[Deilla]

I'm having a good night. I'm cooking and I'm playing games. I'm going to ignore the drama.

[Rose76]

I am spending too much time in front of the TV. I think this is a new kind of depression I'm falling into. No sadness. Just way too much inactivity.

[downandlonely]

I'm quarantining because I have Covid. Physical symptoms are gone. I'm just pretty bored.

[SprinkL3]

Originally Posted by downandlonely

I'm quarantining because I have Covid. Physical symptoms are gone. I'm just pretty bored.

@downandlonely - we hope you get well soon!

[SprinkL3]

@Mountaindewed - we hope you get well soon, too! We're not sure if you're on this thread or not, but we lost track of the scrolling. Still, we wanted to wish you well.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really down. I feel like i can't trust myself today. I kept myself busy.

[Rose76]

I haven't taken down my tree yet or any of my Christmas decorations. I'll start that on Friday.

I really miss Christmas when it's over. All that Christmas magic goes out of the air. That's already started. I try to keep observing the traditional "12 days of Christmas" - which traditionally ran through Jan 5. Then Jan 6 used to be the feast day of the 3 kings. That was the scedule, I think, for centuries. It all got changed. I'm out of sync with the world around me. I don't like change.

[SprinkL3]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I been feeling really down. I feel like i can't trust myself today. I kept myself busy.

I am going to sleep soon, but I wanted to send you a hug and say that I hope you feel better soon. I am on my cell, so I do not know how to do the gif pictures yet. But I will after I get sleep.

I keep myself busy when I struggle with myself, too.

[SprinkL3]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I haven't taken down my tree yet or any of my Christmas decorations. I'll start that on Friday.

I really miss Christmas when it's over. All that Christmas magic goes out of the air. That's already started. I try to keep observing the traditional "12 days of Christmas" - which traditionally ran through Jan 5. Then Jan 6 used to be the feast day of the 3 kings. That was the scedule, I think, for centuries. It all got changed. I'm out of sync with the world around me. I don't like change.

I wish that Christmas returned! I like the idea of Christmas in January.

I wonder if that is what Epiphany is??

I do not like change either. And Christmas is too short.

[SprinkL3]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I been feeling really down. I feel like i can't trust myself today. I kept myself busy.

@Buffy01 - I hope you feel better soon. (((safe hugs)))

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by SprinkL3

@Buffy01 - I hope you feel better soon. (((safe hugs)))

:sadhug:

I wish that I knew how to feel better. I start therapy this summer.

[SprinkL3]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I wish that I knew how to feel better. I start therapy this summer.

Starting therapy is a good first step to feeling better. Self-care is another step. You can self-care by getting the rest you need, taking the meds you need, pacing yourself, setting boundaries, finding some of your favorite things to do in safe spaces and doing them, reaching out for social support from validating friends and family, etc.

For coping skills, that will take a trained therapist to help you figure out which ones will work best with what you're dealing with.

For medical or neurological issues, a psychiatrist will help you figure out what can assist with you feeling better.

I hope you feel better soon, but in the meantime, I hope you hang in there.

(((safe hugs)))

[3rd rock]

I am the worst writer ever.

[Breaking Dawn]

I've been having intervals of really difficult & then much easier experiences.

[Deilla]

I've been having problems with overeating. I got some foods that triggered me. I feel really bad.

[downandlonely]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I've been having problems with overeating. I got some foods that triggered me. I feel really bad.

I have issues with overeating too. Overeaters Anonymous is helping me a lot. You can find Zoom meetings at oa.org.

[Deilla]

I'm trying to be hopeful.

[Mountaindewed]

I'm depressed but its not therapy or covid related. So I think I just slept badly last night and I'm still sort of down about Betty White.

[Rose76]

Kind of down today. I miss Christmas. My tree is still up. I'll start taking it down tonight. Packing up all the Christmas decorations makes me sad. Every year I go through this. Last year I got truly, very depressed. I don't want to get like that again. I don't think I'll feel as bad as last year.

Next I'll look forward to Spring. I love when the buds start coming out. I love when all the leaves and flowers on the trees are new and unblemished. Time seems to be passing very fast. Too fast. And I'm never caught up with what I need to get done.

[Breaking Dawn]

Today was ok sometimes.

[downandlonely]

Still quarantining. I'm handling it ok, but am bored.

My day is just beginning as of now. I got up a little bit later than I wanted to. I didn't sleep very well. After having coffee I'm going to clean for about two hours. It's weird how, while I'm in bed just before getting up, I feel like my world is going to crash. But then after breakfast I feel much better. The thing this is on my mind the most is having to move pretty soon. I'll miss where I now even though there's not much going for me and it's too costly. But I don't know where to go.

My sister and I had it out with each other a couple days ago. I finally stood up to her and told her not to call me anymore. She felt bad about it and so do I, but that's the way it goes. Her phone calls have been aggravating and I would end up feeling angry and depressed after talking to her. Also her son picked up COVID after he had gone to a big New Years Eve party. I thought that was really dumb.

[SprinkL3]

Originally Posted by will19

My day is just beginning as of now. I got up a little bit later than I wanted to. I didn't sleep very well. After having coffee I'm going to clean for about two hours. It's weird how, while I'm in bed just before getting up, I feel like my world is going to crash. But then after breakfast I feel much better. The thing this is on my mind the most is having to move pretty soon. I'll miss where I now even though there's not much going for me and it's too costly. But I don't know where to go.

My sister and I had it out with each other a couple days ago. I finally stood up to her and told her not to call me anymore. She felt bad about it and so do I, but that's the way it goes. Her phone calls have been aggravating and I would end up feeling angry and depressed after talking to her. Also her son picked up COVID after he had gone to a big New Years Eve party. I thought that was really dumb.

I'm sorry to hear about your anxieties and relational troubles with your sister. I, too, have issues with my family. I've also had to set boundaries.

Do you have a strategy for moving? Do you plan on staying within the same state or moving out of state? Can you afford to stay within the same state to make it easier on you before you decide to move out of state?

Sometimes self-care is all that it takes to help us with our mood modulation and energy levels. I used to struggle with suicidal thoughts every morning, ever since the pandemic began. But after about a year of therapy (my therapist used to send me "good morning" emails every morning during business days, in addition to biweekly online sessions), my suicidal thoughts dissipated. I now wake up without those thoughts, though I still feel fatigued and low energy. I also have a very unstable sleep schedule. But my T's therapy worked. My T no longer sends me emails every morning, but she still sees me online twice a week. That helps me with my other lingering conditions and symptoms.

Do you have a good T who can help you with motivation, energy, goal-setting, interpersonal relationships, depression, anxiety, and more? Can you ask your T or a friend to be a check-in buddy in the mornings, just to give you something to look forward to in the mornings - even if it's once a week or a few times a week? That might make all the difference in not feeling so alone and disconnected. I have no one locally to do that, and my family isn't reliable (they've been perpetually dysfunctional). My friends are either too busy with work or too disabled to do that, so I didn't have anyone other than my T for a very long while. I'm starting to make new local friends - all whom are vaccinated and wear masks whenever they see me (even if I'm outside). I only see them outside for essentials, such as gift exchanges or donations or getting a safe ride to and from my doctor's appointments for things like vaccines. It helps to know a few people in real life and locally - even if they are mere acquaintances. Sadly, I don't get along with any of my neighbors because many of them remain unmasked and/or unvaccinated. However, I did see some progress in one of my neighbors when I noticed that she's now wearing masks while in the hallways of the apartment building. Before she was anti-mask. So that's something new.

If you list the reasons why you're moving, including why you don't like living where you are at now, you might find the very things you are looking for in a new place. What will help you further is making a list of what your desires are, and then doing some research online to see how the communities are in terms of weather, political leanings, healthcare, crime rates, protests, zoning laws, ordinances, public safety, demographics, traffic, access to stores, access to online shopping and contactless deliveries, taxes, renters' rights, victims' rights, middle-aged and elderly rights, and whatever you will consider a "deal breaker."

I wish you the best of luck on your move! Moving can be stressful, especially during a pandemic. However, it can also be exciting when you consider redecorating and refurnishing your new place, feeling as though you are starting out fresh again, and having the opportunity to make new and perhaps closer, lifelong friends. You might even find more services and healthcare benefits in your area, such as discounted rates for public transportation, tax breaks on certain things, better weather, lowered community polarization and discord, lowered crime rates, and more.

[Deilla]

The sun is going down and I'm getting depressed. I'm ready to sleep until sunrise.

I did some cleaning this morning and it went alright. This afternoon I got into an argument with my friend. Maybe I should have known better not to have mentioned to him about my possibility of moving, since he had to bring up that
I should try to look for a job. I'm not feeling motivated to get a job now after what I had been through and wanting to leave the area where I am. So I'm confused.

The days are lousy now since I have been arguing with my sister and him. They are all that I have. It has sent me into deep depression and I'm feeling like there's no light at the end of the tunnel. And I'll be all alone because I can't seem to get along with anyone. I'd like to have someone to understand me, warts and all that I have now.