[Deilla]

I'm a little sad this morning. And I'm having a hard time sleeping. I guess I can try a meditation and allow myself to relax.

[Breaking Dawn]

I also feel a little sad, plus apprehension, & I have been trying to form a positive comeback attitude.

[hvert]

The working day is almost over and I have little to show for it. I am not sure how this happened. I felt like I was busy but spent too much time doing circular research on a matter of minor importance. I'm not sure how to keep my perfectionism in check so I can call things finished instead of spending wayyyy too much time on the minutiae.

[maisina]

I felt better for the middle of today. I had more energy and interest in doing things for work and for myself. I went for a walk, and enjoyed it. I felt weird on the walk, like I was not quite myself, and regressing into a cloudy, other form of myself and that this was the true me that I was, and that I felt better than way, although it was a moody self who was mildly annoyed but comfortable in her body (not so common these days). At home, I had an unpleasant disturbing thought but I managed to push it away and took a supplement and enjoyed dinner and felt really relaxed (first time in days) while watching an interesting documentary. All in all, a pleasant enough day. I felt not too good yesterday, so it was especially good!

It was a very slow day at work and boring. Feeling pretty tired today. At where I live it's been extremely windy and cold. I woke up early this morning because of the howling winds. I hate very high winds. I worked out after work and felt like I was not emotionally into it.

[Deilla]

I'm having a difficult morning. I'm wide awake. I know I need sleep, but I will only wake up an hour later. If I wait close to sunrise, I will sleep better. In the meantime I am anxious. I'm thinking I might take a shower. That might help me to relax.

[Sunflower123]

I’m feeling increasingly down as the day goes on. I had such a good day yesterday that this one really stings. I’ll go sit in the sun for awhile. Maybe that will help.

I feel so depressed that I am not able to desribe it.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m kinda getting my night blues right now. Not about anything in particular. The day was fine though.

[Deilla]

I'm doing better now. I had a rough day. I was ill. I spent most of the day in bed. I'm wide awake at the moment.

At work, I got irritated when someone was telling the security guard; and then that security guard relayed the message to me from that someone, that the coffee creamers had expired two years ago. I make orders for coffee supplies and wasn't aware of it because I don't use creamers. Plus someone else had made a massive order of creamers and sugars that I didn't approve of. And I would have wanted that person who complained about the creamers to have told me instead of the security guard. That security guard acts acts like a boss, but she isn't.

And then I was told that the company has been sold. It was in the news today.

[Deilla]

I feel pretty good this morning. I think I got enough rest. I feel well enough to work on my chores today.

I feel a bit better today, no deep sorrow or strong anxiety. My muscles are more relaxed, even if I can feel some pain in my neck and shoulders.

Feeling very down.

[Breaking Dawn]

I was appehensive about going to the market today, but I did go & am home again, & glad I went.

[Mountaindewed]

Usually my depression hits me like a ton of bricks at night. Right now I’m just super tired. I’ve been reading in bed all day. So maybe actually being in bed helped with the negative thoughts.

It wasn't a nice day for me emotionally. I felt like I couldn't do anything right on the simple things I had to do. I was going to make a BLT sandwich for lunch and forgot to bring the bacon. And then I made some errors in the everyday stuff that I have to do. My problem is that I'm a perfectionist. I know that's hard to attain. The mistakes I make and being corrected by others (which is how the whole day went) would ruin my day.

Feeling down tonight because of having to go to work tomorrow. Even though it will be Friday, that doesn't help me much. I don't like my job anymore. I never thought that there'd come a day when I would feel that way.

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

I was appehensive about going to the market today, but I did go & am home again, & glad I went.

Good for you that you went!

Originally Posted by will19

My problem is that I'm a perfectionist. I know that's hard to attain. The mistakes I make and being corrected by others (which is how the whole day went) would ruin my day.

Everything can be worked on, even to lower perfectionism. It takes some effort, but why not use time on having it better with yourself ...

https://anxietycanada.com/sites/defa...fectionism.pdf

Wish you good!

I feel OK today, some pain in neck and shoulders, but generally OK with low depression.

[T4bbyCat]

Odd neck pain and creaking due to bad ergonomics at home, so thus due to the lockdown, and so ultimately to COVID? Today I heard that it's very widespread problem, since people's setups at home tend not to be nearly as good as what workplaces arrange for you...

[Deilla]

Today isn't going that well. I feel sleepy and tired today. But I slept 10 hours. I don't know why I'm so tired. I feel frustrated and depressed.

Tired and in a procrastination mood. Have to overcome that (the procrastiantion).

Yesterday, at work, I spoke to a co-worker who gave me some information about what's going to happen at the company. Note that I don't work directly for the company at the site. I'm a contractor, so I will not know as much about what will happen as others who work directly for the company. He told me that it's pretty definite that all who are working at the site will have to leave by September. And there's a chance it could happen sooner. Well, I have mixed feelings about it. It would be nice to leave that place and take some time off for a while. But I'm scared about if I can make out OK with not working for a while. I loved working at that place for a long time, but lately it's gone downhill.

This morning, after getting out of bed, I went to the laundry room; and it was fully taken. So I didn't get started on my laundry until about 2 hours later, so that puts my routine back a bit. I wasn't happy with it, but I'm managing the adjustment fairly well. Other than that, things are going OK for now.

[Sunflower123]

Feeling really down today. I’m attending a 3 day virtual event that I got free tickets for. It’s a great event. I’m just not happy today. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.