[MatBell]

Are you with somebody?

Hope you all are doing good.

[AbladeintheMeadow]

Not so good.

The thought of watching the tick of the clock from one year, one decade to another doesn't fill me with hope. It fills me with fear. Fear of yet another year, hell another decade on the same roller coaster.

I will cry at midnight. Not rejoice.

The falseness of "Happy New Year' messages - the expected norm sticks in my throat. But what else is there to do? I don't want to bring anyone else down. I understand the opportunity to reassess, set goals. Maybe I need to try harder.

I wish all on PC a peaceful & healthy 2020.

[bshaffer836]

I’m probably with my sister, or alone How about you???

It's New Year's Eve and I'm by myself. Was going to have lunch with my friend, but he cancelled (I mentioned that on Daily Check In).

This was a pretty good year for me, so it's hard to celebrate it being over. I hate to see a good year go. Over the years in my life, the following year would
not be a good as the previous year if it was a good year. I have some dread for next year. I wish I could be optimistic, like I used to be. I should be but I'm not.

I shall most likely sleep through yet another one ...

Could be worse, though, I guess!

[MatBell]

Originally Posted by bshaffer836

I’m probably with my sister, or alone How about you???

I’m just alone. Just trying to ignore the noise around me and treat like any other night. But it’s hard...

[pliepla]

I'm alone, binge watching the 2013 Mahabharat series. I'm depressed and happy at the same time ... it's a relief to not have to deal with all those well-wishers who sound as if they're mocking me for the first time ever.

[MDDBPDPTSD]

I am unexpectedly angry and sad. Sad I kinda expected. But angry? I am angry that I am still here. I am angry that even when I try to say cheerful helpful things, I end up saying depressing stuff. I am angry that we just began another decade and the world is still filled with ugliness and oppression.
I want to leave but there is no where to go. So I am stuck here.

[Gasplessy]

Home (not a problem per se, I had enough partys in my life)

Desperatly regretting 2017 because I failed to grip and it went particularly bad in the last two years (serious reasons). I'm always quite ok during Christmas and New Year's Eve, but this time I have a bad black hole of helplessness and non-sense behind me
I wasn't ready, this time
I'll keep having dark fantasies on time rewind and being sorry

I'm just hoping people around will be ok

[LundiHvalursson]

Originally Posted by MatBell

Are you with somebody?

Hope you all are doing good.

I am not with someone. Which is what is mostly causing depression.

I feel relief from the New Year a bit. A chance to start anew in this new year and new decade.

It is not fair to oneself to keep feeling down like this. I caught some sort of nasal viral infection yesterday due to continuously ruminating about my situation, causing me to fall further into depression, weakening my immune system.

I hope to start life with a new outlook, and hopefully feel a bit of happiness, for once.

[bshaffer836]

Originally Posted by MatBell

I’m just alone. Just trying to ignore the noise around me and treat like any other night. But it’s hard...

Aww :/ u can do it

[Sunflower123]

Hopefully 2020 is a better year.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by MatBell

Are you with somebody?

Hope you all are doing good.

I'm working on myself to no longer be in victim mentality.

[LundiHvalursson]

Originally Posted by LundiHvalursson

I am not with someone. Which is what is mostly causing depression.

I feel relief from the New Year a bit. A chance to start anew in this new year and new decade.

It is not fair to oneself to keep feeling down like this. I caught some sort of nasal viral infection yesterday due to continuously ruminating about my situation, causing me to fall further into depression, weakening my immune system.

I hope to start life with a new outlook, and hopefully feel a bit of happiness, for once.

A lot worse compared to on New Year's Day. But not as bad as a few days ago, which was utter hell.

[3rd rock]

So far 2020 is off to a horrible start. I am very sad and experiencing pain. Turns out this year was never going to be anything different from the last. Oh well.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

So far 2020 is off to a horrible start. I am very sad and experiencing pain. Turns out this year was never going to be anything different from the last. Oh well.

I hope 2020 turns around for you. Sending hugs and supportive vibes.