[Kellyann]

I really feel lost and alone. I feel so alone, I am 44 and work two jobs. I keep trying to do everything for everyone else and cannot seem to get past the guilt I give myself when I want to do something for myself. I know it is a stupid thing to complain about. My family only seems to notice me if the house is messy, they need money or have some problem to be solved. I work all of the time, I feel that I am not worthy of anything or anyones attention. I am just lost in a life that I do not understand with absolutely no one to talk to. Cannot sleep, eat or make a reasonable decision anymore. I tried writing in a journal, but my husband reads it and tells his family my problems. They are my personal things and I really hate him for reading it, I really do not understand why I feel like the worlds biggest loser. I never ask anything from anyone and do not judge people, I work hard and have nothing to show for anything except this lost feeling

[nowheretorun]

hi Kelly!

this is a great online community of smart, caring people... you'll find friends and support here...

i understand the lost and lonely feelings... this is great place to share how you feel with others and learn and grow...

you can even lose the lonely feelings here... (((smiles)))

welcome...

[kebsfroggy]

The people here are very kind and caring. You should not feel alone for long. Cross my heart and wish I'd die, I know exactly what you are going through.

This frog of little brain can only speak from experience (which I can't remember) but there are 2 things that may help tremendously.

First get to your doc or a pdoc and explain that you are not sleeping or eating and that it is impairing you ability to make rational decisions. Be sure to explain how much your family is depending on you. See if he/she can't give you something to help you sleep. You will be amazed how getting enough of the right kind of sleep makes things look a whole lot more manageable.

Second take time to do something for yourself. Get your hair done (even just having it washed by someone else), get your nails done, have lunch or a night out with your best girlfriend. Just do something for you. And whatever you do don't think of it as an extravagance because it's not. It is extremely important to your very existence.

Now, as I've said too much and I'm running out of breathe I'll close my little froggy lips.

Always feel free to stop by here. You a welcome at any time. You can vent, ask for help or just tell it like it is. We are always willing to listen.

[Fuzzybear]

Welcome Kelly!

Nowheretorun and kebsfroggy, good posts!

[bipolar_bear]

Welcomer Kellyann. I am glad you have found us and hope we can provide you the support you are looking for.

BB

[chiz]

Hello kelly

Maybe you can engage those people into a good conversation and open up your problem with them. It may sound difficult but you could give it a try. They could have got used in treating you like that because you let them to. So maybe you can try to tell them at times on how you feel.

Also, learn to say no. Have time to treat yourself. Have some break. They are right. This site is a good place to be with. People here help each other and you can give yourself a break from your environment there.

Good luck to you and I hope you like it in here.

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