[Mountaindewed]

I’m more just regular normal tired today then actually depressed. A couple things I’ve been dwelling on but it hasn’t been too bad today.

Again not much of a day today. I was busy in the morning as I had crammed work that had to be done all in the morning. My sister called to patch things up from last week. We had an argument over the phone a week ago today. It was good that she called to clear up a misunderstanding that I had. So that was nice.

Nothing much happening later on. No payments came today that I was expecting, but maybe by Monday. Lately I have been having weird dreams.

[Rose76]

Better today than yesterday. An MD prescribed me some Ativan. It was a good office visit yesterday. This doctor was really nice and caring.

nothing going on today

another day of sitting here doing absolutely nothing. (apart from posting here)

at least it is raining today- we need some to cool the air

[mssweatypalms]

Just got my first vaccine and feeling sick in bed right now.

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[Breaking Dawn]

I'm doing nothing, too. Except for posting, also. I had a cup of coffee, which I enjoyed & I'm sort of planning my day, & hoping I accomplish something today. That doesn't sound very determined, does it. I need to have a talk with myself.

[Rose76]

Mentally,I feel a lot better. I only took the Ativan once, but I know it's there, if I need it. That gives me a feeling of security. I don't get anxious very often, but I did just have a few days of severe anxiety over the first half of this week. It felt horrible. The doctor I saw 2 days ago was very helpful.

I'm still very anemic, but the blood transfusion did help. I made a pot of chili yesterday, which felt like a big accomplishment. My goal today is to straighten the living room and do some laundry. I know now that when I feel the need to rest, it doesn't mean I'm giving in to depression. The anemia is still pretty bad.

Felt depressed today. I woke up around 4:30 and it took me at least 2 hours to get back to sleep, which wasn't much time between getting back to sleep and getting up. I cleaned like I always do on Saturdays. That hasn't changed since my job ended early last month.

I was very wound up and had a hard time sleeping early this morning because of the money situation. As of now, I just barely have enough to pay the rent next week. Like I've mentioned before, there's some money expected to come and my bank is holding up the process. So I hope that gets straightened out this coming week. There's nothing I can do about it today and tomorrow because it's the weekend.

[Kelly68]

I up in the night, can't sleep but I know I'm exhausted. I have a different job interview this coming week. My car still isn't fixed. I need confidence and I don't have any to muster up. I'm disappointed with the owner. With more time I can do a great job. I'm disappointed I had almost 90 dollars stolen. I'm running on empty in every way. Hopefully I can make it and be able to pay rent.... or be late. I'm not sure I made a wise decision finding a job. It's very demanding... they didn't even have a/c or real good rests here and there. It's all a slave driving thing everywhere. I look at the coffee shops I used to work at and how demanding even that is. covid has everyone sick of line ups and nothing to do all summer. I'm getting quite hopeless feeling, but I'll keep trying.

[Kelly68]

You can do your best, doesn't mean it works. Some people really are only thinking of themselves. I've had enough trying to please anyone else... I still care very much, but it looks like it's me and my cat and my God.

[Breaking Dawn]

I feel sad but I'm pretty sure I'm going to feel better in a little while.

[Deilla]

I feel overwhelmed, stressed and like I have no energy. I have things I have to do today. I will do my best.

[Rose76]

Got up. Breafast. Back on sofa watching news shows. Fell asleep. I'm so tired. Tomorrow I see a NP. I'll ask for I/V iron. I'm too tired.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m just feeling my usual PMS type depression today. I want to go back to work so I can interact with people and not be at home all day doing nothing. I’m hoping therapy will make me feel better and I’ll get the email I’ve been waiting for.

[Cocosurviving]

My origin post from Saturday July 24th 2021.

I feel grateful I logged in 380 days in a row, logged 343 exercises and logged 580 meals.

I’m grateful that: depression did not win. chronic illnesses did not win. I’ve started many projects and not been able to complete them as a result of dealing with depression and/or chronic illnesses. Depression and chronic illnesses keep me from getting involved in many things.

Why? I deal with the fear and anxiety of not being able to guarantee, I can consistently show up and participate. Having a lot of health barriers complicates participating in activities or activism. Weather changes is a constant trigger. Individuals with chronic illnesses never know from one day to the next if a flare up will begin. Will the flare up be mild? Will the flare require a treatment that can OLNY be given in a hospital or urgent care? How will I feel after the treatment?

Treatments and medications are NEVER a guarantee the individual will be in remission.

I receive two monthly injections for one of the rare diseases I have. After my first treatment in April, the next day I went to run at our local YMCA. I left after I it was my asthma flaring up. My symptoms increased, it was actually side effects from my Xolair injections.

The second month was better. The third monthly injections, I had an allergic reaction to band-aids. This mont, I received my fourth treatment yesterday. I had a flare up at 3:30 AM. Chronic Idiopathic Urticaria, chronic itching hives…hives that can itch so bad they make the skin feel like it’s burning. Hives that can cause your airway to close.

It was hard to stay motivated, not get depression. And hope this flare up, the day of receiving my treatment is an isolated incident or due to stress. I’m grateful to my ancestors for strength. I’m grateful for traditional ways, ceremony and Native Indigenous voices that help me push forward.
********************************* #disabilitypridemonth #depression #bipocmentalhealthmonth #mentalhealthvsmentalillness #bmiis******** #chronicidiopathicurticaria #indigenousspooniesrevolt #rarediseases
#autoimmunediseases #fibromyalgia #Hashimoto

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I'm so sick of thinking along the lines of I've never done this, I've never done that, etc etc etc etc etc

was defenetly the theme of yesterday, finished dinner (which as horrible), then resorted to making a list of things that I've never done.

and some of it's shocking!

[Cocosurviving]

“I wish people realized that suicide prevention isn’t always posting the hotline. It’s adequate housing. It’s basic healthcare including dental and vision. It’s affordable living. Proper care in active addiction. Proper care post addiction. It’s everything we need to live.” @feraltakahayato (Twitter)

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[Cocosurviving]

“Money worries can be paralysing, devastating. Over a long period....
Plus, being poor costs an absolute fortune.”
Twitter

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[Breaking Dawn]

Hi, I'm doing ok. Things are not exactly perfect for hardly anybody, haha, but we are here & we have this wonderful place where we can be. And thank you for being here! I actually did some things yesterday that I decided to count as progress. Thank you who inspire me when I read about what you go through & how you keep trying this & that while a lot of things are so difficult.

[Deilla]

I'm a little less stressed this morning. Merry Maids is coming today. I have a few more things I have to do to prepare. It should be easy though. I will take a PRN and try to relax.

This morning is starting off great so far. I woke up around 5 AM (much earlier than I needed to) and couldn't get back to sleep because of worrying about money not coming in as needed. As it looked now, I would just barely pay the rent with every cent I have, and not having anything left over. Well, one payment came in this morning, so now I'm all set! I'm expecting another payment. It probably won't come today but it's due by either tomorrow or Wednesday.

I'm feeling good emotionally now. I hope that something doesn't happen to bring me down. It seems like whenever I feel great, something or someone else could bring me right down.

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

I am using music, humor, games, & CBT come backs to keep me in the ups as much as possible.

CBT is a wonderful technique (that's my experience). For the time being I try to use it on Procrastination.

Music really works great for me. I pick out music that I love while working out (which I will be doing in a few minutes). It picks me up and makes me feel young.

[Rose76]

Physically, I feel crummy.

I feel OK this morning. Am on my way out for jogging.