[Breaking Dawn]

I'm sorry.

[Mountaindewed]

I just need to get through tonight and tomorrow and then the weather will be warm and sunny again. I am worried though and I should be thinking of how to handle things when the time does comes.

The weekend is here. Tomorrow will be the last Saturday routine I've done in the last two or three months. I had gone shopping at a particular store around 8:15 AM. After tomorrow, that store will no longer have that 8AM-9AM time slot for seniors to shop on Saturdays. So I'll have to change after tomorrow.

Very slow at work today. I had pizza provided for m today at work. It was very good but I had a sour stomach after that. Funny thing that, if it were not for that pizza to be provided for me today, I would have brought in a couple slices of leftover pizza I had from home.

[Rose76]

I'm a mess. My apt is a mess. I don't think I'm ever going to be alright again.

[Deilla]

I'm pretty anxious today, and I'm ruminating a lot. I'm not sure why. I didn't sleep well. Maybe that is the reason.

I have been trying out yet another new radio station.

it is called " atlantic storm", and it's catchphrase is " music rashing in with the waves"

most of it so far has been 90's dance, which I honestly don't mind. it's not my favorite, but it's okay

today on who wants to be a milionaire, a guy won the jackpot. it's the only the 7th time it's been done in the show's history (I wonder if their is any milionaire in america?)

but the guy was amazing. reached question 15 and still had 3 lifelines

that about wraps up the series for another year, but they've all ready said they are looking for contestants for the new series.

not doing much in terms of being productive, I'v not even decided on dinner yet (I had mcdonalds yesterday, it really filled me up)

feel good just the same tired of the same feeling I guess

I'm allowing myself to be not okay right now.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm doing ok today. Learning things, very beneficial. Bigger light at the end of the tunnel.

I went shopping this morning at 8:15 AM and it's the last time for me to go shopping before 9AM on a Saturday. After that I cleaned and did laundry. Nothing much after that. I'm not sure if I should go on a bike ride later on since it looks smoky and the air quality is rated as unhealthy. But now it looks a little bit better than earlier. Nothing much from now on in the day.

Loneliness is getting to me. I'm packing stuff up. Hoping someone helps. Didn't eat yet today maybe that's not helping. I'll go do that

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really depressed again. I have no motivation. I feel sad and down.

[Deilla]

I ended up sleeping most of Saturday. I may sleep all day today too. I'm just really feeling down.

one of the things I always comment on when I post to these check-in threads, is the quality of my food

yesterday I had undercooked scampi, so needed a few snacks after to fill me up. I didn't sleep.

today I have been talking to one of my email friends brendan for most of the day. he has a doctors appointment tomorrow for some blood tests, and he's a bit anxious (so reasuring him it will be fine), and I told him that when he gets back he can vent all he likes to me (that's why I'm their!)

not much in terms of productivity. watched some tv, but triggered by

Possible trigger:

a sceen where they had to put down a cow

listened to some music (on atlantic storm)

that's about it

[Rose76]

Awake since 2 a.m. Sad, depressed and anxious.

I'm okay. I think my son is going to make it eventually. A promising outlook for housing. I'm angry today but it's okay to be angry as long as we don't hurt anyone. I'm going to play guitar, I'm not great at it and am almost tired of it, then maybe I'll keep looking at the mess of stuff to pack.

Not much of a day today. My sister called and we had a good talk this time. She mentioned that she and her husband might want to take a train to visit me. It's the first time I've heard her talk about wanting to come my way to visit me in a long time. But she's notorious for saying that she will do something and not follow through.

I've decided to take a short bike ride today instead of a longer one like I always do on Sundays. The air/smoke quality has improved where I am today, but it still doesn't look permissible for a long-strenuous ride. So I'm just staying in my place and not doing much for a good while.

Also I have some anxiety about my medical test result I took last Thursday in the early morning. I thought that I would have received it by now. Maybe tonight. Believe or not, I have received my medical test results on a Sunday night.

[Nitrous]

Just saw a bunch of pictures of my brother and his in-laws hanging out with my nephew and I feel left out. I feel like I don't get to see my family as much and it sucks. I don't think they intentionally leave me out, i think its just because I isolate.

I had a delivery today (and that's always exciting, I love the post)

it was a new jane austin mug which I won a couple weeks ago.

never read her books, so don't really know why I entered. suppose I just needed a new mug (I actually don't have many).

this one's pretty plain, it's white with the word jane austin on it. but hey I won something, I'm not complaining (I never win anything!)

not really doing much else today (hah, surprise!)

I am looking forward to my dinner though. not the food, looking forward to drinking out of my new mug

Thought I was okay. Feel so alone right now. I mean obviously my problems are mine, but there's absolutely no one to get me out of this but myself. Thought I'd had help to move, that guy isn't going to help. I wanted my own roof, that's not happening. I feel way too self centered now but I've got so much worry about. Worry wont change things but I'm feeling paralyzed with fear for me and my sons future
Was told by someone lately I think like a high school kid. Makes me feel so very stupid and depressed.

Another weird Monday. It seems like it's always safe to put money down on a bet that the day is going to be weird. If I did that, I'd be very rich by now because I would bet that a Monday is going to be weird and I'd win the bet every time.

When I first got into work, the weirdness started. Just now I can't access my email from home at work. I was always able to do it before. And then I miss read an email message to me from my Manager and felt humiliated. And, as of now, I still have not received my result from the medical test I did last Thursday. I think my doctor has the result, but I would rather not call there.

So that's it for today. I would have been at least 5 cents richer today had I bet with someone that today was going to be a weird day.

[Breaking Dawn]

Everything seems to be ok right now. Well, not everything.

[Fuzzybear]

grrrrrrrrrrr

[3rd rock]

I really hate myself. I don't see any path or way out of my own misery except

I had to turn my fan on today because of the heat outside, it realyl works, too: I underestimate the power of the fan.. it's actually really powerful (mine
is, and I've had it over 10 years, still going strong!)
nada in the skedule. absolute nada

(I am running out of stuff to put in these type of threads, my life is so dull!)

[Breaking Dawn]

It's nice to be here. Good morning or whatever it is to all of you!