[Sunflower123]

I am severely depressed at this time. I feel hopeless and defeated.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I am severely depressed at this time. I feel hopeless and defeated.

I'm sorry.

[Deilla]

I've been traumatized by scammers on dating sites. I deleted all my profiles. I give up.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I've been traumatized by scammers on dating sites. I deleted all my profiles. I give up.

How awful! Things like this teach us not to trust. Such a harmful thing.
Try to hang in there, @Deilla. Hugs & love to you!

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I've been traumatized by scammers on dating sites. I deleted all my profiles. I give up.

Yes, scammers don't care how they hurt someone as long as they get the money. Rather than "trust but verify," it's better to "never trust and always verify" in this space. But even if you talk to them via webcam, they need not be who they claim to be.

[Rose76]

Came home from the hospital last eveing. I was much improved. Kust still a bit weak. Since 6 a.m. today, I have felt very distressed again.

At the hospital, I was mostly in make-shift cubicles in hallways . . . moved from one spot to another. Place at 130% capacity. I couldn't face going back there.

[Rose76]

I feel so sick, awful sick. Don't know what to do. Call placed to my provider.

I fear going back to E.R.

[Deilla]

I'm a bit stressed about work. But I'm off now and I'm going to relax. If I can do the task requested, I will. If it's not possible, it's not my problem. Get over it!

[Rose76]

I'ld rather be dead than be this sick. Not planning to off myself. Just experiencing such misery.

[hvert]

Rose76, I hope you are starting to feel better. It sounds truly miserable.

I have been in a weird mood this week. I am very stressed about money.

[Rose76]

I got 5 hours of sleep and feel so much improved.

[MissCrazy]

Rough start.
Days not over.
Just want to sleep so I don't think.

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A little bit of an eventful day; or at least a couple of things happened that were out of the ordinary.

My sister called this morning. She called wondering what I was going to do since June is next month and that's a time to renew my lease or leave. So Is told her that I'm staying on for another year. I have mixed feelings about staying on another year. It's costly to stay where I am (though I can do alright) but I don't feel ready to make a move; even though I was going to move last month, but didn't. She and I had a pretty good talk. I told her about three months ago that I didn't want to do the phone calls anymore because it was upsetting to me.

In the late morning I did my exercises on the band resistance, like I have for quite a while. At the end I had a little trauma as a support broke unexpectedly and I landed on my rear end - slammed down to the floor. I feel alright now and I ordered the part that broke. I may have to put off that exercise until the part comes.

[Rose76]

I continue to feel quite okay. Yesterday, I wished I had never been born. Sometimes you get "through the Valley of the Shadow of Death" quicker than you expected.

[Deilla]

Things were really difficult at work today. I worked over 8 hours on this problem and don't have a solution. I have a recommendation and a workaround. But that doesn't seem to be good enough. I am very stressed. I would quit but then I wouldn't have money for food or medicine.

[modestlychee6463]

I feel rather down at the moment because of another problem that cropped up.

[Rose76]

After feeling pretty good on Friday, Saturday I was pretty weak all day.

Now it's Sunday, and I'm already awake. I need more sleep. The sun isn't up yet.

Visiting nurse came by yesterday. She just checked my blood pressure. Next a social worker is supposed to visit to decide what they can send a home aid to help me with. By the time all this red tape is gone through, I won't need the help. I agreed to the home health service, which Medicare pays for, just to see how it would play out. This agency will get thousands of dollars for actually doing very little for me. It's a huge waste of the nations healthcare dollars. She said the help I'ld like (some help changing the bed and a bit of housework and take out the trash and pick up some groceries) I would have to request from the city Dept of Senior Affairs. Her agency's social worker would help me contact that Dept to apply for the help. The private agency will bill Medicare some ridiculous amount of money for just helping me apply for help from the city. I could just do that on my own. It's such a racket.

I'm not depressed right now. I'm glad that I'm not in awful pain like I was one week ago. I'm hopeful that my gut will heal. I can't eat hardly. Yesterday I had some white rice and some noodles. I don't really mind. I'm supposed to let my gut rest. So me and the gut are resting.

[T4bbyCat]

Happy Mother's Day to all, even if it might bring sad memories to mind... especially if you loved and lost or loved but couldn't have children.

[Mountaindewed]

I'm just having this thought I've had before of "I'm 29 whats going to happen in 5 years?" Its just one thing after another.

[Breaking Dawn]

Really lots of downs but some ups that really do help.

[Rose76]

I'm recovering, day by day. None of this sickness has made me depressed. My mind has been too busy thinking of how to get better.

Someone I felt kind of close to, after knowing her 20 years, proved not such a great friend during my recent severe illness. I wasn't too surprised. She's always been self-absorbed. She calls a lot when bored and likes really long chats. I think I'll put a 10 minute limit on her phone calls. I'm tired of being used. I don't get bored being by myself.

[Mountaindewed]

Today is a lot better. I'm waiting on some blood work I had done this morning so I'm not totally relaxed yet. Plus I have the new thing that popped up that I'm waiting to hear about. Things really are better overall then they were even a week ago for me if I fact check it. Its hard to tell whats been making the difference though. Several things happened around the same time.

[Rose76]

Stronger today. Still recovering. Mentally I feel better.

[Violetta75]

I think that's quite true. I have a past filled with trauma. But my mother and grandmother had Alzheimer's. I hope it's not that. Thanks for the reply.

Today I'm still sitting in a heaping mess. Weather is nicer so that helps the depression a bit.

[Rose76]

My recovery from severe diverticulitis continues. It's being a slow process. I go between the bed and the couch, eating mini-meals here and there. Still have a sore, queasy belly. But this is nothing compared to how I felt in the ambulance going to the hospital. I didn't know I could feel that horrible and still be alive. The paramedic had to pull the juice container out of my hands. I was so thirsty from diarrhea and vomiting. They don't want you drinking for very good reason.

I just hope my gut heals up. I've had gut attacks before that resolved. (This was my 6th attack in 12 years.)

I'm not depressed at all. Just tired. I try to go out every day to walk around a store for an hour.