[Rose76]

I'm managing fairly okay.

A not so good day today. For the first time ever at work, there were no deliveries and no outgoing items. Nothing! A total shutout!

Also I got thinking heavy about my life. I love the things I have going for me, but they seem to be all going downhill. I feel like I'm in a loving marriage that's not working out; or like it was great and now not so good.

I worked out after work. It went OK and made me feel better.

[Deilla]

I'm doing Okay today. I'm trying to be a little more hopeful.

I feel tired, but hopeful this morning! Have used my "SAD-lamp".

I deserve to be hurt and punished. I’m alone again. I binge ate and feel like killing myself. I’m there again. Abandoned all along. I was a fool to ever think I wasn’t.

[ArtasiaC]

I sank so deep in my depression 3days ago it just came out of nowhere then i started fighting with the demons in my head. I didn't know it could get that bad ive never experienced depression that terrible. All I was able to do was cry all night i didn't know it could get that bad anyone experienced it like that before. I hate the Holidays sooo much. But i hate depression in general even more

[kumy]

I feel really down and hopeless today. I wish I could sleep all day. I want to hurt myself so bad...

[Deilla]

I feel anxious this morning. I'm packing for a trip.

Originally Posted by the walls

I deserve to be hurt and punished. I’m alone again. I binge ate and feel like killing myself. I’m there again. Abandoned all along. I was a fool to ever think I wasn’t.

I feel that I have managed this first whole day fighting SAD well enough. I found the proper balance between rest and activity. Am optimistic.

Originally Posted by ArtasiaC

I sank so deep in my depression 3days ago it just came out of nowhere then i started fighting with the demons in my head. I didn't know it could get that bad ive never experienced depression that terrible. All I was able to do was cry all night i didn't know it could get that bad anyone experienced it like that before. I hate the Holidays sooo much. But i hate depression in general even more

[Deilla]

I want to take my trip away from home, but I'm so terrified. I already booked the hotel. It seemed like a good idea at the time. I wish I had something for anxiety.

Originally Posted by Deilla

I want to take my trip away from home, but I'm so terrified. I already booked the hotel. It seemed like a good idea at the time. I wish I had something for anxiety.

Are you going somewhere far from home? Are you going by yourself? In the last couple of years I had faced "travel anxiety". I get excited about going somewhere; and then just before going I would ask myself, "why am I doing this?" But I did pull through, went, and felt better once I got going.

If you are staying someplace alone, you might experience anxiety when you first get up in the morning. That's what had happened to me. When I had that anxiety in the morning, I ate, and then felt better. That's all it took for me. I never took any kind of anxiety pill.

I think that you are going to be fine, so enjoy the trip you're going on.

[Rose76]

I got real demoralized this morning - my bf not cooperating with me.

Christmas is coming soon. I got to get out of the dumps.

A much better day today than yesterday, that's for sure! It was fairly busy at work. It seemed like a miracle. And I emotionally felt better. Other than that, nothing much.

I feel well this morning. I have used my "sun-lamp", have rested a bit after breakfast and will soon take a walk in the park. My optimism about that I will be able to fight my SAD is still there.

I have been able to work at home in intervals today. For now I feel really tired, but well. I think that for me the worst I can do is to skip he most important routines of my daily life. (I have several physical diseases that eat my energy). I was at a wonderful party last weekend, but was too tired to do ordinary things like putting "things" in the dishwasher and so on the following days. Then I made a speedily arrival in my always underlying SAD at this time of the year.

It is a relief to see that I am on my way to get back order in my life. I will sit and relax for a while before I will make my dinner for today.

I am so glad that we have PC to help us in situations like these ...

Felt emotionally low today. At work it seemed like all kinds of people were talking about being away for Christmas time. I'm going to be stuck at work during a week when it seems like no one's around.

Also at work we're having a phone meeting every week for a while that I feel like I don't fit into. It's with the maintenance guys and I don't do maintenance. I'm clerical; receiving and outgoing of mail and packages. It's a big waste of time for me to be at those phone meetings. At it's at noon also which is not a good time.

I worked out after work. That was the only time to feel fairly good.

[Mountaindewed]

I am very down in the dumps today. It surprisingly has nothing to do with work despite the fact I have a retail job and it’s the holidays. It was hard waking up, hard leaving my house, I didn’t get any chores done around the house. Things were just rough.

Just a typical Saturday today. I have been dealing with a headache for most of the day. It rained all day today, so no bike riding. Just took a little walk by the end of the afternoon. Feeling very tired today and alone. I just hate that feeling.

[Marla500]

I am feeling really low today. I feel alone too, and I'm not sure why since I've always been an introvert and a pretty solitary person but lately I feel alone. I think that might be a good thing if it makes me more social in the long run. but today I feel really down and it is a huge effort to even move. It helps so much to come on here and read everyone's posts. I wish you all peace and resolution of what ever you are dealing with and may today be a good day!

[Deilla]

I feel productive today. I've been busy organizing and cleaning my place. I like it when I accomplish small goals. It helps make the day feel better.

[Yzen]

I'm feeling better than I have felt in the last two weeks. Thankful.

I feel tired and not so optimistic as I felt at Friday. I will still try to fight the SAD.

It rained for most of the day today. But I was very busy. Did the laundry in the morning. After that I did some light shopping. I bought a couple of small tables that I needed. Right now I'm very happy with what I got. Also I talked to my sister. She sounded a bit down and tired.

Last night I took a walk at the park near where I live to see a "festival of lights". It wasn't that great as they make it out to be. I went by myself and felt odd as all I saw were couples and families. I didn't stay very long and watched a movie later on that wasn't that good.

Now it's not raining and it hasn't rained for the last 2 hours. Maybe I could get a one-hour bike ride in before it gets dark. Also it's supposed to rain again tonight.