my life...

just keeps getting better and better(sarcasm)...let's talk about trust for minute ok...for me there is no such thing as trust...especially in myself...but my trust in human nature has been solidified in just the last few weeks...my aren't I the lucky one...twice...count them...twice I was stupid enough to trust someone and twice I was shot down but then I knew it would happen...the only thing I trust is my God and He is treading on thin ice at the moment...I know people here wont understand...but believe me when I say...trust your instincts...that gut feeling that tells you all is not right...it will save you so many heartaches and emotional turmoil...I will end now and have myself a nice little breakdown...see you guys...and thanx...

(((((((( Lyle )))))))))) I know what you're talking about... as you know... I'm here if you want to talk.

You're not the first person who has been burned by someone you trust.

I would tell you that you have to keep trying to build trust because losing trust in humanity after two critical incidents is foolish, but I'm not going to. If I did, I'd feel like a hypocrite.

You see, I've been burned by many people too. Now I realize most of them were well intentioned, but they were not very bright (my parents included). After years of getting burned, I finally decided I have better judgment than those in my social environment, so I stopped trusting them.

I live my life without trusting anyone. I will ask for advice and general information, but if the person giving it seems slightly uninformed, I was ALWAYS make the decision myself. (Regardless of any status or education differences)

Now, I don't advocate this way of living. I truly believe that a person needs to trust others and form stable, secure relationships in order to be truly happy.

As for me, I've been warped by years of depression, so I learned to embrace the solitude. I know I should change, but I'm so stubborn, I probably won't. (I'm one of those crazy, emotionally shielded people. It's actually pretty dysfunctional.)

Good luck coming to terms with this issue. Believe me, it is a struggle you'll have to resolve one way or another. Sometimes it's good to trust others, but there's nothing wrong with "double-checking" their decisions.

On a side note:
This is the exact issue which precipitated my first depression. My IQ is in the third standard deviation, and my parents and those around me have a "normal" or low IQ. Obviously, this presents a problem. I'm still trying to fix the damage. It's one thing to know what's wrong with you, but it's much more difficult to actually change it.

((((((((((((mystry))))))))))

here for you too baby...dont be alone....please talk....thinking of you

Jinny xxxxx love....

Reagan: Trust, but verify.

Especially verify.

thanx for the support guys...and seraph...welcome to PC...I knew some people wouldn't understand and you are the prime example my friend...if my trust factor was rated on just these two incidents in my life then I wouldn't waste your time or anyone else's by posting here...I have been used in one way or another since I was three starting with my parents and siblings and continuing with my adult relationships...like you I can not and will not trust anyone...which I should have explained in my post...this last time it had been about 13 years since I let anyone get close enough to even think about trusting them and it is still on going...I let them in again today and was stabbed in the back again...well it isnt that bad but as I have tried to explain to others who have tried to get close to me I will not trust them but they profess love and how they will be different but they never are...I can not trust anyone...I can love...I can need...I can want...but I can not trust...even when I try to trust it isn't real because in my mind I am seeing a different scenerio for every second they aren't around...and when you are waiting for the hammer to fall it is like being in another world...by the time a person has gotten to me they have already shown their true colors and I wait...and then it happens...if thats not insane then what is?

I sometimes wish i had the problem of not trusting people. I'm just the opposite. I trust just about everyone and then end up crushed when they turn their back on me. even after all of the times in my life that I've been betrayed and hurt I just keep going back for more. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Even when i know someone isn't a "true friend" I forgive. I'm the I'll do anything for anyone type no matter what.

My best friend of 14 years suddenly has no time to take my calls or visit. I don't know why. But I keep calling and leaving messages. Maybe I need to take the heart off of my sleeve.

Eh, haunted, leave the heart. It looks good there.

Cyran0

I certainly can relate to your story. I have failed a lot of times, by not going with my gut instincts. At times, I wondered if I had a sign, posted on my forehead that said SUCKER, or a sign on my back that said. Kick me.

But it is overwhelming when it keeps happening. I certainly
learned lot of life lessions.
Hope you feel better about this soon.

Please take care.

i think we're a lot alike sometimes mystry... ive had trust issues too and i reckon i'll still make mistakes, but nothing ventured, nothing gained?

Maybe I will. I'll consider it a fashion statement but maybe I'll not show it off so much