can I just walk around it or maybe toss it out the window. No wait it bounced back up after being thrown out the window, it just staring at me now. No I’m staying busy, I’m going to work, walk the dog later, make a good dinner, talk to my friend, or my mom, or a friend on the phone. Good night.

[mothtoaflame]

I’ve been back at work for 3 days (last week was half term) and I am done in already.

[3rd rock]

Feeling very down because of poor book sales. I hope it will get better but I don't expect it will.

I had trouble sleeping early this morning from 2AM to 4AM. During that time I was awake, I was having some pitied thoughts about myself. When I got to sleep finally at 4 I had a very weird dream.

It was slow at work today. I was going to workout after work, but instead I went to an Urgent Care. I had little bumps on my skin that didn't look good. The doctor told me I had Pityriasis rosea.

im really struggling. 2019 hasn't been kind.

[Sunflower123]

Having a really bad time today.

Very busy today with the usual stuff. Feel very depressed now because of my new skin condition that I was diagnosed with yesterday. I look very unsightly. I hope this thing goes away soon. I have been reading on forums about it. It sounds complicated with treating it.

[Rose76]

Feeling low today. Got a couple of things done. Very demoralized.

[Rose76]

If only I could sustain being in a normal mood for 3 consecutive days . . .

Depressive episodes blow over. I tell myself that when I'm in one. But now I'm bouncing back and forth between being depressed and feeling fine. The feeling normal doesn't last any length of time. It's great for while it lasts - maybe a day and a half. But it collapses too soon. I get over being depressed, but then depression slams me again. It's no way to live. Not planning any self-injury, but this is crippling. It's like trying to move around on ice skates when you don't know how to skate. I'm afraid of really falling apart.

[3rd rock]

I want to be a bestseller so I can escape poverty using the only talent I have. I want to leave the city. But my sales remain low. I don't know what to do.

having a rough time.

[3rd rock]

****ing Amazon customer service reps, they've inaccurately categorized one of my novels as erotica, which means they are deliberately misleading customers. I'm trying to work my way through their byzantine support system, but at the first stage they've outright refused to remove this categorization. The funny thing is, they haven't so miscategorized the print versions of this novel, only the ebook. I haven't indicated from my dashboard that it's erotica, rather that it's a literary romance. The idiot representatives I'm dealing with haven't even read a single page of it, nor even the description.

I have been in deep depression lately because of my new skin problem that I mentioned last Friday. I went on a discussion board about that particular skin problem and I'm very confused. I'm hearing arguments about what works and what doesn't. It has got me so down so much that I feel tired a lot. Plus I rather hibernate myself because I don't want other people to see me in my condition.

The friend of mine asked me to go to a concert tonight. I didn't feel like going. He doesn't get it that I prefer not to go out on Sunday nights because I want to be more relaxed before starting a new work week. Plus the show didn't sound very appealing to me.

[Rose76]

The day ended better than it began.

[3rd rock]

**** Amazon. Now they've removed the ebook of that title without even providing a reason! It's been for sale on their sites for more than 2 years without problems. And they haven't even touched the print editions! I'm hopping mad.

[Deilla]

Feeling pretty good. Had a few rough patches but I'm doing much better. Trying to stay positive and keep busy. Been marking things off my To Do List. Today I will mainly relax. I'm physically exhausted from all the work I've been doing lately.

[regretful]

Haven't been here since Sept 2018 - apparently I survived another winter in the northeast, which is when my mood plummets. I've been exercising regularly and eating much better. That and the sunshine - and my outlook - have improved my mood greatly. I hope that all of you are doing well, and I wish you well in your personal struggle with this invisible beast.

[Sunflower123]

Feeling very depressed and all alone today. Nobody cares whether I’m here or not.

[Buffy01]

I feel really depressed and down all the time!

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I want to be a bestseller so I can escape poverty using the only talent I have. I want to leave the city. But my sales remain low. I don't know what to do.

I'm currently writing a book myself! Read author who made it and ask questions.

[Yzen]

I felt so sad this morning that I contacted my therapist and asked if she could fit me today or later this week. She has no openings.
Tonight, I have a headache. The frequency of them has increased lately. I've had one every day for about a week. I don't know what I feel right now.

Feeling depressed and anxious lately. I'm having a double-dose of health issues now. That skin problem and having lymphedema acting up on my left leg now. I've had that before. The skin problem is on my left leg and in other areas. I'm feeling like I'm going to die or something.

Believe it or not, even in those conditions, I worked out. It went well.

[Rose76]

I'm in quicksand . . . trying to figure out what I can grab onto to haul myself out of it.

Took 15 mg of hydrocodone at 1:15 p.m. It made me feel a bit better. I should get moving before it wears off. It will give increasing help till 4:30 pm, then stop helping about 6:30 PM.

I'm desperate.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I'm currently writing a book myself! Read author who made it and ask questions.

Thank you. Good luck in writing your book!

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I got a copy of the latest edition of one of my novels today, and it doesn't look nearly as good as I'd thought it would, based on the PDFs. However, I still consider it to be satisfactory.