Feeling hopeless and lost

Sending piles of loves for our mimi

Thanks much willowtigger. I am grateful to you for your support.

I desperately need more oxygen in my brain. I feel like I have a power cut in my brain. I feel drowsy, tired and exhausted. Sometimes I feel I'm going to collapse. I have to get a lot of chores done around the house. I got to take one of my cats to the vet tomorrow. God please help me.

Good post

I hope the vet trip goes well

I have decided to accept my fate, though I would not want anyone else to have my experience. That will not decrease my physical pain, but will make make me feel less frustrated and less restless, which is also quite a lot. I will have to take painkiller(s) and tolerate the physical pain when it happens and as long as it lasts. When I feel exhausted I will have to rest, no other way out.

Also I plan to get more involved with my rescue animals and my garden. I hope this will make my life a little meaningful to me.

I said I will have to accept my fate, but it is not easy. Sometimes the physical pain gets too great to bear. But I have no choice. I will have to bear the pain even when I feel I can't any more, I will have to go on even when I feel I can't go on any more.....God please give me the strength to accept my fate.

Thanks much to all my friends here who keep supporting me and help me survive. You make me realize that all is not lost....there is still hope and love for me in this world....everyone in this world has not abandoned me. You helped me regain my faith in people.

I'm so glad you feel that way! God bless you, dear Mimi.

Thank you Breaking Dawn.

Feeling very sad and hopeless. Plus there is so much pain in my muscles and bones. And mild to moderate panic attacks from time to time.

They are never going to take me back. Sometimes I wonder why did it have to be me? God why did you choose me as a sacrifice? Do my tears matter to you at all? Will I never find peace in this life? Cruel life....How will I survive here? Oh God!

The oxygen level in my brain is very low today. I feel drowsy, nauseous and exhausted. I feel like I am going to collapse any moment. I am not able to do basic self-care like brush my teeth or shower or eat properly or take care of my cats.There is a very sick kitten, bleeding from the an*s, and I am not being able to take him to the vet. It is not because I am depressed, I just don't have the energy.
If the oxygen level goes down a little more, I will go into a coma and/or die. I don't know what the future holds for me but I can't be too positive. Seems that I can't defy my fate however hard I try. Maybe God will take me to him and I will not be in pain any more.

Dear Mimi, Thank you! You are a wonderful friend. God bless you. I hope you are having an easier day today. Hugs & lots of love to you!

Thanks much Breaking Dawn. Yes today is easier like the last 5 days, thanks to God and my friends who have supported me and given me hope and courage. Hope your day goes easier too. Much love.

Thank you, Mimi! And lots of love to your wonderful cats, too!

I hope our mimi feels better soon

Your precious to this world

Thank you, I have been better the past week or so. The brain oxygen supply is a bit up. Thanks to God and all my friends.

It's wonderful news, that you're feeling better, Mimi.

Thank you Breaking Dawn.

Feeling very hopeless....the realization that I may be stuck in India forever scares me....still hanging in there. Yesterday somebody left a rotting dead kitten in our backyard.

aww thats awful, mimi

Feeling hopeless, hanging in there still.

I'm so sorry, Mimi. I hope something nice happens for you soon that will lift your spirits.

We all love a mimi