Originally Posted by will19

Feeling depressed and anxious lately. I'm having a double-dose of health issues now. That skin problem and having lymphedema acting up on my left leg now. I've had that before. The skin problem is on my left leg and in other areas. I'm feeling like I'm going to die or something.

Believe it or not, even in those conditions, I worked out. It went well.

As of now, I feel much better, The swelling on my leg has gone down and that was a big deal to me. I still have that skin problem but it is very tolerable even though I look very unsightly. It's sort of a liberating feeling being afflicted and then it's done with.

[3rd rock]

I am now over halfway done in overall progress on the third book in a four book series. I've spent roughly two and a half years so far on the series. That's a lot of time to spend working on something that hardly anyone has read and even fewer have liked. It makes me feel dejected to have been afflicted with this compulsion to put so much effort into something with so little payoff. Tomorrow I'm going to buy a whole cake and eat it in one sitting. That may sound like a bad idea, but it's better than booze, I've done that and it's a terrible idea to try and drown your troubles in drink.

[Spirit of Trees]

Feeling generally pessimistic and angry about my life.

[Rose76]

I'm barely functioning.

I am feeling better lately since my minor health issues are improving. The swelling of the leg is going down and my skin problem is slowly improving.

It was slow at work. I was dreading going to work this morning because I had a task that I thought was impossible. I ended up able to do what was required and the manager "high-fived" me. He's a real nice guy. I worked out after work. I'm back in that routine again after about a four month hiatus.

[3rd rock]

I keep hoping that various doctors and tests will find something physically wrong with me, like some kind of brain disease or leukemia or something, just to have some real explanation of why I'm tired all the time no matter how much sleep I get. They never do.

[Spirit of Trees]

I feel slightly better, but prone to crying lately.

Busy today. Felt pretty good emotionally in the morning, but felt very down in the afternoon. That's the way Saturdays are for me. In the afternoon when I felt down, I was thinking about how it seems like I'm always the one to put myself out for others. No one will put themselves out for me.

Today, I would say that it was the most social day for me at my new place. But it's just a lot of small talk and no connections. Tonight, for the first time since I've moved in, there was someone else in the Jacuzzi when I went in. He was alright, but not my type.

I got a movie for tonight, like I always do on Saturday nights. It's about the afterlife of a couple of people. We'll see if it's going to be good.

[Rose76]

I'm feeling not too bad this morning. I did sleep well.

If I get stuff done today, like cleaning the bedroom and going through mail, I'll feel a lot better.

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I keep hoping that various doctors and tests will find something physically wrong with me, like some kind of brain disease or leukemia or something, just to have some real explanation of why I'm tired all the time no matter how much sleep I get. They never do.

Sorry to hear that. I have been through that myself. There was a time when I had panic attacks & depression and just didn't feel good. I was tired and light-headed a lot. I felt so bad one time that I decided to have a blood test to see if anything was wrong. Nothing was wrong, it turned out! Well, if everything is normal, why do I feel like crap?

I have to say that depression and anxiety can be exhausting. Also, be thankful you don't have a disease of some kind because that can really be bad if you did. I know, because I had cancer myself one time.

[Rose76]

I'm just lacking any motivation. I may have to get my bf into a nursing home. I don't even know if that will help.

Not too busy today at work, but lots of people taking a class in the auditorium today and tomorrow. It was a good day for me emotionally. My skin problem is clearing up nicely now. It seemed to have cleared up sooner than I thought it would. Also the leg swelling has improved.

I worked out after work. It went very well but too easy. I'll increase the weights. I wasn't sure how much to put on since it had been about four months when I laid off of it.

[Rose76]

I'm still in the trough. This doesn't feel temporary.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by MatBell

Going to a job coach tomorrow. Hope she can help me and give me some inspiration and optimism.
Feeling weird tonight. A bit sad. Not over anything specific.

Good luck on job coach!

[Buffy01]

Feeling really sad all the time!

[Buffy01]

I been in tears lately because of how down I been lately!

[downandlonely]

Have hives but no idea what I'm allergic to. The doc is starting me on steroids.

Pretty slow at work today. There was a meeting by phone today that's held every week. The maintenance man didn't show up at that meeting and it was expected of him to be there. I did a bold thing by asking the manager if it's necessary for me to be at those meetings since it only covers the maintenance issues and nothing on my job. I find those meetings to be a waste of my time and humiliating for me.

Not a good day for me emotionally. I'm feeling like people in general do not like me and have indirectly showed that to me. Or you might call that "passive-aggressive". I hate that stuff.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by will19

Sorry to hear that. I have been through that myself. There was a time when I had panic attacks & depression and just didn't feel good. I was tired and light-headed a lot. I felt so bad one time that I decided to have a blood test to see if anything was wrong. Nothing was wrong, it turned out! Well, if everything is normal, why do I feel like crap?

I have to say that depression and anxiety can be exhausting. Also, be thankful you don't have a disease of some kind because that can really be bad if you did. I know, because I had cancer myself one time.

I'm sorry, I was not meaning to diminish the difficulty experienced by those who suffer from such medical conditions. I should be more careful about how I choose to phrase things on this forum

[3rd rock]

Made good progress on current project today. Over 2,000 words written, and a number of critical plot points hashed out. I'm on track to have this novel finished by the end of the year. It'll be my longest work to date, as I expect it to be over 200,000 words.

[Spirit of Trees]

I'm feeling ok today, just a bit tired

[Rose76]

Well, I'm awake and having breakfast. Took my morning meds and took my bf to the bathroom. That's a start. Now . . . if I can build on that. I did just do a few dishes, which have piled up over past 2 days. If I can just keep going . . .

[Deilla]

Had a bit of a rough morning with pain and anxiety. Slept a while and took some Tylenol. Doing much better this afternoon. Will probably go to bed early.

Hi! Just visiting to share a post that I created on the bipolar forum called "Ideas for adjuncts to psych medications: Depression". A number of members on the bipolar forum contributed ideas that have helped ease their depressions, beyond medications. I thought that perhaps someone here may be interested in them. You are more than welcome to share what's been helpful for you. We'd appreciate any desired participation. Here's the link to the thread:

Ideas for adjuncts to psych meds - DEPRESSION

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Anonymous59275

I really wish things did not turn out so bad. If only people were nicer, kinder, more thoughtful. But...I had a cruel awakening to the true nature of many individuals. I have no idea how to deal with it and have no one to turn to, thanks to the mongers who stole from me.

I completely understand how you feel! I feel like this all the time myself!