[selfy]

.....
there is no point me being here.
****ing honestly
soryr bout the language. yet another thing im a cow about.
icant do a thing right. im a lameassed ugly lazy twat with no life. who has no motivation, no will to do anything, no drive.
i dont no y im even posting here. %#@&#! not like it will help. i should just finish with it all
i am a pathetic person,,, loook at what ive become eh, a sad lonely girl, with no attributes, no goals and nothing, u no y?
cuz im lazy, lazy llazy lazy. i just cant shand the thouhght of gettingg up tomorrow and doing the same thing i idid today and yeasterday and last week. i am trying to steer clar of the subject that isnt alllowed here, but its floationg round my head like crazy and i dont see why not. i dont know what to do i dont knoe what to do. my life has run off and ive been left behind
i coulda just stuckith beig nromal but ohhh no that wsasnt bloody good enough.
oh well
not htat youve read this cuz u wont read something by me. why bother

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[Cyran0]

selfy, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way and I hope you know the things you're thinking about yourself aren't true. I read your posts all the time and know enough about you to say that you are a good person of real value.

I know your life isn't perfect, I know you're not perfect, and I know it's hard to believe, but there's hope. Routines change, we change, and life changes.

Hold on. Be safe.

Cyran0

[Perna]

It's hard when we have boring routines for a long period but they can become our lifesavers since they are "routine". When I felt most suicidal I helped myself by calling and making a dentist appointment! It was a routine in my life, dentist every 6 months. They can be helpful climbing ropes.

I was watching one of the Pirates of the Caribbean movies yesterday, the second one I think, and was amazed at what they did on the island when they were trying to get away from the cannibals? :-) Look at your day-to-day stuff again and see if you can't see it as a tool?

When I was taking computer programming I was wishing I had paid more attention to maths in school, especially Algebra. It all really does count and it feels harder for me at 57 to get practicing something than it might have to do it back then and quit worrying about the stuff outside myself that would change.

[AAAAA]

(((((selfy))))) I'm sorry that you're going a dark spell right now, but I also happen to know that you're very compassionate and helpful! Just think of all of the people that you've helped here!

[pegasus]

Oh ((((((( selfy ))))))) I happen to think you are a wonderful person, you are fun in chat and you are always wanting to help. I guess you can't see that right now, please know you are loved here.

Do something special for yourself tomorrow, something out of the ordinary and be gentle with yourself. I think you are lovely!

(((((selfy))))
You are so important here
You go beyond helping here i have seen it
YOu always put other ppl first
Never yourself
I agree with peg do something nice for you
your worth it

[crazybones]

srry tht it seems tht way but u probably help others more then u can see by being here from what i understand alot of people like u and wish there was something better for u by being here u help urself and others

[puckyjan56]

you sound so confused and hurting. i've been on the merry-go-round of emotions this week. i came home today, i take my mom to doc and anywhere she needs to go. the minute i wanlk in the door i start this crying fit. it was loud and my mind was blak, so it does happen to all of us. i know i am new to you but you will be in my thoughts and it will get better, pj56

[sigurd]

<3!!!

[nightbird]

selfy, l liked meeting you in chat the ther night.

Listen, I'm depressed too.

One thing I know without a doubt, you are here for a purpose.
You are awesome also.

The knowledge you have about your own life experience canhelp alot of people.

Did you ever think of working at a camp for young people with emotional or drug problems as a counselor?

Or other difficulties?

How about runaway shelters or womans shelters?

There are so many places to make you hop up in the morning because you care bout being there - depends on what your style is, you know?

Could be in the fashion world, you could get grants and go to school.

Are you artistic? Intereted in anything, even as a little child?

There you go - a start.

Your depression is lying to you, you know.
I am suffering from depression myself, it's just I've been around alot longer than you in the world and many years w/o depression. Or mostly denying it, lol.

E-mail me if you like.

You are going to be fine.
We all have crappy days.

Peace,
nightbird

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((selfy))))

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, please do not talk that way. I love you so much and you are so important to all of me. You know me so much and we would be lost without you. I love you so much. Please NEVER forget that. I know things are rough right now but please hold on. We are right here beside you, walking with you and holding your hand. Sitting next to you just as you sit next to us. You do so much for people here and we all love you. Especially us.

cami

[selfy]

bless u guys. *hugs* ill alwyas be here for u all i guess i justgotta control it all more, get myself out of down bits eh.
nightbird, u made some fantastic suggestions there, and i would do that. this is one of the things that gets me down also is that i would but i cant, im too young. im 15, and they dont really have those camps over here. but i will keep lookng.
ty guys, i love u all
stay happy
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