[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by regretful

Depression does not seem to want to relent one bit. Awakened rather early today (4 AM) and then could not get back to sleep. So goes the day thus far...It would be nice to have some relief; the real relief is that it is Friday, but it's a small consolation as the depression has me in such a state that I just want to be alone when I get home...I do wish all of you well in your struggle against this terrible and invisible demon.

I hear you. I can’t sleep either. I hate feeling depressed.

[Rose76]

After doing pretty well for a decent period of time, I'm now in a tailspin. That's my pattern. Depressive episodes don't last forever with me. Neither does feeling really well. It's a cycle that repeats and repeats.

I'm telling myself that this depressed mood will lift eventually, like it always does. I can help that happen, if I make the effort to get out of bed and off the couch and take care of business. I got all caught up on laundry and made some progress on my pre-holiday annual big cleaning. But now I don't feel like doing anything.

I'm kind of isolated, more or less by choice. That may be part of my problem. But I just don't feel like mingling.

[Breaking Dawn]

I did pretty good today.

[Rose76]

Now I have anxiety on top of depression. Just had a weepy spell. I just kind of choked it back.

Earlier I did get to the gym. Exercised for 1 hour - nothing too strenuous.

I have to keep remembering that this will pass.

[cinnamonsun]

I'm slowly becoming more positive and happier. But I am still not myself or who I used to be. My happiness and energy isn't bright or shiny any more. It's just quiet. A kind of quiet peace. It's like I'm only half alive. But more alive than I was. So it's an improvement. My psych doc said I seemed stable. I'm like...yeah. I'm stable. But there's room for improvement.

[Deilla]

My day has had a lot of ups and downs. I practiced DBT today, which helped some.

[Breaking Dawn]

It's been anxiiety provoking this morning.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm not doing well. Too many disappointments. I'm mainly disappointed in myself.

I’m sorry that you are struggling right now. It will get better. I promise you.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Was busy in the morning with the usual Friday stuff - laundry and shopping. In the afternoon I did a small errand and picked up something I wanted that was hard to find, so that made me feel a little bit better.

Did not sleep well last night, even though I went to bed just shortly after 9 PM. Felt very depressed for most of the day and anxious with imagining how terrible things are going to be for me in the future. I go through periods when all I can think about are problems that will happen in the future that I probably would not be able to handle.

I'm still not able to do my exercises because of the restriction. I really miss it and it has helped me. Maybe soon the restrictions will be lifted.

Sometime all we can do just a little and that could just be doing errands or just taking a shower. It will get better. I promise you.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I wasted the whole day.

I completely understand how you feel.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

More disappointments today. I really feel sad.

I’m sorry that you are feeling disappointed and sad. I promise you that it will get better. Take it easy on yourself.

[Rose76]

Suddenly, I am sad. I think of my boyfriend who died last year, and I weep. This doesn't happen often these days. Nothing and no one means to me what he meant. I don't mean to anyone what I meant to him.

It will pass. I won't stay this sad. I don't think I'll ever feel too good again either.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Cleaned in the morning and that's about it. Making progress from the procedure I had on my face. But right now I'm not sure if I can get active quite yet. I'll wait until Monday when I contact the doctor about it. My friend suggested that I should go bike riding. It's a nice idea but I'm not sure if it's permissible. Perhaps it could be and it looks good but I don't want to take any chances. It's been very hard for me to take it easy for the last two weeks.

Sometime all we can do is just clean one section of a room because that all the energy we have. Don’t be to hard yourself.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I feel a little better emotionally. Physically, I'm in pain. I'm trying to have a good mood.

I’m glad that you are feeling better and I’m sorry that you are in pain. I hope that you can keep your good mood.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by T4bbyCat

Thanks for the new thread... could use a refresh or reset in general. If only there were a way to escape the daily grind and have some time in peace at the end.

Also just heard on the radio that the chances of a life-killing asteroid hitting the Earth increased to 1 in 1750 or something like that. But the good (?) news is that this won't happen for another 100 years.

We can always hope that it won’t happen.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

What a dreary bunch we've turned into! Everyone here is so down.

Well, not to break the trend - I don't even bother getting dressed lately. I don't seem to care about anything. Maybe because I don't care about anyone. He's gone, and what's left doesn't much interest me. That life should be wasted on me, while the pandemic takes others who matter more . . . There's no rhyme or reason to it.

This pandemic has made everyone feel more depressed than ever.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Kelly68

Wow. So called friends know how to keep a person feeling down. I was thinking of buying a place, mentioned it to a friend I've had my whole life, there's one down the street, and she said "there's not much to rent around here, i wish you luck". it was obvious what i was saying. She also deleted me on Facebook, not that I care about facebook, but really I don't know what her problem is. Does no one want us to succeed? I'm sore and tired. I want to help my youngest.

I’m so sorry that your friend is treating you so horribly. She doesn’t sound like a good a friend. She sound like an insecure and jealous person. Be glad she is out of your life. No one needs to be friends with someone who puts people down. I say go ahead and buy you a house or have one built that you like.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I feel pretty good right now.

That is awesome.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by GoGo2

Feel OK, but tired.

That is awesome.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

I'm very tired, too.

I’m sorry that you are feeling tired. I understand because I been tired myself.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really depressed lately. Nothing I do is really making me feel better.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Was fairly busy today. It could have been a nice day but it didn't turn out that way. Mainly because I sent an email to my doctor who had performed the procedure on my face plus a photo of the progress of it. Along with the photo I had asked some important questions and made comments as to what's going on. I had sent the email at 9 AM this morning and all day I did not hear anything back. I was deeply disappointed. I thought that this would be the day to hear from the doctor giving me the "green light" from my restrictions. After two weeks of hanging low, which was hard for me. Oh well!

I’m sorry that the doctor never got back in touch with you today. I understand why you are feeling disappointed.

[Deilla]

My sister and her family hurt my feelings. It's been terrible all day. I don't ever want to see them again. I won't be joining my family for the holidays.

[Rose76]

Trying to come out of this latest tailspin.

I fell asleep okay, but woke up at 2 a.m.

[Deilla]

I slept for a good bit but I'm still hurting. It hurts physically as well as emotionally. I'm very depressed and don't know what to do about it. I guess I could try REST and do some self-soothing.

Edit - The self-soothing helped. I focused on the 5 senses. I listened to birdsong, looked at my collection of art on Pinterest, drank my favorite drink and put Sweet Citrus hand lotion on. I didn't have a nice blanket. But I did order one. Later I might order a sensory pillow or blanket.