[Mountaindewed]

I am way off on my Geodon today. I need to take at least a 20 right now if not both the 20 and 80. I also haven’t taken my 25 lamictal yet. I didn’t eat enough today but I ate what I could. I guess I just kind of forgot to. I did try going out to eat but I couldn’t get in because there was a 2 hour wait. So I got some takeout instead. I’m not really depressed though. Just a bit worried about my vacation in 2 weeks. Usually I’d be super excited for this yearly trip. Now I’m just unsure because I haven’t seen a few family members in 2 years. My mom says everyone will be really nice. And I know this trip will get me out of my depression. It’s just the get going that I’m struggling with.

[3rd rock]

I have been missing a lot of work lately. In the past three weeks, I've called in sick seven times.

[Rose76]

I've been sick all day. It's physical. Might have a mental element as well.

not been feeling good at all.

my latest attack of fibro has got me to thinking

Possible trigger:

a lot about the end

and the fibro will get me before anything else. okay, so I'm probably overreacting, but when I hurt, I hurt and it does get me wondering about those things.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I have been missing a lot of work lately. In the past three weeks, I've called in sick seven times.

I've wondered where you were. Good to hear from you, @3rd rock. I hope things will get better for you.

[Kelly68]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I feel better now I can log in

been trying all morning and it just wasn't working... ugg..

I thought it was just me, I kept trying too, until I gave up and tried the next day.

[Kelly68]

I get teary sometimes about losing my dad, and how much everything has changed. Salons are still not open even though the timeline was supposed to be for yesterday. I'm not sure I want that job back, the owner doesn't reply to me, she did once.. weeks ago? but I'd think if she really wanted to get organized and do well in her business she'd be contacting me. I offered to work both salons. Yes I stopped last year but I went to take care of my dad and she seemed understanding then.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m very tired today but it’s not depression tired. My depression has been fine all day.

[Deilla]

I'm struggling. I don't feel well emotionally. I'm not sure what to do with myself.

[Rose76]

I'm not doing well today at all.

[88Butterfly88]

Feeling depressed. An acquaintance mentioned something depressing today so I had to excuse myself from the conversation. I still feel worse after hearing it though.

[Breaking Dawn]

Not doing well but ok.

[Rose76]

Stayed in bed all day due to depression. I lose respect for myself when I do that.

feeling okay.

I'll feel even better once I've blocked a certain email address from contacting me. someone else I need out of my life, very toxic

[Rose76]

I feel too weak to clean up my apartment. This is awful.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m down in the dumps today and under the weather. Especially right now. But I also have an infection I haven’t treated yet and I’ve gone down on my Valium. So I’m not sure what the exact cause of my depression is but I am not sure it’s what I think it is.

I feel very hungry, and I feel very weak. the food I had yesterday was bad, their is no getting away from that- and also no getting away from the fact that I spent the whole night feeling nauseious, stomach aching, stomach empty, light-headed, today I really need to eat something... even in the shower I felt really blah on top of the all ready intense pain of not only the physical shower, but seeing my body, too

I'm okay, just feeling he affects of extreme hunger

I was very busy yesterday afternoon and will be this morning. I went to an Oncologist yesterday just for a talk, no treatment of any kind. He was very nice and answered some burning questions that I had. The bad part was waiting an hour to see him from my set appointment.

One thing going on with me now, or in the last few days, is that I have some discoloration on the sides of my mouth. I don't know what it is. It looks almost like I have clown's lips. There are times it looks like it's gone and then it comes back. So that's got me down. For some strange reason, I feel like I've been cursed since I retired. All kinds of unexpected things have gone wrong in the last month.

Also I'm a bit upset that a cart that's for the laundry room at where I live is missing. I really need that cart to transport the laundry from the basement to the third floor. Also I'll need it later on to carry groceries. The people at my place seem very inconsiderate. I don't know why they do this.

[Deilla]

I feel productive today. And I've had time to relax with a new game.

[Rose76]

I feel so lousy. I keep getting headaches. I don't want to eat. I feel weak. I break down crying. I can't really pinpoint what started this.

[Rose76]

This is the most depressed I've been in months. Being depressed always blows over for me. I have to keep that in mind. It's like getting a bad cold. I always recover eventually.

In a few days I see my "provider." I don't think I'll confide much. She's not a shrink and won't get too involved in psych issues. They have psych services where I go for healthcare, but the quality is poor. Accessing them would just make me more depressed.

I guess I needed my boyfriend as much as he needed me. Being his caregiver was a lot of work. Yet, I loved being with him. His illness just made us closer. I wish he were still here. But he's not. I thought I had gotten past the worst part of grief. I think I have. It's just that right now feels very lonely. That can change, if I make the effort to change it. I have to get out of staying so secluded.

I need to expand my circle of social contacts. The people that have been around me this past year mainly drain me. I've done my share of meeting other people's needs. It's been the story of my life. They don't understand that I'm depleted. I'm starting to not return phone calls. It's just someone looking for a shoulder. When will it be my turn.

I finally had a deecent meal. well, okay, it was mcdonalds, but in my eyes, absolutely perfect. I live for fridays so I can have mcdonalds

feel a lot fuller this morning. beats having a stomach ache..

I cleaned this morning. It seemed slightly difficult to do since it was warm and humid at that time. I did not sleep well last night so I felt very depressed this morning.

After cleaning I called my sister to wish her a Happy Birthday. For some reason, that I can't explain, I feel upset after talking to her. It happens a lot. I don't know why.

Nothing much else in the afternoon. I'm just going to do my usual later Saturday afternoon stuff of bike riding for a little bit and watching a movie tonight.

[Rose76]

Something's wrong with me. I thought it was just depression making me not want to do anything. But I just went to the store for a few things, and I got very weak. Lightheaded, wobbly feeling. I could barely carry my groceries in.

I know I should go to the emergency dept at the hospital. I'm holding off. I dread being in that waiting room all night. I have no pain and feel fine, as long as I don't get up on my feet.

[leomama]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Something's wrong with me. I thought it was just depression making me not want to do anything. But I just went to the store for a few things, and I got very weak. Lightheaded, wobbly feeling. I could barely carry my groceries in.

I know I should go to the emergency dept at the hospital. I'm holding off. I dread being in that waiting room all night. I have no pain and feel fine, as long as I don't get up on my feet.

Have you called the nurse advice line? Could it be a medication interaction or the weather affecting you due to medication?