[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I feel Okay this morning. I didn't sleep much last night... stressful thoughts. I'm doing better today.

My emotions been up and down.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by the walls

Yesterday a guy in the department above me said he thinks I’d fit in there. It’s not like he really knows me well...

Today I looked at the women who are in that department and they are so classy and polished. True they are about 30years old. But I feel like I’m pretty much at my mid 20s now and I still can’t brush my hair daily. Sure maybe it’s because of depression but really it’s not a good look. My mother used to yell at me about my appearance. I probably won’t get promoted for my lack of social skills, lack of self presentation. It’s really not ok.

I understand. My mom did the same thing to me. I never dress my age I dress to old.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Not sleeping, like, one minute last night. Worried about how today is going to go, since I am so very sleep-sensitive. We will see...

I completely understand. I am the same way.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm doing pretty okay.

That fantastic!

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by puzzclar

I don't like distraction.... I'm tired of keeping myself distracted. I'm tired of a lot of things. Yet I keep going. I'm down a lot and there has been no relief. Hopefully relief will come soon. But I doubt it.

I wish that I had a distraction myself.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

I was extremely busy this morning. Did a lot of cleaning this morning. My place really needed the cleaning after not doing it for three weeks. And lots of places to go for shopping and stuff.

Been feeling very down late this afternoon and tonight. For some reason, it seems like the people at where I live seem to have it more together than I do. I feel like I'm the only lonely fool at my place. There were times of extensive noise just outside my door. The couple next to me had a grandchild over and the kid was very loud.

Sometimes I feel like that myself when I am depressed or when I feel everyone else had more of a life than me.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by puzzclar

Depressed, still! Not really any change but I'm a bit less sui. But I still want to go to the er. Isn't it weird that I want to go when I don't necessarily need to.

I hate feeling depressed. I could sign up for activities but when I do I don't want to go.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm still doing pretty good.

That great! I hope that you continue to feel good.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm feeling down too. I wish the best to all of you. And many thanks for being here. Lots of hugs & love!

[3rd rock]

I'm feeling generally a little better, although I've got a long way to go. I have made good progress on my current project, which will be finished before the end of November. I will probably have it out shortly after that. I'm enjoying writing this.

Today was busier at work, especially this morning and it made me feel pretty good. But this afternoon my emotion took a nose dive. It was very slow in the afternoon. And then the drive home was very slow because of heavy traffic. That had never happened before. And worst of all, I got my check from a bank that I closed out an account. I closed it out because they were dropping the interest rate. When I got the check, I did not get any interest for this month (though I expected it to be less than if I had kept it in for the whole month, but I thought I would get something) and they had charged me $25. When I had called a few days ago I was told that there would be no charge. So I'm mad about this.

The evening went OK. Nice and quiet and cool.

[Deilla]

I'm struggling with negative feelings and thoughts. But I will focus on things to help shift my mood. I would like to have a good day today. That will be a little hard though. I have a GP appointment this morning and I don't really want to go. When I don't feel well, I hate leaving my house. I may call and cancel.

Complaining seems pointless. I got myself into this state. Of course life happened. People, bad situations, but I'm getting fairly old. I just can't seem to change much. I get angry. At myself and people who in my life have hurt me. Maybe it wasn't intentional but it still hurts. I'm not sure where I'm heading anymore. Seems like I haven't got any control in my own life. I am punishing myself with shame. I need sleep but I can't stop feel8ng like there's no light left at the end of this tunnel. I'm so so so tired of depression. I don't even want the meds anymore. It's always back to helll after they poop out anyways.

[3rd rock]

I have a vague anticipation that something good is about to happen. Although, experience has taught me that this is a sure sight that it won't. Therefore, I expect it not to.

[Deilla]

I feel better this evening and I made it to my GP appointment. Now I'm good for 3 more months. Will try to relax tonight.

[Rose76]

I'm doing alright. I'm at the nursing home where my S.O. is staying till I can manage his care at home. The VA has been a great help. I'll be glad when I can bring him home. I'm getting the place cleaned up which is easier when he's not there.

I don't sleep more than 5 hours at night. My eyes are heavy now, but I have errands to run. Plus, if I'm not here spending time with him. his confusion gets a lot worse.

[Sunflower123]

I bowed out of a thread that has meant a great deal to me. It’s hard letting go but onwards and upwards as they say. I’m doing okay today and the pain is under control.

[Deilla]

I'm a little sad.

[jmariah001]

Things are tough right now. I start the partial hospitalization program on Monday. Hopefully it will help. I am trying to keep this from becoming worse. Last time I let things go I ended up impatient. Don't want to go that far this time. Fingers crossed that this works.

[Rose76]

Yesterday, Thursday, I spent 7 hours at the nursing home. Then my bf got sent back to the hospital ER, so I was there for 2 hours. I'm home now and can't sleep. I think my anxiety is causing what feels like restless legs syndrome. That sensation can be crazy-making.

I feel OK. Somebody made a big deal out of a misunderstanding. Sad when such a thing happens, but I think I feel more angry than sad, but so is life. It does not always go on rails.

I feel that I have control over my SAD so far. Use a special lamp in the mornings. If that continues I can let my shoulders down and enjoy life and look forward to gatherings now in November and December (enjoy the good and cope with the bad)! I have behind me a long and hard time working with my depression. With exception of my SAD I feel I have overcome my Depression. It was a hard fight, but it was worth it. I am glad I never gave in when it felt as worst. I even feel that I can use tools I learned to use on depression on my physical disorders. I hope that to hear from somebody who have beaten the beast of depression, may instill hope in others who now struggles.

[Rose76]

I'm doing pretty okay, not depressed.

I get tired much easier than I used to, and it takes days of tackling a project in bits to get finished with anything. That discourages me a little. But best to just keep doing what I manage to do each day, little though it may seem. It might add up to something eventually.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm doing pretty okay, not depressed.

I get tired much easier than I used to, and it takes days of tackling a project in bits to get finished with anything. That discourages me a little. But best to just keep doing what I manage to do each day, little though it may seem. It might add up to something eventually.

That’s a good mindset to have. Forward is forward no matter what the pace.

[Deilla]

I am tired this morning. I don't feel like going out to eat today. I don't want to get dressed. I don't have the energy. I just want to sleep.

This morning was pretty eventful for me and different from other Saturdays. I went to the dentist and it turned out that I need a little work to be done. It's the first time in almost ten years that I have to have work done. And then I sold my workout bench just as I got home from the dentist. I didn't do any cleaning today.

In the afternoon and into the evening has been very dull and depressing. I went to a convenience store to get something to eat when I watch a movie that I got for tonight. I hope that movie will be good. At the store it looked like a woman was asking the clerk for something and the clerk told her to leave. After that I got thinking that maybe I should move out of the area where I am living. I feel lonely and alone and the people are becoming more weird. It's too bad because it used to be pretty good here.