I had my minor medical procedure today. The doctor was very nice and came from the area nearby where I came from. The work's done but for the next few weeks some post procedure care has to be made and some sacrifices. That means no lifting over 20 pounds (which includes doing laundry and carrying groceries), working out, bike riding, and going to a Jacuzzi. So I'm going to have to lay low for a while, which sucks for me! I get the feeling that this is going to be a long month.

My payment that I was expecting came today, so at least something good happened!

[Deilla]

It's late and I'm stressed. It's time for my meds. I will probably go to bed soon.

Originally Posted by will19

My payment that I was expecting came today, so at least something good happened!

Good to hear, Will!

I have felt tired this day as well, but have been able to do everything I had on my to do list. I have cooked a very good dinner today. I was invited to a family gathering at Sunday and saved my Sunday dinner. I made it today. Delicious!

[regretful]

A few years back, this depression was in full remission...I was sleeping well, exercising, feeling useful, etc. It returned and I'm fighting it. Still counting my blessings despite all of the curveballs that life is sending my way...best wishes to all of you fighting this terrible affliction.

A little bit busy this morning. Did some light shopping and then I called on an ex co-worker, who is still working at that place (though from his home) I left two months ago to inquire if I could possibly go back to work there. I'm thinking of going back in September if I'd be needed there. As of now, it's still empty. He told me that there should be an increase of workers, the one's who had worked at home and new companies, by September. I had planned to take a trip in October to a place I want to scout out to possibly move to in the future. With the way the pandemic is going, I might not be able to take that trip, so I feel like I'd be better off working. We'll see.

Nothing much after that and for the rest of the day. I'm feeling like I'm in the twilight zone as I'm not able to go on my bike rides and workout (per doctor's orders). Also I'm very conscience about my appearance from the procedure that was done on my face. It looks bad, but fortunately, I can cover it up with a mask.

I am filled with sleepiness today! I had to rest after breakfast and it happened again after lunch. I even fell asleep after lunch and slept for more than an hour. I don't know what this is.... Will try to continue with my plans.

[Mountaindewed]

I haven’t really felt depressed in awhile. I’ve actually been pretty stable for about a week. I think getting my surgery worked on and switching my meds around has helped a lot. Losing weight is making me feel pretty good too. Also I’m not dealing with PMS right now.

[Deilla]

My day started off poorly but my mom and stepdad helped me out today. Things turned around. I've been relaxing with my cats.

Not much of a day today. I'm still trying to get used to the temporary new routine of laying low since I had a procedure done last Monday. It's not easy. This should last at least another week. Hopefully things will get back to normal by then.

Lately, I feel like I'm receiving harsh realities about myself and my future. It all feels very sobering and depressing.

[Kelly68]

I've been way too worried, but there's things I have to get done, and I can't rely on someone else to help me with. I'm hoping my little old car will be fixed soon and it's not too much cost. If not, it will have to be junked. I feel more depressed than anything else. I wish I could change things in the last year or two but that thinking gets me nowhere.

[3rd rock]

I released my latest novel. It's radically different from anything I've ever written. It's an erotic novel written under a new pen name. It's only been two days but it's already a failure.

I am missing a lot of work lately. I've not worked a full week since May. I keep calling in sick. I called in sick yesterday and I will call in sick tomorrow. I'm at work right now. It's very difficult to work when I am extremely depressed and in a lot of pain.

[3rd rock]

And my truck won't start. It needs a new battery. I've been boosting it with a booster pack but I need a new battery. That costs money.

[Kelly68]

3rd Rock, don't give up. 2 days doesn't mean a failure when writing something. Hang in there, life's tough so many times and then with depression..

I don't know what to do today... just as i'm discussing problems my landlord a roomate walk in, I still have a blush on my face. It's personal stuff. It's expected when sharing living space but I don't know how much they heard. I really wish I had my own place.

[Lostislost]

I have 2 weeks until my due date. I am huge and lonely and scared about what is to come. I don't feel like I can reach out to anyone. I miss seeing people in work and it taking my mind off things. I wonder if I should have chosen a c section so I had a date to look forward to and not have to deal with anything down there. I'm just crying today.

[regretful]

Anxiety crept in yesterday, but depression is the overarching unwelcome companion that is with me everywhere I turn. I'm having trouble keeping up on the many tasks and must-do things. As always, I wish you all well in your struggle with this beast

Had a few little things to do, but not much. I'm still trying to get used to hanging low, which is really hard for me.

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I released my latest novel. It's radically different from anything I've ever written. It's an erotic novel written under a new pen name. It's only been two days but it's already a failure.

Congratulations on the novel... two days or even two months is not really enough time to judge, especially given how some of the most popular works ever didn't catch on until years after their release.

I'm mostly a reader of sci-fi, gritty detective or lawyer story and James Patterson-style pulp fiction, but maybe if you feel like sharing a link to the book, we could have a look...

[Breaking Dawn]

I've been not quite myself lately.

[Deilla]

I had my third and final back procedure yesterday. I'm feeling less pain today. I went to bed early I was so tired. I've been busy this morning. My mood is good.

I was pretty busy this morning with shopping and laundry. Nothing much after that. I made an attempt to call on a cousin of mine, whom I haven't spoken to in a couple of decades. I had always liked him and for some strange reason, he had been on my mind. I got a couple of phone numbers on him and tried them but they were both disconnected.

[Rose76]

I have been doing next to nothing all day every day. I just have little interest in taking care of things. 2 weeks worth of mail sits piled up and unopened. I need a personal assistant.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by will19

I was pretty busy this morning with shopping and laundry. Nothing much after that. I made an attempt to call on a cousin of mine, whom I haven't spoken to in a couple of decades. I had always liked him and for some strange reason, he had been on my mind. I got a couple of phone numbers on him and tried them but they were both disconnected.

I'm sorry. Maybe another relative can help? I'm crossing my fingers for you.

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

I'm sorry. Maybe another relative can help? I'm crossing my fingers for you.

Thanks, but I don't have much with relatives. I don't have many cousins and they all have busy lives. Plus we had drifted apart because of busyness and moving out of the area. It was extremely awkward enough as it was for me to make that call, especially when my cousin didn't expect to ever hear from me.

As far as trying to contact my cousin, I'm taking it like it wasn't meant to be.

[Deilla]

I am feeling tired and sad this morning. My back started bothering me while I was preparing food for a chili. I guess I am still recovering.