[mothtoaflame]

I ended up taking propranolol earlier and feel like I need some again. It didn't really help a whole bunch, but it's better than nothing!

This morning, I confessed to the manager at work that I had scuffed up the linoleum floor in the breakroom because of dragging the chairs in there. I wasn't thinking when I did that, I was under pressure. The manager was nice to me about it. He is a very nice guy. But he told me that the maintenance man was very upset. I'm not surprised, because the maintenance man is grumpy. It will work out somehow.

This morning I had an unexpected work order to set up the auditorium for 60 people in a class tomorrow. I didn't set up well the first time because there were not enough tables. But later, after a discussion, I was told how I can make it better, and I did. It seems like we've been having lots of mega-meetings lately at where I work.

After work today I took a one-hour bike ride. That helped.

[Humpty Dumpty]

I find myself spiraling out of control. Everything is either making sad or angry. Will I finally do what needs to be done this time? Probably not.

[mountainstream]

Anxious and depressed.

[mothtoaflame]

I have a huge pile of laundry to do and lots of dishes to wash. I was too bloody lazy to do any of it so I'm hoping I can get it done in the morning!!

[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by mothtoaflame

I have a huge pile of laundry to do and lots of dishes to wash. I was too bloody lazy to do any of it so I'm hoping I can get it done in the morning!!

Yeah I put my laundry off to the very last minute and didn't get it done in time for work. I also have a sink full of dirty dishes and a dishwasher full of clean dishes. The more I see it pile up the less I want to do it. So I understand.

[3rd rock]

God help me I actually laughed at a joke in a new episode of the Simpsons.

I've been cleaning out my apartment slowly, and I took four bag of garbage to the dumpster behind the building over the past 2 days. Just getting rid of useless junk.

It was pretty busy in the morning at work. There was a class in the auditorium. The maintenance man will be out tomorrow. I hate it when he's gone because I have to take his place; and I hate his job. I don't know why he is just taking a day off.

Took a bike ride after work and went to the hot tub at where I live. Two weeks ago, when I first moved in, there were all kinds of people to talk to. Now it seems like my neighbors are non-existed.

I still, at times, get upset at myself about the loan to my sister after I got the money from the sale of my place. I wrote about that on another forum at Psych Central - Insurance And Finance. If you look there, you can't miss it.

[Rose76]

Yesterday, I was about ready to flush myself down the toilet.

But, today, I'm having a good day, and I feel quite well . . . chipper even.

[88Butterfly88]

A friend of mine seemed depressed today so I tried to cheer her up. I think in the process I cheered myself up too. So mostly good day today, can't complain.

Not too busy at work today. However I was having a struggle with getting my investment started. I wanted to get a CD going and it's harder to get it started than I thought it would be. Caught me by surprise. Other than that, not much of a day.

I was very busy with cleaning this morning. It's very different now at my new place from my old place. It takes a little getting used to. Went shopping after that.

Feeling a little bit down today. I don't know why.

[3rd rock]

What kind of ridiculous psychiatrist discharges me when I'm worse than when she first saw me? What kind of psychiatrist tries only one medication and then pronounces me beyond medication when that one doesn't work?

I tend to experience a physical pain when it comes to depression. I can't really describe it very well, except to say that it feels like a sort of throbbing, aching pain in my heart. It's really terrible.

On a positive note, sales figures for my books from last month (May) are in, and my sales were more than double April's, which were more than double March. If present growth continues, and I don't expect it will, then I'll be able to rely on writing for a full time income in just a few months.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty

Yeah I put my laundry off to the very last minute and didn't get it done in time for work. I also have a sink full of dirty dishes and a dishwasher full of clean dishes. The more I see it pile up the less I want to do it. So I understand.

I hear the both of you above. As that backlog piles up, it becomes more intimidating to approach. I'm in the same boat. I feel like I can't even try right now. Awful.

Woke up with the "Sunday Morning Blues". Last night I watched a movie that was not very good. Plus an ambulance came at my complex to take a man away. I had seen that man earlier in the day and he didn't appear to be coherent.

This morning, I drove out to take back my DVD to the library and wanted to pick up a few things at a store. But I couldn't do it because the streets were closed off. There's a special marathon going on, so that got me discouraged. And then when I came back, I was horrified that I had forgotten my gate key to get back in. Fortunately someone let me in.

I'm having a tea break now. After that I plan on doing some household little projects that I meant to do after moving in. I hope they go alright. It may be a very light day for bike riding today.

[Amethyst_Stargazer]

Today I feel okay, but I'm hoping to talk to one of my close friends today. It always seems to cheer me up when I speak to this one person. I'm not relying on this person or anything, but this person seems to cheer me up whenever I hear from them.

This is why I'm glad I'm picky when it comes to friends. Cause this person hasn't let me down.

[mountainstream]

Tired.

[Rose76]

Today's going pretty well. I'm in recovery mode, getting over being down in a trough that was deep. Great to be out of it. I must make the most of this momentum while it lasts.

[3rd rock]

I don't like being nickled and dimed to death. I don't like coin operated air pumps at gas stations, I don't like every store now charging for plastic bags, and I don't like doctor's offices that charge exorbitant fees just to get a copy of a single sheet of paper.

It was a gloomy day outside today and I felt the same way. I had tremendous depression and anxiety today. I don't know why. It seemed like it was a good day. It started off nicely as I went to my car and there was a shinny new dime at the driver's door. And then some little things that were burdensome at work worked themselves out nicely.

Things were a dud when I got home. I did the laundry. While going to the laundry room just before my wash were finished, a woman was waiting for the machines to finish. She was nice about it. And that's what happened with the drying, too. I felt rushed in doing the laundry.

Also, I wanted to watch Jeopardy tonight but was not able to because the station carried a stupid hockey game instead. As it turned out, that guy James who was winning big had lost. I wanted to see that. Oh well!

[3rd rock]

Well, it's only been three days but book sales are off to a terrible start for this month. As expected.

[Rose76]

I feel fairly okay. I made a good dinner last eve for my bf and me. Doing breakfast now. I have to get out of the house a little later. That seems to always give me a boost.

[Deilla]

My mother triggered me. I was trying to talk to her and she interrupted me to say the baby needed her phone. He was whining. I guess I'm not important enough. And I guess you don't care that he's 7 and doesn't respect you. I feel so depressed and devalued. I am angry and hurt. I just don't matter.

[edgytaco]

Hi, I’m new to this! Today I feel just okay. My friends want to hang out tonight but I’m not sure if I want to. I know I should want to but sometimes I just don’t feel like I have enough energy. This is been going on for quite awhile now. Does anyone else feel this way?

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs to all