[Deilla]

I worked hard on a creative project. I've been working on it for weeks and I got others involved. I think everyone did an outstanding job. I was so happy I shared it with my mom. She didn't have one nice thing to say about it. She criticized it. I can't get past it. That criticism is ruining everything. I posted on social media. It seems to be doing well there. I'll release it today. Then we'll really see what the world thinks. My mom is just an evil witch! How can a mother be so cruel? Everyone else thought it was great.

[jmariah001]

I've been fighting loneliness today. He works til 11am today. I should be glad that he has early morning hours. He has the rest of the day off. I wish I could sleep. I am really tired. Oh well.

Today was a repeat of last Friday at work. Only one package for the whole day and that's it. I called that bank, the one that charged me $19 for the maintenance fee last Saturday, and was told that I had a "premium" checking account; and that I was below the minimum amount for the month in direct deposits. Well, that made sense since I didn't have that last pay deposited. I was given an option to switch from premium to free checking and I took that option. I was planning on closing that bank out soon.

Felt depressed when I got home. I worked out at home today.

[Breaking Dawn]

I had a successful day yesterday, so that was uplifting. Today I'm resting & reflecting.

[Deilla]

I'm having a better day. I feel okay. Maybe a little, no a lot, tired from Cymbalta.

[Rose76]

Got out of the house today. That was a victory.

[TishaBuv]

Another good day. With my relationships doing alright, I am even keel.

It was a bit more busy at work today, but not enough to satisfy me. I still feel very depressed about having to go to work in the morning, and depressed while I'm there.

[Ceara1010]

I've been battling depression again for a little while. It comes and goes. Today I feel more anxious than depressed but being anxious is depressing so they feed on each other. I know they go hand in hand. I am determined to have a good day today though. I'll practice some DBT which always helps.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Ceara1010

I've been battling depression again for a little while. It comes and goes. Today I feel more anxious than depressed but being anxious is depressing so they feed on each other. I know they go hand in hand. I am determined to have a good day today though. I'll practice some DBT which always helps.

This is inspiring for me. Thank you.

Today was not a good day both at work and emotionally. I feel like I'm climbing the walls with - not knowing what's going to happen, very slow work, and conflicts with other workers. I wish I could get laid off (I feel like I deserve it) because I get very depressed with having to be there. Gosh, it wasn't too long ago and for a long time that I had loved my job! There was pizza for lunch because an employee is leaving. We've had quite a few pizza lunches lately because of people leaving.

Fortunately I have the day off on Thursday. Maybe I just need a little time out, but one day plus the weekend just doesn't seem to be enough. I made personal plans for the day; and what I need to do cannot happen on a Saturday.

Last Saturday I went to see an ex-friend because he offered to help with paying the rent, since I didn't get paid last Friday. I didn't want to do it. Our time together was very short and just alright. On Sunday night I decided to call him but felt like something was wrong while I was talking to him. We haven't spoken since then. Perhaps we are really gone from each other for good this time.

[Deilla]

I slept most of the day, I was really depressed.

[Ceara1010]

I ended up having a good day yesterday and I'm looking forward to today. It's gorgeous out which helps. (That's what happened yesterday--it was so nice out I couldn't stay depressed.) My visit with my family yesterday was pleasant as always and I really enjoy their company. Today I have my T appointment and later I'll practice my drawing. I'll also do some gratitude mediating today as that always helps my mood.

Hang in there today everyone.

Ceara

[Deilla]

I managed to do my MRI. It was awful. I was in that machine for 30 minutes. It's done. Now I have an appointment Monday to get the results. I don't want to go. I'm sick of appointments. I'm tired of leaving my house. I don't even want to sit on my patio or have the slider open. I just want to hide all day in my home. I'm sick of the outside world.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I managed to do my MRI. It was awful. I was in that machine for 30 minutes. It's done. Now I have an appointment Monday to get the results. I don't want to go. I'm sick of appointments. I'm tired of leaving my house. I don't even want to sit on my patio or have the slider open. I just want to hide all day in my home. I'm sick of the outside world.

Oh, dear Deilla!! I so very definitely relate to this. I have never agreed to doing the MRI! The thought of it terrifies me. 30 minutes!! I can't even imagine enduring that!! And not wanting to go out for more appointments makes so much sense to me. I'm that way all the time anyway, but you were traumatized!! Maybe you can call or email & let them know? Ask if you can get the results another way? Hugs & love to you!!

I took a day off today from work. I closed out a bank account that I had and felt like I didn't need it. I hated to do it but I feel that it's the best for me, since for a while, I had two checking accounts locally which seemed ridiculous. Other than the banking this day turned out to be more busy than I thought it would.

This morning I felt very depressed. I'm feeling depressed that the work situation is not going well and I don't seem to have anything going for me with friends and family.

[Deilla]

I'm not doing well. I'm tossing and turning. I might take my morning meds and go back to sleep. One makes me tired.

[Buffy01]

My hearing disability has cause me to feel really down, hurt and depressed because of how I had been treated.

[Ceara1010]

Determined to be positive today. I woke up anxious but meditated until I felt better. I really want to have an upbeat weekend.

Back to work today after a day off on Thursday. Not much happened while I was gone and not much today, either. Felt pretty good when I got home.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Oh, dear Deilla!! I so very definitely relate to this. I have never agreed to doing the MRI! The thought of it terrifies me. 30 minutes!! I can't even imagine enduring that!! And not wanting to go out for more appointments makes so much sense to me. I'm that way all the time anyway, but you were traumatized!! Maybe you can call or email & let them know? Ask if you can get the results another way? Hugs & love to you!!

Thank you! My therapist is suggesting I reframe that day. It makes sense. I guess I can say I conquered the MRI. I decided to give myself a week off. I'll get the results in 2 weeks. What makes it so bad is that I recently had a med change. I'm fatigued and drowsy. But that should clear up in a week.

Today I am very tired. I was crying from frustration. But I am less anxious, so that is good. I still have some depression.

[Breaking Dawn]

The morning started out bad but turned out pretty good later on. I finally got some needed sleep & rest, so I'm feeling kind of normal right now.

[Deilla]

I had my Cymbalta 12 hours ago and I've been sleeping for 12 hours. I'm supposed to take another one now, but I'm tired of sleeping so much. I will wait a little bit before I take it again. I'm doing work around the house so I can wake up. I hope it helps. I think I am a little more alert. It's still pretty bad.

[Breaking Dawn]

I am doing ok at the moment. I took a walk yesterday & fulfilled a goal. So far today I'm feeling closer to normal. I have been getting some much needed sleep, so I'm very grateful for that, & that is definitely helping me.

[Rose76]

I see a lot of depression over the last few days among the members on this thread. I hope you all have a better week coming up.

I'm doing better yesterday and today.