I felt depressed a weird this morning. I just had that depressed feeling but not really knowing why.

When I woke up in the middle of night, I was reaching for a handkerchief when I needed to blow my nose. I had the handkerchief further away and when I reached for it I threw out my right shoulder. It's still sore now and it was sore when I worked out this morning.

Also it's been noisy with construction of the apartments across the street and a big project just began down the street from me. I feel heartbroken that the nice and quiet corner of the neighborhood where I am has now gone to Hell.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

I felt depressed a weird this morning. I just had that depressed feeling but not really knowing why.

When I woke up in the middle of night, I was reaching for a handkerchief when I needed to blow my nose. I had the handkerchief further away and when I reached for it I threw out my right shoulder. It's still sore now and it was sore when I worked out this morning.

Also it's been noisy with construction of the apartments across the street and a big project just began down the street from me. I feel heartbroken that the nice and quiet corner of the neighborhood where I am has now gone to Hell.

I've pulled something before too, while reaching for something but I can't remember what. Also now that I'm older, I can tweak something easier.

Around here they are almost done with the buildings a block from me, now they want to build more on this very busy and $hitty intersection. They will probably move the bus stop there. Driving will be impossible soon; I might have to take the bus sometimes just to avoid the gridlock that will occur.

Even though they demolished the old buildings and gas station, construction may not even start for months. I kind of want them to get started so they will be done sooner. But I don't want to go out of my way yet to get home/leave home. I'm not ready for that change.

[Rose76]

I've been doing well. But I started slipping today. The weather is getting fall-like. Last year, in Nov, I got real depressed, and it took months to get over that. I don't want that to happen again. I need to get out of the house more.

I was busy this morning with laundry and shopping afterwards. I feel like my depression is lifting a little bit.

[Rose76]

Now I really am worried. Today I did nothing, but read online. I don't want to fall into a downward spiral, but it's starting.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by unaluna

Some lady was shrieking yesterday afternoon, i was about to call the cops! She sounded like she was in distress. Fortunately it didnt last too long and she calmed down and they went inside. But she better watch it.

I dont want to be the neighborhoid crab but i will if i have to. If it happens again i will ask "are you okay?"

sounds like a great idea to do

Pretty busy this morning with light cleaning and making a batch of spaghetti sauce. After it's over, I feel let down.

Tomorrow I'm having a blood test. I always worry about receiving bad news. Thankfully, every time I feel that way, I get my results and it ends up pretty good. Still it puts a damper in my spirits to have it coming up.

I took out the trash this morning and took brief seconds to see the apartments of people who lived in them and now they are gone and the units are empty. These people I knew had lived here for a number of years and now they're gone. That depressed me, even though I never developed a relationship with them.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

Snip: I took out the trash this morning and took brief seconds to see the apartments of people who lived in them and now they are gone and the units are empty. These people I knew had lived here for a number of years and now they're gone. That depressed me, even though I never developed a relationship with them.

Since my building has a high turnover rate I see this often. I always feel like it’s onward and upward for them even though I don’t know the reason why they are moving. And I’m still stuck here. They will probably bury me here.🪦

We seem to have a vacancy every couple of months.

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[Rose76]

Been real unmotivated. I have to pull up out of this.

[3rd rock]

I recently was banned from a favorite forum of mine on which I had a lot of (internet) friends. I believe this was in error, and I've contacted the administrators to ask them to reconsider, but they haven't replied. This really bothers me because there were people on that site I really liked and I could go there to speak to people who were friendly and casual with me. Now it feels like I don't have anywhere to go and I've lost contact with a lot of 'friends.'

I'm working my way back to returning to work, however I still have no timeline for this. I've stopped taking a number of my lesser meds due to cost concerns; I've run out of drug coverage and I cannot afford $110-140 a week in prescriptions. The only ones I've stopped taking are ones I think I can live without; I'm still taking the important psychiatric meds. Otherwise I have nothing to do and no one to turn to. The isolation is crippling and painful. I have no answers. At least I'm still successfully avoiding alcohol. I suppose that's some small victory.

[Rose76]

I'm doing pretty good. I just have to keep pushing. My place is clean and neat, which gives me a boost.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

snip: I recently was banned from a favorite forum of mine on which I had a lot of (internet) friends. I believe this was in error, and I've contacted the administrators to ask them to reconsider, but they haven't replied. This really bothers me because there were people on that site I really liked and I could go there to speak to people who were friendly and casual with me. Now it feels like I don't have anywhere to go and I've lost contact with a lot of 'friends.'

The isolation is crippling and painful.

((((3rdRock)))) I'm sorry Rock. THAT sucks. No reply is the worse. I know how that feels. We are still here.

I don't have anyone in real life except for one person. And during Covid lockdowns in 2020, I was cut off because I couldn't get online. I relied on the library for over 30 years and suddenly they were closed just like everything else. So I can kind of get it! This is the only forum I go to, and at that time I still had a lot of people to talk to here. Since then many have not come back or deleted their accounts altogether. So I know that feeling of isolation; I still recall it even 4 years later.

[3rd rock]

I had a meeting with my employer this past week regarding my ongoing medical leave due to psychiatric condition. I hope to return to work soon. The HR representative is making life unnecessarily difficult, and the union has taken up the cause to fight for me. It's complicated and I don't feel like going into all the details here, but I believe the company is engaged in unlawful discrimination on the basis of ability (e.g. medical condition). My actual return to work is unknown, even if I will imminently be medically cleared to return. It's not right, but with the union fighting for me I believe it will work out in my favor. In the meantime, it will continue to be the source of major stress, which is something I don't need.

[Buffy01]

I have been feeling really bad about my life especially lately

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

snip: The HR representative is making life unnecessarily difficult, and the union has taken up the cause to fight for me.

HR is such a "necessary evil" and in spite of the silly name, there's no humanity in "human resources" and they are there to look after the company's interests. I used to think it was for the employee. Nope.

Oh, Rock we can still listen.

[Rose76]

I don't feel depressed, but I'm acting depressed at times, by just not doing anything. That will eventually make me feel depressed, if I don't get up and get going.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I recently was banned from a favorite forum of mine on which I had a lot of (internet) friends. I believe this was in error, and I've contacted the administrators to ask them to reconsider, but they haven't replied. This really bothers me because there were people on that site I really liked and I could go there to speak to people who were friendly and casual with me. Now it feels like I don't have anywhere to go and I've lost contact with a lot of 'friends.

I'm working my way back to returning to work, however I still have no timeline for this. I've stopped taking a number of my lesser meds due to cost concerns; I've run out of drug coverage and I cannot afford $110-140 a week in prescriptions. The only ones I've stopped taking are ones I think I can live without; I'm still taking the important psychiatric meds. Otherwise I have nothing to do and no one to turn to. The isolation is crippling and painful. I have no answers. At least I'm still successfully avoiding alcohol. I suppose that's some small victory.

I’m very this has happened to you. I found myself banned on Kati Morton website

[Rose76]

I've been sitting at the kitchen table for over 2 hours. I just got up to go make my bed. Soon as I entered the bedroom, all I wanted was to go back to bed. I've had plenty of sleep. I just feel very uneasy. I feel like the uneasy feeling would simmer down, if I got into my nice, warm, comfortable bed.

So I came back to sitting in the kitchen. Lying down would be a very bad idea. I have a few important things to do today. This is kind of a low level of depression. It seems so difficult to just stay vertical. Every morning is like this, only it is getting worse.

[Violetta75]

I'm ok but feel frozen. I need to get up and get groceries but it's been dark and raining. Looks like it's clearing up so I must go get groceries. And more. My sons second bike I got is rusty too so he wants some wd40 for it. A bit down but I need to stay on top of any messes around here, and I need my younger son to get motivated to get counselling for his addictions and depression so he can get a job, soon I hope.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by nonightowl

((((3rdRock)))) I'm sorry Rock. THAT sucks. No reply is the worse. I know how that feels. We are still here.

I don't have anyone in real life except for one person. And during Covid lockdowns in 2020, I was cut off because I couldn't get online. I relied on the library for over 30 years and suddenly they were closed just like everything else. So I can kind of get it! This is the only forum I go to, and at that time I still had a lot of people to talk to here. Since then many have not come back or deleted their accounts altogether. So I know that feeling of isolation; I still recall it even 4 years later.

: I’m very sorry:

[Rose76]

My car needs expensive work done. Affording it is tough, but I think I can manage it. I am depressed, but not severely.

[Buffy01]

I wished that I could figure out what is causing my depression

[Rose76]

Just trying to not fall off this cliff into that pit. Right now I'm trying to talk myself into getting dressed. It's a hard sell.

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Just trying to not fall off this cliff into that pit. Right now I'm trying to talk myself into getting dressed. It's a hard sell.

Im sorry, but geez i give myself an A plus plus plus if i change my underpants. In already on top just for wearing underpants. Or is that, "just for wearing just underpants"?

Its not so much "move the goalposts" as it is, "start from where you are." Theres a reason old folks homes dont have football fields.

[3rd rock]

Sometimes it seems like everyone hates me. People mock me and sometimes it seems cruel and mean-spirited. Someone said I'm not their type and when I asked why they said it's because they like intelligent people. And that just sets me off on a downward spiral of negative thoughts, about how I'm not only stupid but lazy and ugly too, and I've never accomplished anything in life, and I have no redeeming qualities or features. Then people mock me for getting emotional but that only makes it worse. It's hard to go through life realizing no one has ever wanted or desired you, they've only ever been stuck with you, that you've always been a burden and nothing more.