Daily check in thread:Ups and Downs #29

thechillypenguin · Apr 10, 2021, 06:51 PM

Today was a mix of both haha.

This morning was not the best start with me lashing out with my parents over cleaning my room, and just feeling overwhelmed. But by the noon hour they apologized for being pushy and I apologized for lashing out. And we hugged and all that sappy jazz.

sometimes watching and old cartoon from my childhood helps to cheer me up. Today I watched a few episodes of Phineas and Ferb one of my childhood favorites. After rewatching it on Disney plus It's actually a pretty smart show and it made me feel a little bit better.

Yzen · Apr 11, 2021, 07:52 AM

I don't want to do anything today, but I also feel like I could accomplish some things today if I try.

TishaBuv · Apr 11, 2021, 08:23 AM

I’m in a horrible domestic emotional abuse situation, long term, chronic, pervasive and I am too insecure to escape.

Apr 11, 2021, 10:10 AM

I have such a **** sunday

eat, drink, go to toilet... that's me.

Possible trigger:

I wouldn't even be awake, just can't sleep and can't find a way out

Deilla · Apr 11, 2021, 10:17 AM

I'm doing a little better today than yesterday.

Apr 11, 2021, 11:11 AM

Not much of a morning so far, but that's alright with me. Lately I haven't been sleeping very well, but right now I don't feel very tired. I just did some light errands this morning because I forgot a couple of things at the store yesterday ("DUMMY!"

).

For some strange reason I don't quite have the depressive feelings like I had for quite a while on Sunday mornings. I don't feel that intensive dread of going back to work like I did before, so that's kind of nice. But I'm scared about the life-changing future that's possibly facing me now.

I'm so sorry for the previous posters on here who are going through some rough times right now. I hope it gets better for you all soon.

Buffy01 · Apr 11, 2021, 08:38 PM

My hearing disability is causing me to feel very depressed because of what I can’t do or am not allowed to do.

Breaking Dawn · Apr 11, 2021, 09:17 PM

I was quite down for a while today but then moved up & I'm fine now.

Apr 11, 2021, 09:58 PM

The weekend is over now. It was very busy but dull socially. I didn't hear from anyone over the last two days. Felt like I had too much time to myself on the entire weekend.

Deilla · Apr 12, 2021, 02:39 AM

I'm a little stressed this morning, but it's not too bad. My mood is okay.

Breaking Dawn · Apr 12, 2021, 08:03 AM

Mainly I'm extremely tired.

Rose76 · Apr 12, 2021, 03:04 PM

I'm not doing too good. Just no motivation.

Apr 12, 2021, 11:17 PM

Not much going on today at work, but that's to be expected. It's going to be even less busy in upcoming days as the small staff at work now are going to be leaving soon. I'm still not clear as to what's going to happen to me.

This morning got off to a rough start. I felt a muscle strain in my chest when all I did was to pour water to make coffee. Isn't that silly? And when I got to work, I felt like I made a fool out of myself with my manager as I misread an email. After that I was expecting a phone appointment from a doctor and miss connecting with him. But later on, we connect and it turned out great.

Worked out after work and then when I prepared dinner, I had a minor accident as I got some hot water on me. Very little, but it hurt. I got a little on my right wrist and right leg.

Deilla · Apr 13, 2021, 12:31 AM

I feel off this morning. I have an issue that has me feeling lonely and trapped. It makes me sad and self-conscious. I have no clue what to do about it and I can't even discuss it with my therapist. I'll google what to do.

Breaking Dawn · Apr 13, 2021, 08:21 AM

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Originally Posted by Deilla

I feel off this morning. I have an issue that has me feeling lonely and trapped. It makes me sad and self-conscious. I have no clue what to do about it and I can't even discuss it with my therapist. I'll google what to do.

Good luck with this issue, Deilla. It's a learning thing, & it's like a mission, searching for the answer. While your google search leads you through various sites, you will be enlightened in ways you didn't expect. And you'll finally reach the answer you were looking for.

Hugs & love to you!!

Deilla · Apr 13, 2021, 08:40 AM

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Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Good luck with this issue, Deilla. It's a learning thing, & it's like a mission, searching for the answer. While your google search leads you through various sites, you will be enlightened in ways you didn't expect. And you'll finally reach the answer you were looking for.

Hugs & love to you!!

Thank you! What I found on Google helped me. I watched some YouTube videos and everyone suggested I could speak with my online therapist about it. So I did. I think it went well. I feel a little better.

Breaking Dawn · Apr 13, 2021, 09:05 AM

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Originally Posted by Deilla

Thank you! What I found on Google helped me. I watched some YouTube videos and everyone suggested I could speak with my online therapist about it. So I did. I think it went well. I feel a little better.

That's wonderful, Deilla!

Good for you!

TishaBuv · Apr 13, 2021, 10:20 AM

...and I am now back up again. I accept I have an acute emotional issue. I don’t care how embarrassing it is, and am addressing and acknowledging it with my family (husband and kids). This back/forth swinging has to get under control. I am working on myself.

I was all set to separate and only one hour later did an about face! The waters are so turbulent, I’m seasick!

Much love and thanks to all here for your constant support. Although I am deeply ashamed of myself for this behavior, I also know that I am only human and we are helping ourselves and each other here.

Breaking Dawn · Apr 13, 2021, 01:21 PM

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Originally Posted by TishaBuv

...and I am now back up again. I accept I have an acute emotional issue. I don’t care how embarrassing it is, and am addressing and acknowledging it with my family (husband and kids). This back/forth swinging has to get under control. I am working on myself.

I was all set to separate and only one hour later did an about face! The waters are so turbulent, I’m seasick!

Much love and thanks to all here for your constant support. Although I am deeply ashamed of myself for this behavior, I also know that I am only human and we are helping ourselves and each other here.

God bless you, @TishaBuv!

And thank you for being here! You are very special!

Deilla · Apr 14, 2021, 01:55 AM

I'm doing well today. I'm seeing my stylist today. I haven't been there in 9 months. So this will be a special day for me. I'm excited about having my hair done professionally.

TishaBuv · Apr 14, 2021, 12:49 PM

Up. Counting the good days. Yesterday counts as #1.

88Butterfly88 · Apr 14, 2021, 06:31 PM

Feeling pretty depressed today. I slept a good part of the day. I'm not motivated to talk to my friends either. I wanted to go to two webinars today but couldn't get myself to go to either of them. I'm also feeling let down that the Wellbutrin didn't work out. I'm seeing a new mental health clinician tomorrow and I'm really hoping that she will be helpful. Otherwise I feel hopeless.

Apr 14, 2021, 10:48 PM

It wasn't a good day at work today. The team meeting was postponed because of the Maintenance man being absent and I had wanted to have that meeting. Since the Maintenance man was out, I had to fill in for him and there were problems with the toilets that I couldn't fix. Bear in mind that I don't have much experience with Maintenance and I don't care for it. I wanted to just quit when that happened. And then it was like nothing for work in my area.

Deilla · Apr 16, 2021, 12:52 AM

I'm very depressed. I'm not wanting to do anything anymore. I just want to sleep all day.

Rose76 · Apr 16, 2021, 01:12 PM

Neck is sore. Tinnitus is worsening.
Right deltoid hurts. Death by a thousand cuts advances.

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