[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

snip: I didn't expect something to go wrong with my car since there was no warning. And then I got notice that my rent will increase monthly in June. So this afternoon I feel like I'm being smoked financially. My income isn't increasing, that's for sure!

Me too. And I've also had unexpected car problems, like when I needed new tires. I hardly drive but they get "dry rot" from age (over 10 years old). They are so expensive.

I also got a recent rent increase, while losing the ACP discount this month as Congress isn't funding it again. I'm feeling like I'm living in the kind of dystopia I've read in science fiction books or seen in movies.

[Rose76]

Yesterday was a good day. I worked outside on rose bushes. It made my back sore, pulling weeds. I slept too late this morning. I have to start setting an alarm.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by Rose76

snip: I worked outside on rose bushes.

Your member name always brings roses to mind, my favorite flower. I'd grow them but they need full sun all day, which I don't have.

Today I did my cleaning as always on Saturdays. I didn't sleep well because I kept waking up and had some weird dreams. I was awake around 5 this morning and had a hard time getting back to sleep. I guess someone in the next apartment unit from me was taking a shower at that time. The sound of running water on the pipes were loud, but I couldn't sleep at that time anyways. It didn't last long, but when it turned off I could the water running probably from a distant unit. It wasn't loud but it kept going for an hour and a half. I was worried that something was wrong. But it was a relief that it finally shut off, though I felt on edge early this morning.

It's been a weird week. All kinds of disappointments and little set backs happened. I hope next week will be better.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

snip: I guess someone in the next apartment unit from me was taking a shower at that time. The sound of running water on the pipes were loud, but I couldn't sleep at that time anyways.

Glad I follow your thread, as it seems we have such similar experiences with neighbors, "friends", etc.

My upstairs neighbor takes his shower in the middle of the night. But last night he took TWO showers. I know I posted this before, but he has this annoying habit of turning the water on and off with such force, several times with about 30 seconds in between. I don't know if he's trying to save water or what. It's odd. It will happen 3-4 times, and I'm waiting for the next blast. I wish he'd just run the shower normally then be DONE. Anyway, once it was quiet I figured I could finally drift off.

Then he blasts the water again. I'm guessing it was about a half hour or hour later, but I make it a point not to look at the clock. It would make me more anxious and upset. Also he didn't go out last night like I hoped. Anyway the first time he used the shower, I couldn't sleep anyway so I was reading. But the second time I was ready, and he took another shower. Like in your building, there's no insulation for the pipes and I really hear the water blasting.

Years ago they repiped the building, so I saw with my own eyes how thin the walls are. They might as well be made out of paper.

One time someone was running the water continuously for HOURS. Drove me nuts. I don't know what someone could be doing.

Today we are having yet another hot water emergency, so the hot water has been off for hours so far. I hope it comes back this evening, as a long shower is my way to unwind from the day.

And I hope next week is better for you.

Today was the same as yesterday. I was busy in the morning as I was paying the bills for the month. The afternoon is long and dull. I just got the mail and all I got were flyer ads. I haven't go out anywhere today, so far, but I'll go on a bike ride pretty soon.

I plan to do a little shopping tomorrow morning. Nothing planned going on after shopping.

[Albatross2008]

Both ups and downs. I got in a good workout today.

I felt depressed in the morning. I did some light shopping in the early morning. I felt like I had to deal with some rudeness at the store and when I got home a guy told me I can't park in a spot because he was doing some hedge trimming. The street parking is once again not easy as the little lot in back (I had mentioned it before) had closed after it was opened for only a week. I don't know why they opened it up and then closed it.

Last Thursday I had my car worked on by a mobile service because it had broken down when I got home from shopping that day. This morning one of my neighbors came up to me and asked me how much it cost. I didn't want to talk about it. I swear it's just like Mayberry at where I live!

[3rd rock]

I'm really struggling. Recently, I went to the emergency room 4 times in 8 days. I'm frustrated by the seemingly endless waitlists to access the care that I need. I'm not angry or resentful, as I understand more people than ever are suffering from the issues I'm suffering from and are trying to access care, and this is placing an enormous strain on our healthcare system which is struggling to keep up. I just don't know how much more of this I can withstand. I'm trying to get through this, I really am, but I feel like I'm failing.

[Rose76]

I woke up in a real good mood. I wasted a bunch of hours just thinking about stuff. Then I went out to my front patio where I got charged by my neighbor's bad-tempered pitbull. The dog jumped on me. I wasn't hurt but I was badly scared.

A few hours later, I got notified that a close family member was found dead today by the police. I've had a hard time calming down. Didn't hardly eat all day. I'll eat something now. My neck is very sore lately. That happens when I'm online too long.

I wish things could just be normal for awhile. I'm not depressed today.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I woke up in a real good mood. I wasted a bunch of hours just thinking about stuff. Then I went out to my front patio where I got charged by my neighbor's bad-tempered pitbull. The dog jumped on me. I wasn't hurt but I was badly scared.

A few hours later, I got notified that a close family member was found dead today by the police. I've had a hard time calming down. Didn't hardly eat all day. I'll eat something now. My neck is very sore lately. That happens when I'm online too long.

I wish things could just be normal for awhile. I'm not depressed today.

I am so sorry for your loss.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I woke up in a real good mood. I wasted a bunch of hours just thinking about stuff. Then I went out to my front patio where I got charged by my neighbor's bad-tempered pitbull. The dog jumped on me. I wasn't hurt but I was badly scared.

A few hours later, I got notified that a close family member was found dead today by the police. I've had a hard time calming down. Didn't hardly eat all day. I'll eat something now. My neck is very sore lately. That happens when I'm online too long.

I wish things could just be normal for awhile. I'm not depressed today.

:I’m sorry:: hugs:

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

snip: This morning one of my neighbors came up to me and asked me how much it cost. I didn't want to talk about it. I swear it's just like Mayberry at where I live!

A few months ago I had my car towed from home, and I ran into my next door neighbor. He briefly asked me what happened. I thought it's the opposite of Mayberry where you live?! You mentioned once how unfriendly the neighbors are, like in my building. Ah, Mayberry....you must be referring to the Andy Griffith show. I know the town name is used as a generic reference to a small town feel.

Previously you mentioned a porta potty in the parking lot. In my experience, it means they are going to do something that's going to take awhile: Examples like repaving, roadwork nearby or building yet more apartments. I don't know how big the lot is but around here, they managed to cram over 100 units onto a lot that used to be a body shop. And since they can't build sideways, they go up and build a high rise.

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

snip: ...this is placing an enormous strain on our healthcare system which is struggling to keep up.

I see that you're in Canada. I'm so sorry to see that it sucks as much as the system in the US. There are long waiting lists here too, and mental health was never seen as a priority in American culture. The "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" mindset is too deeply embedded. And Covid just pushed things over the edge.

Originally Posted by Rose76

I woke up in a real good mood. I wasted a bunch of hours just thinking about stuff. Then I went out to my front patio where I got charged by my neighbor's bad-tempered pitbull. The dog jumped on me. I wasn't hurt but I was badly scared.

A few hours later, I got notified that a close family member was found dead today by the police. I've had a hard time calming down. Didn't hardly eat all day. I'll eat something now. My neck is very sore lately. That happens when I'm online too long.

I wish things could just be normal for awhile. I'm not depressed today.

My day is just beginning, so I'll see how the rest of the day will be. I called my friend from the college days to wish him a happy birthday. It was nice talking to him, even though he's not quite the same as he was back in the college days.

As far as my reference to "Mayberry", I meant it as being like small town gossips. The people at where I live gossip a lot and it's about how bad certain individuals living here are. They are not friendly for the most part. There are some who are alright or pretty good but I don't see them that often unfortunately. At that little lot behind me, they also put in a mini supply storage trailer. It's all there because of a big drain pipe project. I was told they need that space to park in to work, but it seems like nothing is being done.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

snip: It was nice talking to him, even though he's not quite the same as he was back in the college days.

As far as my reference to "Mayberry", I meant it as being like small town gossips.....but it seems like nothing is being done.

Gosh, I talk to no one from school, any level!

Oh, I see what you mean now about small town gossip. In my building people don't talk, though I think a few might gossip or used to. There are a few neighbors I'm acquainted with but I don't run into them hardly at all, sadly. It's the annoying ones I seem to see a lot and try to avoid. Speaking of which, the people 2 doors from me seem to be going on some long trip. They packed so many suitcases yesterday in a big truck. Could be moving but since they aren't using boxes, I assume a trip somewhere. Good riddance as I get screaming kids, barking dog, a lot of guests and they often leave their door open. That lets the noise drift out towards ME of course.

The vacant lot near me, which included a shuttered gas station I mentioned before, still has no construction starting. And it's been over 4 years since they tore down all the old buildings. And it took them over 2 years to clean up the rubble that was at least 2 stories high! It was from the demolished buildings, which looked charred in parts as I think there was a fire.

It also collected a lot of trash, and there was an old toilet sitting right on top of the rubble as if to say how this city is in the toilet or something. And it IS.

YEARS to clean up, and years still that they haven't done anything. And I really feel bad for the people in the small complexes next to this lot..

All over the city they are building high rises on very busy intersections, adding more cars and people to the corner.

Rant over for today.

[Albatross2008]

Been exercising. Probably never going to be anything other than fat, but I am getting stronger.

[Rose76]

I'm doing okay. Kind of tired, but I must get things done today.

[3rd rock]

This week has gone okay so far. I haven't felt too sick and I haven't gone back to the hospital since last Saturday night. I spoke to someone from the local mental health team and they're going to connect me with something called a 'peer support worker,' who I should hear from next week sometime. My only complaint right now is it's too hot. I have a very low tolerance for heat and I often have to run the AC even in the winter. So 21 degrees right now is way too hot for me.

I spent the morning cleaning and that's about it. I haven't been sleeping well lately.

Nothing much after that. I recently signed a lease to stay on longer. I don't like the place I live it. Well the place is OK, the neighbors are not. I've wanted to leave but I didn't line anything up. I hope I won't regret signing that lease. Funny thing is, shortly after I signed and turned in the the lease, things happened to make me feel like a made a terrible mistake.

No one has called or messaged me in a good while. Just last Wednesday I called on my old college friend to wish him a happy birthday; and that's all it's been since then.

[Rose76]

Saturday has been a good day for me. Very upbeat mood. Having trouble falling asleep now.

[Cocosurviving]

Over the last two weeks, I have tried to donate blood to the Red Cross twice. Each time, my iron was too low. I reached out to my primary physician to report and explain other symptoms. I was struggling with fatigue and procrastination, and I could feel myself slipping into depression. My primary physician ordered labs and said low iron could trigger my depression. I’ve been eating foods containing iron and hope to not need another vitamin or supplement. I learned that iron is not part of the usual autoimmune disease lab panel. I don’t understand why, since vitamin deficiency is very common among people who have immune diseases, such as myself. The standard lab panel checks for vitamin deficiencies except iron deficiency.

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[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

snip:

Well the place is OK, the neighbors are not. I've wanted to leave but I didn't line anything up. Funny thing is, shortly after I signed and turned in the the lease, things happened to make me feel like a made a terrible mistake.

No one has called or messaged me in a good while.

Same here. Are you referring to the first time you signed the lease or this renewal, that stuff happened that made you feel you made a mistake?

Nobody ever calls or messages me period. My phone has so many cool ringtones or emojis I'd like to use, but all I get are scammers. I gt 3-4 calls a day on my cell, hardly anything on my landline.

[3rd rock]

I just came back from the emergency room after spending a little over 24 hours there. They wanted to keep me in as an admitted patient for a few days, but I left against medical advice. I chose to do this because admitting me would've meant me sitting in a chair in the ER for 3-4 days before a bed became available, and I didn't want to do that. The reasons for this were threefold: 1, I have pets I need to arrange for their care; 2, I need to see to it that my truck is stored in a safe location, and; 3, I need to tidy up my apartment in case the manager comes in while I'm away. So I'm back at home. Things seem to be moving at a more rapid pace, and I expect to be in detox and treatment in as little as a few days. That gives me some small hope.

[jmariah001]

Depression is high right now. So much going on. My pdoc switched my anti-depressant from one med to another. It hasn't taken affect yet. I don't feel any difference. I thought about contacting 988 tonight. But I think I will wait it out. They weren't too helpful last time. I think I will just head to bed soon. I have to be up at 5:20am tomorrow. Maybe I should journal before bed. Get these dark thoughts out. I think I will do that next. Well good night.

[jaklevco]

Last time I remember feeling at least this terrible was a year ago. That time, the worst period of my life I experienced so far started