[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm lonely. I feel sadness in my chest, my arms feel heavy and I have a lump in my throat. My head feels stuffy.

I’m lonely too

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

I made it through today. This was a day I wasn't looking forward to. I had all kinds of imaginations on how bad today could be. I pictured a lot of people getting together being noisy and and me being outside of all of it alone. But it didn't turn out that way -thank goodness! It's been very quiet and it and it seemed like those living here went other places. It was what I hoped for. But still I felt bad about being alone and lack of contacts from others on this particular day.

It's all done now. It's over!

I completely understand this feeling.

[emily1890]

I had a **** Christmas, and today is **** as well

I am so lonely that not even an email spammer is wishing me merry christmas

[Rose76]

I didn't get a phone call from either of my sisters on Christmas Eve or Christmas. One texted me that she had COVID. The other just doesn't bother to keep in touch anymore. I never thought this would happen.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm desperate to feel normal again. Instead, I'm just getting worse. I wonder if this will ever be over.

Exactly what I am going through

[Rose76]

I'm not doing too good. I tell myself this can't last forever.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by emily1890

I had a **** Christmas, and today is **** as well

I am so lonely that not even an email spammer is wishing me merry christmas

I’m

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I didn't get a phone call from either of my sisters on Christmas Eve or Christmas. One texted me that she had COVID. The other just doesn't bother to keep in touch anymore. I never thought this would happen.

I’m no one called you and your sister :sadhug has covid

My sister called me this morning. First time we talked in about two weeks. She didn't sound all that great. I don't think there's just something wrong with her arm broken, I think there's something mentally wrong also. Too bad! Other than that, nothing much to report about.

[3rd rock]

I have made the decision to quit drinking, and I am coming up with a plan.

I got up early this morning (6 AM) to do the laundry. And then one of the dryers didn't work after the wash was finished. I usually use two dryers, but I could only use one because another dryer was out of order. I got my clothes nice and dry after all but it was a bit of a hassle. The apartment manager was nice to refund the money I lost. Both dryers got fixed after my laundry was done.

Other than that, nothing much. Still feeling depressed.

[Rose76]

Went to the post office, the pharmacy and got my hair cut. Not a big whup-di-do to brag about, but it's better than how I've been doing. Maybe tomorrow, I'll improve a smidgeon more. Maybe I'll feel normal eventually.

[3rd rock]

I've accomplished some writing, and I hope to finish the chapter I'm currently working on this weekend. Then I'm going to ask a couple of people I know to give me some feedback on it, rather than waiting until a full first draft of the manuscript is complete. I have the next ten days off work, and I hope to use much of that time in writing. I should be able to get another chapter done during that time.

My new keyboard came in the mail, a few days earlier than expected. It's excellent, I much prefer these mechanical keyboards.

[hiddenaway]

I could say I'm not still heartbroken that I didn't get the one thing I really, truly wanted for Christmas but that would be the biggest lie cause I am.

...and before you say 'go by yourself,' that's not an option cause I don't drive and public transportation terrifies me.

[Rose76]

I'm still in a pit. Just tired. No energy.

[T4bbyCat]

Happy New Year! Everyone I know sleeps through it, so it's a bit hard to celebrate all by myself 😂

[Rose76]

It was a down day for me. Maybe I'll improve when the holidays are out of the way.

Today's my birthday. It wasn't much of a birthday at all. I only got a phone call from my local friend and the friend I went to college with. My brother and sister didn't call. Also, no gifts and cake. Wow, what a hoot this birthday was!

[Rose76]

I still haven't managed to launch myself into a normal state of mind. I think about asking my PCP for a referral to psych services. Then I back off of that idea. Last spring, my PCP offered to refer me to be seen by a therapist. I waited to hear about an appointment. It never happened. I guess she just forgot . . . or something. It wasn't the first time she made an offer and didn't follow through.

Over the years, I was told multiple times that I did not seem to have any real psych problem. Back over 30 years ago, I went to the psych services center near me. While an intake nurse was interviewing me, we could hear a male patient yelling and kicking up a fuss, further down the hall. The nurse with me said, "We tend to prioritize a person like him over a person like you." I ended up agreeing to just go home. A few days later, I bought a gun. Some years back, this psych center was in the news. A woman who went there seeking help was turned away. A few hours later, she hung herself. Her family was suing.

I think I better just try to clean up my apartment. Getting that done would make me feel better. Then I need to find activities in my community to participate in. Every evening I say that I'll do better tomorrow. Then, the next day, I fail to make progress. I need to make specific plans and a schedule. The thought of doing that makes me want to go back to bed. This tiredness is awful.

I just have to make myself do what I know I need to do. I think that tomorrow I will make an appointment with a person who will help me clean up my place. I've hired this person in the past. She's expensive, but worth the money.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling a little bit better at the moment even though I was ghosted 4 days ago by my gf. It hurts but I started looking at the positives

[Albatross2008]

Down. Nearly flat on the ground at this point. Combination of things, but it could be a significant anniversary coming up very soon.

[Rose76]

Another sad day. I managed to take a shower. That was my accomplishment for today. My place is a mess. Tomorrow I'll probably hire someone to help me clean up. I hate being in these messy suroundings. It makes me feel worse depressed. Then I just make more messes. No dishes washed in days. My income is small, but I'll buy groceries on credit. That frees up money to hire someone to help me. I'm so short of breath when I do anything. All I want to do is sit and watch TV.

[3rd rock]

I'm in a downward spiral due to my out of control drinking after I relapsed about a year ago. I am now either drunk or so sick I can hardly move much of the time. I've been hospitalized four times in the last three months from severe withdrawal symptoms. I'm not taking my psychiatric medications when I drink, which means depressive symptoms are getting even worse. I'm missing more work than before, and I expect HR to talk to me about it at some point. I am going to go to a meeting this weekend, probably on Sunday. I've been referred to the local public mental health clinic, but it's all so overwhelming. I will call them on Monday before going to work.

[Buffy01]

I’m of feeling depressed all the time

My sister called. I was upset that she hadn't called me on my birthday (last Monday). She said I had previously told her that I preferred not to get a call on my birthday. I had suspected that was the reason she didn't call. She told my brother the same thing and I guess that's why he didn't call. I kind of forgot about it. But then I just recalled that, around November or early December of last year (2022), my sister and I didn't have a good talk; and then I told her not to call me anymore. I ended up calling her in the middle of Jan. of '23 because my phone had gone out of service. So because of that, we got talking to each other again. Anyways, the talk I had with my sister recently didn't go well. I get the feeling we're going to phase each other out eventually.

My friend and I argued this morning over the phone. But later in that phone call, we decided to talk later and try to resolve things. My sister and my friend are all I have socially and both are not going well. So that makes me depressed, anxious, and lonely.