I haven't posted on here in a while. Lately I've been busy. Mostly in getting health insurance. There were all kinds of documents I had to get and then the people who are to give it to me were not reachable. So I had to make a lot of phone calls which was a real hassle. It seems like, since I retired, it's been a bumpy ride. I didn't think retirement could be so hard! Maybe it isn't for a lot of people, but it has been for me so far. The things that have happened to me were never mentioned on the articles I've read about the down side of retiring.

Just now I got a phone call from the Ear, Nose, and Throat about my skin procedure. The office would be far away. So I left it to have an appointment at an office closer to where I live.

feeling a little depressed that I didn't get my baby doll today. honestly I was looking forward to it. why can't stuff arive when it's meant to..... ugg.

I have spent an entire week (or maybe a little more) excited for the doll, and it's not here

I also showered today, and apart from it being painful as ****, all I did is sat in my room eating.

so was their a real point

[Deilla]

I'm not really sure how I'm doing. I'm a little sad for a while and then I'm okay. Maybe if I get involved in a project, I'll feel better.

[Breaking Dawn]

Sometimes I'm wondering why I'm allowing myself to feel so sad & fearful while hoping for a better time. Maybe I'm doing ok after all. And maybe this is just a challenging time to help me learn?

I just finished breakfast and all I have to do today is clean. I've already done the laundry and shopping yesterday. One nice thing about being retired is that I don't have the cleaning, laundry, and shopping to do all on Saturdays anymore.

It's been a very bumpy ride in the last couple of days. It all had to do with getting health insurance, and trying to get it before the 1st. I got into one low-cost insurance program but ended up being rejected because I didn't qualify. And another one, as of now, is pending. I've had to get all kinds of documents for that one and it's been a real hassle. But late yesterday I decided to go with a more costly policy that's easy to get. I'm not happy about paying more but I think it's worth it. There's no guarantee that I will qualify for the one that's pending now and it probably will not be a good policy.

Nothing much after I do the cleaning and lunch. I think, from now on, I should be more on "cruise control" than having some chaos to do like in the past couple of weeks. At least I hope it will be that way.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by will19

I just finished breakfast and all I have to do today is clean. I've already done the laundry and shopping yesterday. One nice thing about being retired is that I don't have the cleaning, laundry, and shopping to do all on Saturdays anymore.

It's been a very bumpy ride in the last couple of days. It all had to do with getting health insurance, and trying to get it before the 1st. I got into one low-cost insurance program but ended up being rejected because I didn't qualify. And another one, as of now, is pending. I've had to get all kinds of documents for that one and it's been a real hassle. But late yesterday I decided to go with a more costly policy that's easy to get. I'm not happy about paying more but I think it's worth it. There's no guarantee that I will qualify for the one that's pending now and it probably will not be a good policy.

Nothing much after I do the cleaning and lunch. I think, from now on, I should be more on "cruise control" than having

some chaos to do like in the past couple of weeks. At least I hope it will be that way.

You seem to be very conscientious & orderly. I hope you find what you need. You're not a trouble maker, & you just keep on, curve ball after curve ball. Many of us from around the world respect & admire you.

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

You seem to be very conscientious & orderly. I hope you find what you need. You're not a trouble maker, & you just keep on, curve ball after curve ball. Many of us from around the world respect & admire you.

Thanks so much and I've appreciated the way you have been very encouraging to me. As far as curve balls go, it's more like mean fastballs.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by will19

Thanks so much and I've appreciated the way you have been very encouraging to me. As far as curve balls go, it's more like mean fastballs.

I guess I don't know enough about baseball. So fast balls are worse than curved ones? Anyway, games can be won, can't they? Let's say yes!!

[Mountaindewed]

My depression has been mild today. I haven’t really thought much about therapy today and it was on my mind a lot this past week. I think taking my meds at the appropriate time this morning helped.

[Deilla]

I deserve better treatment. If someone says we're going to still be friends, then they should act like it. I guess I'm angry now. I was sad.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I feel tired this morning and a little stressed. I don't like the long dark nights.

I feel the same way to. I can’t sleep unless I take something to help me sleep.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling depressed again. Today I just wanted to cry . There was nothing that triggered me to feel this way

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Not much going on today. Things at work were irritating me. It seems like it takes a while for those feeling to fade after leaving work.

Worked out after work and that's about it.

I’m sorry that you are feeling irritated at work.

[T4bbyCat]

2 out of 3 days of the heat wave down, but the worst one yet is forecast for tomorrow. 110+ degrees! And in an area where only the wealthy install AC in the house.

[Rose76]

I felt so content all day . . . content doing nothing. Just on the couch, in front of the TV. This is a new kind of depression for me. It's so comfortable. I know it's not healthy to keep doing nothing. But it feels great.

[Breaking Dawn]

I have to go shopping today & I'm feeling nervous about that. Then I need to get some back burner things done at home. I'm drinking coffee at the moment & trying to encourage myself.

Today seemed like a first weekday since my retirement of not having stuff to do. I made one phone call about the insurance and that was it, and it didn't take long. Last week I was on the phone for hours about it. So it's nice not having to spend a lot of time on the phone. I called my brother to wish him a happy birthday. It took a while to get him. I got him at 1:30, but I had tried all morning and he wasn't home. I was worried because it's not like him to not be home for very long.

It's nice for a change in not having a lot to do. But yet it felt like a real dull day.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling a little down. I've had a tough day. I was busy most of the day. I plan to find some way to relax. I already had a nap.

[Kelly68]

I don't feel well at all. I'm constantly anxious, i don't have answers to anything and more problems keep arising. My doctor isn't much help for pain and I promised I'd try working again. I don't think i can handle it. I'm almost getting delusional.

[Kelly68]

I noticed I've been worse since taking a mood stabilizer/antpsychotic med, how can that make it worse? Also my cat has started urinating on my landlord's carpet, i told him yelling at it and aggravating it doesn't help. I've offered to replace the carpet but that's money i need. Why are these little things making me so anxious?

[BigMikeyD]

Feeling general sadness today. Wife asks what's wrong and I don't know how to answer. Therapy has brought me out of the danger zone (anger outbursts, alcohol abuse suicidal ideation). Yay me. Still don't feel any moments of happiness or joy.

not really depressed today, just anxious, irritated and upset

hey kelly, I hope you keep reaching out here for support, and that things do get better for you

[Breaking Dawn]

Hi, @Kelly68! Welcome to this thread! This is the place where we can talk about anything, good or bad, ups & downs. And "hi" to your kitty cat!

[Breaking Dawn]

So far today I've been trying to intellectualize away my painful feelings of sadness. I still have a big day ahead of me, so I am trying to be determined to push myself, to accomplish something today, anything, so I don't feel so disappointed in myself. I say, "just start somewhere, anywhere, & do one thing." I hope I do.