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Next month is my birthday, well its actually in 11 days by now, and I hate it. I dont want to have lived another year and the closer I get the more **** I feel. Lifes kinda been sucking up to this point and I feel like I've kinda reached a new low. I dont think theres a point in living and Im just painfully lonely and sad. Im an overall boring person that just drives everyone away.
I really want to die before my birthday but I know Im too much of a ***** ***** to do such a thing. I have an idea of what I wanna do but I know I can never bring myself to actually have enough balls to finally end it. I fear like Im a waste of everyones time and that I'll just never get better so whats the point? I feel like I cant talk to anyone without dragging them down. Heck, no one irl knows Im suicidal since I pretty much just fake being fine all the time or never tell anyone else about my feelings. I dont know what point Im trying to make here I just feel like ****. |
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You sound a lot like me. I didn't want to make it to my 35th but that was nearly 4 years ago. I have been so close so many times but in the end I am too much of a coward. Everyone around me thinks everything is great. No one knows how much I actually hurt. The worst day of my life was when I woke up from surgery. I wanted more than anything to die on the table.
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I hope one day you can find a resolution to this. Whether it is seeking good help or going the opposite direction. I sincerely hope that you can find a resolution.
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Hey, I go into that place too, sometimes. I don’t think I would actually do it - I just wish it would happen. I know you’re hurting.
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