[Rose76]

I'm improving. I'm recovering. Was able to drive to the supermarket last eve and pick up some groceries. It did take a lot out of me. I'm not depressed the way I was 2 days ago.

[Violetta75]

I'm now on a list to see a counselor, not sure how long that will take. I have to talk to my psychatrist to see if he'll up my dose of anti depressants. The usual dose is not effective anymore I still want to stay in bed and I always seem to say to myself first thing in the morning, oh darn i just had to wake up and face another day. Often the idea of peace and death is feeling more appealing. Tough times for everyone though. I feel I've had enough already.

[Sunflower123]

I’m depressed today over the loss of the friendship of my best friend. I am a strong, resilient woman and I will move on. There is just pain now.

Hugs to all

[Mountaindewed]

I'm just a bit concerned about future depression. Just based on past similar situations. I have a message into my doctor asking him some questions about what it will be like.

[Rose76]

Sick today. Not really depressed though.

Was busy this morning with cleaning and having to go to store and pick up something I needed that I forgot yesterday. I dreaded having to go to the store on a Saturday, but I went early and got it quickly. This afternoon dragged and I felt depressed.

I just split up with the only friend I got. I got tired of him constantly berating me. Also he had set up a lead for me - someone to call to inquire about a place to move to in the future that would be significantly lower in the cost of living than where I am now. So that possibility is gone also. Oh well!

[cool09]

I'm surprised I haven't been depressed the last 6 months. I isolate and lay down a lot. The zoloft seems to work. But I'm not doing anything to help myself.

[3rd rock]

I've been eating much more poorly lately, and as a result I'm gaining weight. My cholesterol levels are too high, according to a recent test. I have a hard time caring, considering there's no benefit to eating well, at least in the short term. My uncle died recently, and even he lived into his 70s despite very poor lifestyle habits.

[Rose76]

Sick and nauseated last evening. Slept pretty good.

[Breaking Dawn]

Not doing very well, but planning & trying little things & making small changes.

[Rose76]

I may have to go back to the hospital today. I can't eat or drink. This all started April 30. Intestinal infection. I can't seem to get better.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I may have to go back to the hospital today. I can't eat or drink. This all started April 30. Intestinal infection. I can't seem to get better.

Good luck with everything, Rose! Sending you get well wishes & hoping you'll be feeling wonderful real soon!

[Sunflower123]

My brother died Monday. It was a shock. I’m getting deeper into a depression that already existed.

[rjdb]

Hate life. Hate myself. Hate work.

[cool09]

My anhedonia is horrible. Doctor said he can't do much about it. It hit me like a freight train at 13 and I've been like that ever since.

[Breaking Dawn]

I seem to be experiencing some progress.

[zapatoes]

I’m sad, was irritable earlier in the day, TMJ pain worsening some lately, and have been walking almost daily.

[T4bbyCat]

Just wondering whether or not I'll know that it's my last year, month, week, day, hour, or even minute... curious about the statistics on those amongst humanity over the eons.

[Breaking Dawn]

I got some new determination this morning from somewhere & I fulfilled a hard goal I was afraid I wouldn't do. I am still feeling sad, but I am so glad I didn't let myself down again, & I feel grateful for that.

[Rose76]

After a small meal this afternoon, I got to feeling very queazy and sick. Today I had an Xray that did not look too good. I read the report. It shows continued inflammation and I'm worried. I just don't seem to be recovering.

I'm getting depressed. My primary today said I might need surgery. She's setting up a consult with a surgeon. I don't know if I could even face that. I reached out tonight to a family member who showed very little interest. That was very hurtful. Maybe it's best to know that someone is not going to be a source of support. I have to stop trying to get blood out of a stone.

Feeling a bit depressed. I tend to feel that way this time of year. I don't welcome warmer weather; and over the years, this has been a season when bad things happened. So I guess there are reminders out there for me to give me flashbacks. This year so far nothing bad has happened. But there's plenty of time for a possibility; at least in my mind I seem to be anticipating something to go wrong. I have some anxiety also.

I picked up my bike earlier from the repair shop. I had my bike tied up for three days for service. I had been feeling tired of bike riding and possibly wanted to give it up. It's hard for me to let that go since it's my identity. But, with the bike working better now, I think I'll like riding again. It was kind of nice to give myself a three-day rest from it.

Today is the one year anniversary from the last day at my job. I have retired since then, so it's a one year anniversary in retirement for me. That time has gone by so quickly - it doesn't seem possible that it's been one full year! I've been happy being retired so far but I really miss the money since I was taking in more while I was working. I made some attempt to go back to work but nothing panned out. I'd rather not work, but I feel like I have to because of money.

To Rose: I'm very sorry you are going through this ordeal. I wish the best for you. I don't have any suggestions. I went through a period of surgery a few years ago and it was a dark period, though there were some heartwarming moments. The recovery was a bit longer than I thought it would be. It all turned out OK even though I'm still paying the price a little bit from the surgery.

[Rose76]

@will19 - thank you for those kind thoughts. I'm glad your surgery had a successful outcome. At least, I hope that's been generally true, despite what "price" may remain. You keep very physically active, which must serve you well. I need to do more of that. I'm way too sedentary.

[cool09]

Avoiding everything. Don't want to face the world. Went to the ER two days ago but they didn't admit me.

[Rose76]

I feel pretty well today. First day in over a month that I feel like I'm really beginning to recover.

That's helping me mentally. Today I'm not depressed with dark thoughts of how I don't want to live. What a relief!

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I feel pretty well today. First day in over a month that I feel like I'm really beginning to recover.

That's helping me mentally. Today I'm not depressed with dark thoughts of how I don't want to live. What a relief!

This is really good news, Rose!